Once cried? Dude....I cry all the time. I laugh too. It's just hard. It's a hard program. Confronting yrself is hard. I just got scared. I really wanted to drink today.........

Hang in there. That is why they call me the Dog Tick. You ever try to get rid of a dog tick? You try to pull a tick out and the head still is in there. I know they drive my dog crazy. If you don't stop them they will suck out all your blood. I never have seen a real vampire but I have seen a lot of dog ticks.

You can take the rum outta' the fruitcake......but yr still left with a fruitcake.......

Still....I get it. Still sober. Trudging forward one day at a time...... Oh.....my sponsor has to go however.... He is f***** up.......

Fire him!
Get another one!
No Law or Tradition against that!

Or,you can't make a Cucumber from a Pickle!

My soon ti be ex-sponsor that bI met at a meeting weeks ago shows up at my house wearing a Miller Light jacket. Decides to searck my place. Next thing I know.....alll my RX bottles are gone. Now.....these were my legitimate prescription......anti-depressants and all. Nothin addictive or narcotic. Things I need to take daily. He left.....they were gone........

I like that one. I couldn't first admit I was an alcoholic to myself but I had no problem admitting that the guy in the mirror was an alcoholic. I wanted restoration to sanity. I felt like I needed a rubber room it got so bad. But until I could admit the first step I had a problem with restoration to sanity. My sponsor tells me that I have to work the steps in order. My first meeting I felt so sorry for the people there and tried my best to save them. I was told to quit trying to save the world and concentrate on trying to save myself. I know it sounds strange but it is like recovery can work backwards from salvation. I had to make the 180 degree turn. God, I was so backasswards. One Atheist told me to quit trying to save the world because the world doesn't want to be saved. The world is fine. Its you that has the problem. I think I wanted to kill everyone there at that first meeting. They all pissed me off. But after I got past the denial it all started to making sense what they were telling me.

I get that, man. Dude....I really do. But this guy is an ignorant ****. I have meds I take cuz' I'm bi-polar.....and he took them cuz' he had no clue. All he saw was pills, dig? Now.....I'm ****ed. I'm not gonna' drink today.....but now mt problem is bad....cuz' I require anti-depressants., dig? This guy knew no difference....... Sponsors are not Dr's. That is why this guy is fired........... Still sober. And intend to stay so........

Once you become a pickle you will never be a cucumber, again.

I also realize that I am the proble. No doubt. I accept my disease 100%. No problem there...... Trout.....I love yr advice, for real..........

Good call. I am an addict and an alcoholic. I can addict to almost anything. One of my favorite readings out of the Big Book is Doctor Bob's nightmare. Consider what Stephen K said, "God punishes us with life." Stephen K wrote a lot of scary stuff. One of my favorite books by him is, "It".

Thank you. Maybe this will make you smile. It is about two bookworms eating the bible.

Breaktime For Bookworms

The Bible has some evil.
It does mentions a devil.
The Bible mentions a God.
They both chew and nod.

The Bible has many books.
It has so many crooks.
The Bible can compensate.
We don't want to be late.

The Bible has many pages.
Better if you take it in stages.
The Bible speaks of faults.
Hey, please pass the salt.

The Bible has big words.
It can seem very absurb.
The Bible is like a rock.
We better watch the clock.

The Bible is very unique.
I am glad we took a peek.
The Bible is so nutricious.
It was very delicious.

Repercussions of this dork commandeering my pills will be bad. He will return them.....then he will be reprimanded.....and sent on his way.....Miller Light jacket and all. Good riddance F*** face....... AA gives power to low-life power freaks? God. That man is all screwed up........ I invited this guy. What was I thinking?

Amen, brother.

I am glad the truth has set you free.

At Fridays meeting at our local town meeting there was just me and Kelly that showed up. I was wondering if anybody else would show. She was asking me if there were any Ala-non men that I knew of who would talk to her husband. I told her of lady named Karen who help her. Al-anon real helped me with issues dealing with my ex and I was sure that Karen could help her find an Ala-non man. In our local area it is hard to find an Ala-non man who can be supportive of his Alcoholic wife. They do exist though.

Glad I have the meeting tonight after losing my temper at work this morning. It helped to have a fellow member to talk to.

We hosted Clancy I. here in Zurich on the 21th January!
Sober 53 years,and that guy has a Message!

That is wonderful. I wish I could have been there. I was fortunate to be at Bill P.'s speaker meeting. I just love how he says to the newcomer to keep coming back because that is how he acquired the desire to quit drinking.