As i lay on the floor flat
you walk on me like a door mat
I've got your footprint on my sore back
and i swore that
pigs would fly, the day that your back
I can't ignore facts
i want nothing more than pride back
the feeling inside that
makes me feel like I'm trapped
I didn't feel like that
until you came back
and played games that
called names that
maimed, aimed at
taking the reigns back
making my brain snap
you want my last name back
after it was gave back
I lay back
dreamin' bout the day that
I can say that
you could sit as i sat
so we could have a nice chat
bout the life that
I got back
but, didn't want back
but, you would just talk smack
thats how you resolve spats
brass knuckles and ball bats
harsh words, and names called back
"piece of $hit", I was called that
"bit<h" was called back
then you would haul back
and attack
theres another loud crack!
as you smack, and i snack
on teeth that have cracked
I don't treat you like that
I don't even fight back
I don't wanna speak to you like that
weeks have passed
there is no "we", cause "we" don't last
so lets leave our past
believe our past
no need to retrieve our past
I'm not what you need
so please leave my a$$

i did what i had to do
i don't feel bad for you
Im do sad, madness ensues
I'm tired of putting on tap dancing shoes
and doing a little dance for you
so you can be in a decent mood
fu<k you and your attitude
so ask yourself, how can i be so crude?
how can i be so rude?
maybe it has something to do
with me being fed up with you
and all these instances led up to
you being fed up too
time for me to put my head up too
I'm so fed up I'm through
with being a little piggy bank for you
my tank is on empty thanks to you

our little bit of so called love
has created this so called grudge
that made you drag my name through the mud
and caused the metaphorical boiling of my blood
that made it spill and caused this flood

now its sink or swim
when we were together you would think of him
my "tough as nails" skin has been
worn way too thin
i play for keeps, cause i play to win
i intend for this game to end
your sin has caused your nightmares to begin
and i love it when
your tears take the strings to your heart and tug at them

you act like I'm supposed to care
its not even close to fair
that i wrote this rhyme just to post it there
hoping to cause the most despair
see what happens when tempers flare
cause so much mayhem people just point and stare

so I'm gonna do
what it is i always do
do some drugs and forget about this and you
just as soon
as I'm done dissin you
thats how much I'm missing you
that I'm wishing you
would find someone else to be bit<hing to
about all the stuff I'm not getting you
so tell me am i getting through?
are my words hitting you?
are you mad these names i call are fitting you?
better than those outfits in the fitting room
so to you i bid ado
forget all the things i did for you
do you really believe i did it all to just get screwed
or to get put in a bitter mood
the bitter me is starting to shimmer through
take this as a lesson, get a clue
the sky isnt always blue
i just ended my years of servitude
i have nothing left to prove
when lightning strikes next to you
it's best to move

what I'm doin
is what ya do when
people depend
on you to keep them
out of the deep end
take these demons
and defeat them
make sure my families eatin'
and even,
when life has got me beaten
i stand on my feet and
I'm strong as a rock even
when the water deepens
I'm sinkin', I'm thinkin'
I'm sick and
tired of livin'
in this world i was given'
there's a girl that I'm missin'
it's got me wishin'
i was in the position
to produce, divine intervention
so she would listen
to words of wisdom
and see my intentions

I'm intending
to be real, no more pretending
I'm planning on ascension
to catch her attention
I write to help me vent when
my heart is bent in
unsure what my feelings meant when
my heart was initially dented
and I, unintentionally prevented
our hearts from becoming kindred
but, as long as your life is splendid
i will be content with
the fact that it ended
before it started
i was whole hearted
but got scared and darted
i carted home my heart and
it was hard to part with
but now that i am heartless
I am startin'
to comprehend
why all of my friends
keep deep within, and defend
their heart, thats barely beating
cause it's retreating and defeating
the meaning of being
a human being
but you don't see it
til ya see the girl ya wanna be with
then your heart beat is immense
a million beats per minute
then it, makes some sense
new love, can erase old dents
and make a man repent
only say whats meant
eradicate resent
from the latter way it went
no matter how bad her day had went
or how sad it may have been
when hearts shatter way within
all that matters, make ammends
atone for all your sins

put to an end
an 80 hour binge
chances are slim
but theres a chance that i will win
happiness again
forget,..how crappy life has been
she's it,..with dimples on her chin
she can win
the sentiments, of so many men
so when, we evolved from being friends
i should have got the hint
and been, what i should have been
everythin', she knew i could have been
if i am true, i know it wouldn't end
"if i were you, i would try again"
the advice from all my friends

so here i am
i stand a man
understand, my plan began
i no longer stand
the man that ran
I'm the man that can
take your hand, fulfill your plans
i just need the chance
I know i have had too many chances
but, under these circumstances
i hope that ya chance it
i need your soul to dance with
my soul, when i re-attach it
i dispatched it
cause it hadn't mattered
since the day it shattered
pieces were scattered
from here to alabama
cause i had her
never knew how bad that sad hurts
left her heart in tatters
the pieces that were gathered
i placed them on a platter
assembled them with swagger
before i fall i stagger
you ignore my calls, I'm sadder
always fall from fates ladder
so after,
time, i find it hard to climb
i find it hard to find
this hardened heart of mine
if you read every line
you will surely find
my lines are entwined
and my rhymes are designed
to take you on a ride inside my mind
i try to take the time
to accurately define
the lines inside my rhymes
so immaculately sublime
spend sometime up in my mind
you will find
i'm in my prime
I'll band my spine
front to back, and side to side
just to know
that I'm alive

have ya ever been so sauced
you tossed your boss
across a loft?

have you ever been so high
you try to deny a lie
but your so fried
you let it slide
you lied
about the lie you denied?
so you slide back
try to take the lie back
change the subject with a wise crack
but she jumps right back
you decide that
despite that
she came right back like that
you fight back
and your right back
where you started at

I've seen better days
I better get a raise
need to get a debt erased
never let a debtor skate
better set your debtor straight
better bet I'm getting paid
never place your faith
in a pretty face
end up in a $hitty place
a little taste is all it takes
to make a wallet break
and i fall from grace
in the halls of fate
there's a wall of greats
a face from every race
and as of late
there's an empty space
tempting many preempting fate

I'm dodging shadows
waging battles
raising tadpoles
buying baby rattles
and baby bottles
watching my baby waddle
to his bottle
but, all my babies got old
without me
my children doubt me
they remember their parents shouting
loudly
even sunny days are cloudy
mommy and daddy are getting rowdy
on a quiet family outing
can't go one day without it
how did
I allow it?
my children's minds are clouded
I lost my mind but found it
I crossed the line
and found myself surrounded
I bought some time
to find a way around it
everyday my head is pounding
the tape is played then rewound
the only trace that's found
of the days when i was a kid
I was chased to this place and hid
to escape my ways
and debate what i did
here, i can lay for days
off of the grid
lay to waste
or flip my lid
save some face
from $hit i did
I hate my fate
and the way i live
scrape my plate
for a scrap to give
pray for a day
when I'm glad to live
I've lost my way
and feel bad for them
remember the games we played
when i was "dad" to them
it makes me feel sad within
wanting this madness to end
I'm taunted by life
when reality bends
haunted for life
by faces of family and friends
and retracing to the places
where they met their end
its so common I'm complacent
with the death of a friend
overdose of meth
or death from a syringe
I'm the last one left
from my clique of friends
I guess this is the best you get
when addiction wins
I hope the lord lets us
repent for our sins
we commited after
losing our innocence
I asked for forgiveness once
and haven't done it since
I've been binging for months
and forgot what love once meant
mourning the death
of a love once sent
regrets from rent money spent
whats left wouldn't make a dent
now i gotta explain'
where it all went
so I bare it all
cause i don't care at all
I know it ain't fair at all
not aware at all
her parents were their to call
didn't realize they were there at all
til i caught a glare from paul
I wasn't prepared at all
for the dare to brawl
they were there to stall
til she packed up
all her crap up
and had it stacked up
in the back of
her daddy's black truck

A good heart died that day
only one part survived that slay
you made a spark arch
from out of the dark
part of my heart
it's what required to start
the fire i acquired, by her
I'm so tired of being hired and fired
it has inspired my desire
to write words
and I'm so tired of being hurt
and needing work
needing them
and wanting her

I'm digging the way
you took a minute to say
hey, at the end of the day
your a friend I could date
but, I'm too timid to say it
don't wanna risk our friendship or betray it
cause of feelings i may have
they could cause mayhem
gotta take the good and the bad and weigh em
so i can back up the words that I'm saying
I know you think your gonna get hurt if I'm playing
but, you got my word that I'm staying
and I'll be faithful
I'm laying all my cards out on the table
so your capable
of seeing that I'm able
and have no problem with being stable
the pro's and con's were debated
but, just like our friendship, my feelings I can't betray them
I dream about the day when
I can, take your hand
and be more than just your friend
there's someone for everyone, and your it
the spark, you can't ignore it
your heart, I can restore it
If only, you knew life didn't have to be so lonely

well thank ya jamie, as always, your too kind ;)

very familiar feelings. Fight back, do whats right. :) nice write.

my phone rang, just the other day
a familiar voice, said my friend passed away
it hurt me so bad, I didn't think I'd last the day

I struggled to ask how he died
or what had brought him harm
they found him on his floor
with pin pricks on his arm

my friend,
we both fought an addiction
it seems to be a fight
none of us could win

now i really am
the last one left
all of my friends
no longer own their breath
all at an early age
taken by, the darkness of death
all because of drugs
I really am, the last one left
so i say it with a shrug
maybe i am next
how i will go
I'll give you just on guess

i can only figure
cause of drugs
or the squeeze of a trigger
when it comes to hearts
yours was always bigger
you know it's true homie
you'll always be my nigg@
R.I.P

Airman first class - John G. Crank
July 13, 1979-February 25, 2011

TOMORROW

When tomorrow starts without me
and I'm not here to see
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say
I know how much you love me
As much as i love you
And each time you think of me
I know you miss me too
so when tomorrow starts without me
don't think we're far apart
for every time you think of me
I'm right here in your heart



John,
my brother from another mother
A friend like no other
My partner in crime
we will meet again
It's only a matter of time
just like the old days, a pill and a brew
Can't wait til I'm back
Chillin with you
R.I.P soldier

Damn things are good
But, Damn things were great
Damn I fu<k3d up
But, Damn it's too late

Damn my girl is cute
But, Damn you are hot
and, Damn you are everything
that my new girl is not

Damn I miss your smile
and, Damn I miss your touch
Damn I'd walk ten miles
Cause, Damn I miss you just that much

But, Damn you are gone
And, Damn you won't be back
Damn you moved on
and Damn my heart is cracked

Damn it's a shame
and Damn all this hurts
Damn I been praying
And, Damn I went to church

Damn it's been a while
But, Damn god is great
Damn I went depressed
But, Damn that's where i met my mate

Damn she loves god
and, Damn she has faith
Damn you broke my heart
But Damn, if you didn't
I never would have met my babe

Wow she's not you
and Wow that is great
Wow her love is true
and Wow that must be fate

Wow you are gone
And Wow she is here
Wow she turns me on
And Wow things are clear

Wow she treats me right
And Wow you hurt me bad
Wow she don't fight
And Wow I am glad

Wow she is cute
But, Wow you are hot
Wow she is here
And I thank god you are not!

mentally
I meant to be
entering
this century
eventfully
and eventually
my destiny
will be sent to me
and essentially
my mental plea
will be the end of me
me and only me
is defending me
while police are apprehending me
and fingerprinting me
endlessly
and potentially
I'll end up in the penitentiary
but, I'm going apprehensively
no attorney sees
a decent defense for me
so that means
no attorney fees
and confidentially
the years are adding up for me
exponentially
as the prosecutor reads
charges they pressed against me
I'm not being treated preferentially
and I'm too tense to be
the quintessential me

well i think all styles of creative writing are meaningful. It's all about individuality, and expressing your inner most feelings without fear of reprisal. writing rhymes is something i have done since i was old enough to hold a pencil, it's a positive way to vent frustration, express happiness, or just create something beautiful with nothing more than words. I really hope you post more or your poems, I look forward to reading your next masterpiece.:)

all intelligent answers, I personally don't like co-dependant females. I can't stand straight, on my own two feet, if I'm nothing more than a leaning post for someone who is scared to be their own person.

I agree with some of the comments posted. I don't think hair color makes the difference. I believe it's about how you present yourself, and the impression you make with your personality.I know a dozen blondes that are ridiculously gorgeous, and i wouldn't give them the time of day, because they are ugly on the inside.

very nice. a wonderful idea of how the world should work.

thanks for sharing that. nice write.

thanks, I try to make it interesting to read.

;) thank ya.

live more, love more
adore her to the core
for richer or poorer
restore our repore
I implore her for more
before, she moves towards the door
and I'm forced to ignore
my wondering's,
of what could have been in store
for me and my Amore
if only I'd been more adoring
i could have changed the ending of the story
but still I'm defending the previous ending
and my reasons for distorting
so many seasons with my girl
even though she was my world
my feelings swirl
twist and turn
with a heart so cold, how can feelings burn?
I'm heartless, but you hurt me with words
our love is for the birds
they can take it and fly away
I'm not your guy today
but, I'm your man tomorrow
I plan to borrow
a fan, to air out our sorrow
one won't do it, so i will have to borrow
a car load
to air out our load
I need a pair of hard toed
boots, to walk down our road
have a bat in hand
to smack back the demons
and the evil man, i know i can be
but, just as sure as I'm standing
I know i can be
a man that's manly
and do right for my family
but planning
don't do a damn thing
but strand me
and it can be, demanding
at times
it's the reason for these rhymes
to vent from these signs
that it's the end of times
for me and mine
defending why, I lie to my
heart and mind
my eyes start to blind
from still waters that run deep
goes to being dark from sunny
everyone thinks it's funny, but me
why couldn't you hug me
and just love me
instead of making things so ugly
and saying F*<k me
kicking me to the curb
without so much as a word
an adjective or verb
I'd be glad to give
but it's too sad to live
together
we make it storm in sunny weather
but, that's just the norm for us together
i want you back
but i want to slap
myself, for the dealings dealt
and feelings felt
I'm feeling well, here in hell
all by myself, so here i dwell
without you, despite you
I doubt you
and I'm not about to
go through, what we went through
no, thank you
there's a girl for me, but it ain't you
but, I love you
always thinking of you
put no girl above you
wish i could undo
our fights
but your not the one wasting nights
hating life
and debating why