here..welcome

Welcome and feel free to email if you dont want to post. Someone always gets around to answering in here.

Glad to meet ya. Welcome. I am here a lot. If you are not depressed enough then I can help out.

Well, its getting better at work. I have gotten where I can vent with the residents now. One of residents prefers women over me. She told me she wanted a woman. I told I wanted a women, too but it doesn't work like that. They have to want you, too. I asked her if she would be happier with me if I got a sex change. She didn't think it would be a good idea and she would still would want a women. I was thinking of telling of her is she would be real good that maybe Santa would give her one. I am sorry but I am getting where I don't care whats she wants because she is going to be stuck with me until we get more help. I guess that would be better than to tell her to defecate in one hand and wish in the other and see which one fills up faster. Geez, there just any way of pleasing some people. It wasn't too bad of a night except for the one that tried to escape six times. We took her outside because she didn't think it was hot outside but she decided to come in real quick. I hope everyone is doing okay tonight.

hey guys.....i'm back, just won't be able to log on everyday like i used to.....only when laundry needs to be done (my aunt Brenda has internet).....


hope y'all are doing well.

Three cheers for aunt Brenda. Glad to find out you found a way to connect. That reminds me I have laundry to do, too. I am replacing some drywall in the kitchen and bathroom. Right now I am at the point of still taking the old stuff out. Just left with measuring for the new pieces to go in. Staying cool here, Amber.

how r u

i was dignoced with chronic depression and ya its taken over a good part of my life it seems im never happy and everyone thinks im happy but im not at all it bothers me alot my regular doctor thinks i may be bipolar 2 or just sever anger issues (father verbal abuse ) last time i tried to commit suicide was a year ago still think about sumtimes was thinking about it a few nights ago but didnt

(((HBB))) Im so glad you didnt. Ive been going through something similar and if you want to know more you are welcome to email me. But the best thing is that you are reaching out to people who care and understand. For that Im thankful. Im BP, so I understand the highs and lows.

Feel free to vent and remember that we are not Drs but we will do everything we can to help you in this time. I know how dark the tunnel can be, and how there seems no light. It is very very hard and not having a support system only makes it harder. Do you have anyone close to you that you can talk to.

I mean I know the "happy" face that you put on for everyone. I have that one down pat, but even if you dont tell them about your depression, you might be able to tell them you are going through a rough patch. Maybe a friend or relative?

none jugemental but right now my thing is drinking and i know this bad since my father is an achololc but i dont drink alot i drink till im buzzed then im done

my parents are in the middle of a nasty divorce its my dad blaming everything on my mom sister and mom got into a big argument earlyer today seems to be normal in my house these days and to make it more uncombable my x bf who my mom likes has moved in granted him and i are friends but its weird everyday seems to be more depressing then the next

i get the joy of going back to my obgyn again for the 10 time in 3 months having issues since my abortion in 06 (didnt know i could stop my mom)and my miscarriage in 07 (x bf cased stress)my doctor also thinks i have ptsd because of all the stuff that has happened to me since i was 13 raped 3 times lost both my kids ill write more later

Welcome, heart. Been through the father verbal abuse. You would think we would grow out of it but it stays with one a lifetime. Mom and dad divorced before I was three. I am glad you didn't commit suicide. I tried it back in the eighties and glad I got help through treatment detox of alcohol and drug abuse. It is a great thread Karen started. We are just friends helping out friends. It is always good to know that others are there for us. I just love the helping profession. I think one nurse said it best at one of our breaks. We are here not only to help the residents but each other. No one person really has a handle on it but together we can work it out.

my father sits there and says he dosint reamber calling me a slut whore ***** stupid saying i should never have kids and he wonders y my sis brother and i dont wanna talk to him

well my echocardiagram came out normal!!yay!!

my father sits there and says he dosint reamber calling me a slut whore ***** stupid saying i should never have kids and he wonders y my sis brother and i dont wanna talk to him


Exactly. My older sister went through the same thing with my dad. Here she was keeping the house clean, cooking our food and working like a man with us in the log woods and he talks to her like that. She ran away to my uncle's in California while I got to stay living with him in Missouri. I had no idea at the time how bad it was for her because I was just a few years younger than her. But we got to talk about later in life and when we both cames to terms with our sibling rivalry. She would stand up to him but I was deathly afraid of him. She got the emotional and mental abuse and I got the physical and psychological abuse. She was happy for me when I finally escaped from him by joining the military. He wouldn't hit her like he would me because he didn't believe in striking women at that time but I was large for my size and a guy so it was okay to hit me. Said it would make a man out of me. I guessed it did because I lived through it. But every time I would watch the Brady show on tv I just had to laugh. I wondered what planet they were on because it sure wasn't like that for my sis and me growing up. But we are closer now than we were ever growing up.

Yayyyyy (((JAX))).....such good news!

HBB, Hon I know what you are talking about. My mom left my abusive step dad when I was 11. Thank GOD!

I wish I had more to help you with on that subject but Roy has some great stories and advice. My lil bro was born when I was 9, and I got the brunt of the abuse since I was 2.

Hope things get better for you and you can get the drinking under control. Just breath, and try to extract yourself from it. I dont mean go hermit, that wont help but maybe you can get out for walks and the excersize will help a lot to relieve some of the stress and depression.

Do you have any pets?

I am glad you got the okay from your doctor, Jax.

Good morning, Karen. Hoping to grow up some day and be a good role model to myself. Enjoying this beautiful day off. We got some really needed rain and it has brought the temperature down. I found out a good reason to want to clean my place up. My grand daughter might get to come over and I don't want to embarrass myself.

Hi all you crazy people!!

I am just here to say hello. Yes I am still depressed but what else is new....lol. Bipolar disease sucks!!

Hope you all are doing well. I miss talking with you and I thank you for all of your support you gave me. I have thought of you guys from time to time and offered some prayers for my friends here. Looks like they didn't work!!!...just kidding.

Take care and God Bless you!!

Ken

(((((((Ken))))))) so good to hear from you again. Ive been thinking about you lately. WOndering how you are. Glad to see you here!

Good to see you, Ken. I thought you must have got cured or something was why we didn't see you around. Don't be gone for so long. We need checking up on daily.

Wow, I missed you guys. I had the grandbabies for a week and it was cool to have them, but then the little one, the 4 y/o decided to "baptize" (as my friend put it) my laptop with water. He did cure the problem I was having, for GOOD. I took them home on Thursday and just got home tonight, is about a 9 hour drive to where they live. I brought back my other computer from my daughter's, so now I can be on here again. Talk about withdrawals -- geezz.

Hope you are all having a good weekend. Talk to you soon. Take care.

i have 16 cats 2 dogs and a fish past couple of days so far i have been not so depressed so i think its a good thingi just woke up so we will see how today holds out