Had a wonderful turn out at our Friday night meeting. I mentioned to the group that since of the turn out we should hold a group conscience meeting after wards. One of our members before hand mentioned to me that he would like to add a Big Book format for his suggestion of an additional Tuesday night meeting. There were some con and pro for that. Group decided to try it on a trial basis. We all agreed to change the meeting time for our regular Friday night meeting from 8 pm to 7pm. We tried to accommodate the NA before that met across the street since they had the 7 pm slot. Since they disbanded and it was a conflict of interest in traditions we all voted for the 7pm time. We voted to get some more 24 chips since the four we had last time were given out fast. We agreed to get at least a dozen more. No positions were given out since nobody really cared for being responsible. We really got to work on our service work. We agreed not to make any more keys since it would in the best interest of the church. The alternate GSR showed up. He was sober; Always a plus when the elder statesmen and bleeding deacons are sober. We voted that it was good that I didn't always have to chair the meeting; Thank God. It is nice sometimes just to be a part of the group and not its God. I even let the person who wanted to be the chair person have my throne. We approved getting a 24 book. The topic of the meeting was laughter. It was nice to know that we have honorary clowns.

Did a 12-step on somebody yesterday. It was ghastly.

At least you stayed sober though I hope.

It was tough....but I did it. Being sober is where it's at. This dude just reminded me of what I don't want to be.

He did me the biggest favor. He doesn't even know....

You're not supposed to do that sort of thing alone, especially at 30 something days sober. Even at more time sober, a 12th step call on someone is an experience to share with another person, and if things get out of control, you have a backup. I'm glad you stayed sober, but by yourself this early in sobriety, you're playing with fire.

Always wise to go with a friend. You have no idea what you may encounter.

I am so glad that Brad chaired the meeting last night. He had Joe to read page 30 and half of page 31 at the beginning of the meeting. What I really liked was the small paragraph on page 30. The second paragraph reads:

"We learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery. The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed."

Heck, if I would have understood that the first time I wouldn't have to have that first nine month relapse. But then that was my spiritual experience or what they call the moment of clarity for me. It and that picture of an old depressed man looking into a glass with a picture skull and cross bones in the glass. Once I saw the picture of death in the glass and tried to take that last drink I just couldn't do it. It was death to me and I wanted nothing to do with it. My mind at that time had gotten rid enough fog that I didn't want to die any more. Instead of alcohol being the answer it was the problem.

So my almost ex-wife called me tonight while drinking asking me to send her more money obviously so she could drink some more. Call me a hard ass, but I hung up on her called her mom about the situation. Nuff said. There's a reason ex's are ex's. They're supposed to stay f****** ex's.

Consequences.

Here mom has her, is driving her home, and I'm thanking god she is not my problem and that she's safe.

Caring with detachment.

You know how to tell if an alanon is relapsing?



































She's smiling at you.

There is a Life insurance Policy for Al-Anons its called......................................................................................


'My Fault'

I don't get the Alanon jokes.

Why do Al-Anons close their eyes during sex?







They can't stand to see their alcoholic have a good time.

Just nod and smile.


So the night progressed, and she called me several times last night. I just know her mother had her hands full. On a positive note, it wasn't her I was thinking of as I went to sleep alone, other than knowing she was safe. Now, if I can get this other local woman out of my head who I know isn't good for me and thankfully I haven't dated, that'd be a really good thing. A friend Canton who is schizophrenic also called, telling me he made it to 2 years sober.

Just wanted to report that the guy I 12-stepped last week is out of the hospital and now in treatment. By the way...I did call for assistance when he came stumbling in here...and exactly for all the reasons that have been mentioned above. Didn't wanna' pull the pin on my grenade.(lol). Still gratefully sober.

That is good to hear, scorpio. I am still waiting on the church to approve our new Tuesday night meeting. We are getting some treatment traffic in our group which is good for recovery. As you know in the winter months membership has a tendency to go down. I am sure we will get some people in who have just stayed home because of the weather. Gratefully, there are usually those real alcoholics who would brave the weather to come to meetings because when they wanted a drink the weather didn't put them off.

Today, we got to live part of Tradition Six. The bank tried to divert us from our primary purpose but we had Joe there with us. I like how he said that it doesn't have to be this complicated. Got it set up with the free checking account at another bank. They are even going to get us a stamper for our group with our group logo. We got it set up with it takes two signatures to put money in or to take money out. All we have to do is use the night depository with the envelope to deposit. I was glad because now our secretary can simply use our group checking account to get literature and I don't have to worry about the money any longer. It was a good day.