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Sun 12/30/12 09:10 AM
I'm no stranger to anxiety. Other than work I pretty much isolate myself these days. Alcohol helps mask the symptoms but now I'm chemically dependent. Those that don't suffer with anxiety every day don't understand what it's like. It's a bit different for me than you though. I don't worry about the what ifs. For me it's not mental so much as physiological. If I don't have at least a good alcohol buzz I feel like **** and avoid being around people


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Sat 12/29/12 11:39 PM
The biggest headstone in the lot
Yea, that's me
I may be turning to dust
But at least I have something to show for it
Unlike you...

This wasn't supposed to happen
I always bought and bribed my way
Or had someone else do it for me
This time it was different and I don't like it

Top of the organ transplant list
I made sure of that
It bought me some time
Yet here I am, or was anyway

I didn't go gently into the night
I fought and fought
I'd kill a thousand useless eaters
For just another minute

It's dark and cold here


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Thu 12/27/12 11:33 PM
My Uncle Dell is famous in my circles for his boogie-woogie piano. I've always been envious of their carefree lifestyle. I wouldn't mind ending up in a place like Death Valley. Just scaring off the common folk with the name so it doesn't get infested


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Thu 12/27/12 10:44 PM
Welcome to Mingle!

I have an Aunt and Uncle who live in Death Valley. I visited them there when I was young. I know it's a tight community so maybe you know them? Kathy and Dell. Kathy's maiden name is Davis but I don't know Dell's off the top of my head. Anyway, I hope you find what you are looking for


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Thu 12/27/12 10:20 PM
I dream of waking
Awake I dream
Of something else

I don't want to live in reality
But I do
Yea, I have to

I make due
Play the charades
I'm miming to you

Problem is
I fall asleep
Sometimes a version I'd like to keep

But I'm here again
Dreams but a few hours away
What will you have for me today

All I can conjure is
What I've seen
Not close to what I'd call a dream

There's something else
I want to find
Buried deep inside my mind

It's not a dream
You can't pinch me awake
Where I want to be
Nothing you can take


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Thu 12/27/12 09:44 PM


Added up in my mind
It made sense
One plus one equals two
You and I equal one

I deluded myself into thinking
These numbers were constant
I couldn't keep up with your math
All these variables now between us

You wouldn't meet me at the median
Now an X in my equation
I can't seem to solve the problem
That you and I have made


Hi WoWY, I haven't seen you on the poetry threads yet.. so welcome aboard... I like how you describe the intricate symmetry between two lives as they come together and drift apart... excellent write .. flowerforyou


Thanks AthenaRose2. I can't say I have much experience in writing but once in a while something comes out of me that others may get something out of and appreciate. flowerforyou

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Thu 12/27/12 09:35 PM

I read the last 2 that you have created. To write down what's on your mind, be it great or less then , is honorable. And who is to be the better judge, to each his own. :-)


Yea, I'm not Shakespeare. I'm no poet and I know it. I'm a musician and would like to dabble a bit in songwriting. My writings on here aren't songworthy but it helps to get the creative juices flowing, yanno?


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Thu 12/27/12 12:37 AM
Edited by WithOrWithoutYou on Thu 12/27/12 12:43 AM
In case you think I'm one of those weirdos that wants to shoot up a mall or elementary school, you're wrong. My thread/poem was about addiction and in my case, alcohol is the killer inside


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Thu 12/27/12 12:08 AM
There's this woman that seduces me
Every day I feel comfort, she gives me release
I feel safety in her arms
Six or seven gives me relief

I sleep soundly as a baby
It's really no harm
She wakes me for work
Never sounds the alarm

She kills me everyday
But it's okay don't you see
I need it like I needed you
It's now a part of me


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Wed 12/26/12 11:48 PM
There she is
There she was
You didn't
No, you didn't

There you are
There you were
But you wouldn't
No, you wouldn't

There he is
There she was
And you're not there
No, you're not there

There he is
There she is
Both with a ring on their finger

There you were
There you was
But you're not there
No, you're not there

You were there
But no, you weren't
Are you still there?


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Wed 12/26/12 10:48 PM
Edited by WithOrWithoutYou on Wed 12/26/12 11:19 PM
Added up in my mind
It made sense
One plus one equals two
You and I equal one

I deluded myself into thinking
These numbers were constant
I couldn't keep up with your math
All these variables now between us

You wouldn't meet me at the median
Now an X in my equation
I can't seem to solve the problem
That you and I have made


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Fri 12/21/12 01:00 AM
There's this man strapped to a bed with electrodes stickered to his head. When the light turns on he receives a shock. When the light turns on he receives a shock. This continues for a few days. It's understood that the light turning on will be accompanied by a painful shock.

It's different now though, the light turns on and there's no shock, well sometimes. He waits for it but it doesn't come, well sometimes. Now he's uncertain, he'd rather have the shock then the uncertainty and dread now.

This whole 12-21-2012 thing is a mass mind experiment. All the MSM coverage and cash pumped into these hollywood movies is a testament to that. Mind control at it's best


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Wed 12/19/12 09:29 AM


The shut door in front of me isn't locked
But it's shut and I won't knock
Every scenario played out in my head a hundred times
I just can't bear to be denied

The next door is the same as the first
I can't seem to change this curse
I walk away, eyes to the floor
It's been a while since I've seen that door

It's four walls now
A tiny window for me to see
A glimpse of the living
What I failed to be




Self defeat very, very well expressed...I absolutely love the clean delivery !!flowerforyou flowerforyou


drinker flowerforyou

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Wed 12/19/12 02:34 AM


The shut door in front of me isn't locked
But it's shut and I won't knock
Every scenario played out in my head a hundred times
I just can't bear to be denied

The next door is the same as the first
I can't seem to change this curse
I walk away, eyes to the floor
It's been a while since I've seen that door

It's four walls now
A tiny window for me to see
A glimpse of the living
What I failed to be




I'm with sinner on this one, wow. Kind of depressing but still very good.


Thank you mig25. From what I understand you a bit of a peom buff so I take that as a great compliment.


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Wed 12/19/12 02:27 AM


Normal has eluded me
Yea, I try for it
Yea, I envision it
Yea, but it's not there

The way I see it
You're crazy
I'm crazy
We're all crazy
**** normal!

Yea, that's right, you're crazy
I wrote that
You may be in denial but guess what?
We all have our idiosyncrasies
Yes, you, even you

Jim Morrison was right when he sang that people are strange
You are strange
I am strange
Get over it




I refuse to believe I'm strange . . . everyone else is. It's my paranoia talking though but that doesn't make me strange, does it. I like this


Yea, you're a freak, but so am I. Normal doesn't exist as far as I'm concerned. Everyone I've met has been strange in there own right


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Wed 12/19/12 02:18 AM
Edited by WithOrWithoutYou on Wed 12/19/12 02:19 AM

"The shut door in front of me isn't locked"

"I just can't bear to be denied"

"I can't seem to change this curse"

"It's been a while since I've seen that door"


Hi WOWY, what makes your write so gripping to me... "you can't bear to be denied"... but.. instead of knocking... perhaps the unlocked door is just waiting for you to push it open... mayb the one inside is stuck within those walls not knowing how to reach out or accept either..

Love your work.. flowerforyou


Thanks AthenaRose2. I think I wrote about missed opportunities in our lives which I think many of us have had. I wish you and I happiness and a loving partner if that is in the cards. Thank you for your kind words


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Wed 12/19/12 01:58 AM
Normal has eluded me
Yea, I try for it
Yea, I envision it
Yea, but it's not there

The way I see it
You're crazy
I'm crazy
We're all crazy
**** normal!

Yea, that's right, you're crazy
I wrote that
You may be in denial but guess what?
We all have our idiosyncrasies
Yes, you, even you

Jim Morrison was right when he sang that people are strange
You are strange
I am strange
Get over it


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Wed 12/19/12 01:37 AM

No its not depressing at all and actually it is a peek into the life and choice of a person for whom all doors in life are closed...........excellently written ..........really nice


I thank you for your complements =) I do think though that if we knocked or opened the door ourselves we'd probably be a bit happier in our lives. In my poem the door was shut but not locked. It leaves a bit of hope for those who only see closed doors. Not taking a chance is what leads to the walls caving in. Now, if only I could take my own advise....


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Wed 12/19/12 01:00 AM

wow, good one. powerfully depressing.


Thanks DaySinner. Yea, I guess I'm in a dark mood tonight but I'm glad you liked it


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Wed 12/19/12 12:48 AM
The shut door in front of me isn't locked
But it's shut and I won't knock
Every scenario played out in my head a hundred times
I just can't bear to be denied

The next door is the same as the first
I can't seem to change this curse
I walk away, eyes to the floor
It's been a while since I've seen that door

It's four walls now
A tiny window for me to see
A glimpse of the living
What I failed to be


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