Hi all.

I tried quitting many times. I even quit for 9 months once. Then on New Years of 1980, I decided I'd have 1 drink of champagne to celebrate. Well, my motto was always, I can't have just one, so I had another. My friend of 14 years saw that I had started drinking, again. He asked to have a drink with him, so we had several. By 3 am, I had many drinks, smoked a joint on the club dance floor, and picked up smoking cigarretts, again. Got in my car and drove 25 miles to the South Side of Chicago to a party I knew was going on. I arrived around 4 am. Everyone was gone except the hostess and a couple of others. They had run out of ice, so the beer that was left was warm. Ah, nothing like a warm Old Style to extend my partying til the morning light. All in a nights work. Beautiful! I "DECIDED" I would quit 9 months previously. I didn't want to let it get out of control. It could be I just "DECIDED" I'd "fornication under carnal knowledge" up my life because, after all, things in my life were too good?

To each his own, but if you decide, I'll be there for you.
You know who you are......

(Hi wongo woman)
May 1 1986

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kuddos to those struggling day to day to stay safe and sane. However...so much for the spirit of anonimity and attraction rather than promotion. Sigh,,,whatever happened to the Traditions?

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Evening -- how's everyone doing tonight

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Hi everybody,

I say, to know me is to love me!

You really don't know me from this Online dating site, unless we have a long term relationship either by email or by phone. I ain't no saint, but I know that by shring my experience, strength and hope, I may help someone else. i just try to carry the message. Sorry if I broke the rules.....

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This sounds eerily like my Miss Chrystal. Oddly enough this young lady is from the same county and town I was, when it was written. She is also a friend of one of my sons. She was a meth user as well as a drinker. She was very young.

They found this poem(letter)after her death in a dresser drawer.

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Meet Mr. and Mrs. Crystal Meth.


I'LL destroy homes – I'll tear families apart.

I'll take your children and that's just a start.

I'm more valued than diamonds, more precious than gold.

The sorrow I'll bring is a sight to behold.

If you need me, remember, I'm easily found.

I live all around you, in school and in town.

I live with the rich, I live with the poor.

I live just down the street and maybe next door.

I'm made in a lab, but not one like you think.

I can be made under the kitchen sink,

I'm in your child's closet, and even out in the woods.

If this scares you to death, then it certainly should.

I have many names. But there's one you'll know best.

I'm sure you've heard of me, my name is Crystal Meth.

My power is awesome, try me, you'll see.

But if you do, you may never break free.

Just try me once and I might let you go.

But if you try me twice, then I'll own your soul.

When I possess you, you'll steal and you'll lie.

You'll do what you have to do, just to get high.

The crimes you commit for my narcotic charms,

Will be worth the pleasures you feel in my arms.

You'll lie to your mother; you'll steal from your dad.

When you see their tears, you must feel sad.

Just forget your morals and how you were raised.

I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways.

I'll take kids from their parents; I'll take parents from their kids.

I'll turn people from God, I'll separate friends.

I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride.

I'll be with you always, right by your side.

You'll give up everything, your family, your home.

Your money, your true friend, then you'll be alone.

I'll take and take till you have no more to give.

When I'm finished with you, you'll be lucky to live.

If you try me, be warned, this is not a game.

If I'm given the chance, I'll drive you insane.

I'll ravage your body; I'll control your mind.

I'll own you completely; your soul will be mine.

The nightmares I'll give you when you're lying in bed,

And the voices you'll hear from inside your head.

The sweats, the shakes, and the visions from me.

I want you to know these things are gifts from me.

But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart

That you are now mine and we shall not part.

You'll regret that you tried me (they always do).

But you came to me, not I to you.

You knew this would happen.

Many times you've been told.

But you challenged my power,

You chose to be bold.

You could have said no and then walked away.

If you could live that day over now, what would you say?

My power is awesome, as I told you before.

I can take your life and make it so damned and sore.

I'll be your master and you'll be my slave.

I'll even go with you when you go to your grave.

Now that you've met me, what will you do?

Will you try me or not? It's all up to you.

I can show you more misery than words can tell.

Come take my hand, let me lead you to HELL.

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kuddos to those struggling day to day to stay safe and sane. However...so much for the spirit of anonimity and attraction rather than promotion. Sigh,,,whatever happened to the Traditions?

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Hi and welcome. I notice in your profile that you said you drink on ocassion I do not know weather you have a problem or not thats your call but when you talk of the traditions I feel you have had some exposioure to some 12 step program. Again if you ever want to talk there is alot of people here willing to help. Hope you have a nice day

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Thanks J
Having recovered from the seemingly hopless state of mind and body, thanks to Bill, Bob and the rest of the gang. I no longer frequent meetings. Still practice my program. I've had many years of exposure, and have been able to give back a little of what was given to me. But I don't believe once an alcoholic always an alcoholic. People who disappear from meetings don't always go back to their old ways, they just quietly live life on life's terms.

I had a sponsor that told me once that once an a55hole always an a55hole. Do you think he was trying to tell me something?

Mr. don'ttellanyoneaboutme

Yeah, I heard that cliche, how about this one: opinions are like a55holes, everyones got one.