I just read this on another site and it touched me very deeply so I decided to share it. I am hoping it will have some meaning and/or relevance to others as well:

AWAKENING

A time comes in your life when you finally get it ...

When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!

Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes.

This is your awakening.

You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon.

You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are....and that's OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.

And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it's not always about you.

So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the process a sense of safety & security is born of self-reliance. You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process a sense of peace & contentment is born of forgiveness.

You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche.

And you begin to sift through all the crap you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look and how much you should weigh, what you should wear and where you should shop and what you should drive, how and where you should live and what you should do for a living. Who you should sleep with, who you should marry and what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children or what you owe your parents.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view and you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.

You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with and in the process you learn to go with your instincts. You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive.

And that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix.

You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a by gone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.

You learn that you don't know everything; it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.

You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake. Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship.

You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name.

You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes.

You learn that just as people grow and change so it is with love ..and you learn that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms ...just to make you happy.

And, you learn that alone does not mean lonely ... And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you "stack up."

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK ... and that it is your right to want things and to ask for the things that you want ...and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands.

You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won't settle for less. And, you allow only the one who cherishes you to glorify you with his touch ..and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect.

And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and taking more time to exercise.

You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear.

So you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play. You learn, that for the most part, in life you get what you believe you deserve ... and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen.

More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone and that it's OK to risk asking for help.

You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time. FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms.

And you learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. It's just life happening.

And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state - the ego. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.

You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.

Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart's desire.

And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.

And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.

Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.

--author unknown

And if that doesn't work, there's always liquid plumber and oregano, when mixed properly it makes a great hair tonic.

Men want sex, women want love and monkeys want peanut butter and lots of it... :)

Wise old monkey says: Native and Marie are right, it takes a lot longer than 2 weeks to develop any kind of lasting relationship. Take your time and get to know this guy before you jump into anything you might later regret.

Oh and if he gives you any trouble, a large accordion to the snout is always a good solution. I just happen to know an accordionist who'll do the job for 5 ripe bananas and a pan of strudel... :)

True. Especially if you add swonnicle butter and unprepasturized honey.

What do you expect from a man in a dress who reads Sticky Sasquatches of the Southwest for the articles?

That life sometimes tosses us some wild surprises and if we're ready to catch them it can be a fun ride.

Oh and never ever feed drongleberries to a hungover monkey unless you're well stocked up on diapers.

I'll have a plateful of gronnigle stew and a half a carafe of Crush...

I have a friend who likes to go up to ladies in bars and ask, "do you believe in the hereafter?"

When they say yes, he answers, "then you know what I'm here after..."*

*Note: This line may be hazardous to your health, it's landed my friend in the ER twice...

It's either that or touching your swonnicles...

Please tell me that mouse and frog aren't having more fun than I am...

Curves and bone thin bodies don't go together unless you're talking Barbie. Of course she also comes with the dream house and the man with the plastic mustache. Of course that's not a problem if you're into threesomes...

Wise old monkey says: any guy who'd treat a gal like that isn't worth the skin he's wrapped in. I'll bet he can't play the accordion either.

Sorry, I drank it last night along with some delicious Chianti. It was a beautiful evening with the swonnicles flying every which way and the grongles bouncing off the map. I locked the monkey in the closet, some things just aren't meant to be shared with ptimates, no matter how hairy they are...

IMHO it may be for the same reason we ladies do, because we want something we can't have and sometimes it's easier to lie and get it than do without.

Present but a bit hazy, need some more deep fried drongles.

Never wanting to let go of him even though you know you have to...

Hppy Birthday, Snuggles!!! Hope you have a lot of fun!!!

Making love with the guy you're crazy about and holding each other tightly afterwards.

Hey adj,

Thanks for the info., will see what I can find. I used to use McAfee, but it took forever to load and cost too much for what it was, so I got rid of it about 6 months ago and started using the EZ Firewall/Virus Scan as it came free with Road Runner. The Virus Scan is good and the firewall worked fine til about 2 months ago when I installed Yahoo IM, ever since then I've had the reboot problem. I wonder if that has something do with it? I don't want to get rid of Yahoo IM though, so I guess I'll have to look around for another free firewall.

Hugs and snoggers from Sue and Bubbles :)