Back at you
You are a really positive addition to this thread, Lee.
Thank you.


I have just been working, trying to keep my head above water.
Still doing the two jobs, getting tired, but going to keep
them going. Won't complain about it, too many people out of
work, but I am tired of working 7 days a week for so long.
I am hoping to get a refinance on my house, there is a program
in the stimulus package I could qualify for to lower my interest
rate on my house, but major hoops to jump through, but if I can
qualify, would cut my house payment down substantially and make
my life livable. So I am going to work on getting that process
started.

I hope you are all having a good week, take care of yourselves,
be safe, warm and healthy.

Finally got my car back from the mechanics. I bought the mechanic's wife breakfast after she found out from me that I had bought her brother breakfast for him taking me home. She drove me to her house to pick up the car this morning. Was praying the car had enough gas in it to make it to the gas station. God answers prayers because I made it. Check coolant light came on as I was driving it home so I am going to make sure I put some water in it till I get some more antifreeze in it later. I guess I could have complained that they left the window down and it rained on the seat but I was just too glad to complain about having a wet bottom.

hey, at least you got the car..... ....got group today....my ride's extremely late

hey, at least you got the car..... ....got group today....my ride's extremely late


Did your ride make it there, yet? I haven't made it to any groups in two weeks because of the car being down. I was only able to to make thirty-two hours of overtime for the last two week pay period. I was wondering where I should go now that I got the car back and remembered the four large trash bags of trash I have cleaned up in the house by the front door. I think I will go see mom and her large dumpster box.

Did your ride make it there, yet? I haven't made it to any groups in two weeks because of the car being down. I was only able to to make thirty-two hours of overtime for the last two week pay period. I was wondering where I should go now that I got the car back and remembered the four large trash bags of trash I have cleaned up in the house by the front door. I think I will go see mom and her large dumpster box.


yeah i got there, 40 minutes late.......hopefully my ride to the grocery store won't be late in the morning.......

Just stopping in to send some Love & Light to all.

very beautiful and enlightening.....thank you!!

Wow, how pretty! Thank you!

things are finally looking on the up-side......got food in the house, clean clothes, and stuff to keep my own butt clean (yes, i got my check yesterday....ran out of a lot of stuff last month)

I am glad things are going smoother for you, Amber. My daughter has moved a lot closer to where I am. And she wants to see me. That makes me happy. My daughter, son and grand daughter are coming to see me this Saturday. I was telling my mom about it and she wants them to go see her, too. Mom lives three miles away from me. The nurse even slipped a not under our boss's door that I need the day off.

THAT'S GREAT!!!!!

saw my therapist today, he talked to my dbt moderator and apparently i'm making excellent progress

Glad that is working out for you, Amber. I lost my temper last night at work. The nurse told me if I ever need help while I am in a room to use the call light to get another aide just like a resident is suppose to do if the resident is in a room and needs an aide. It is considered okay to ask for help this way. So I am in a room at the end of the hall where a resident is in isolation. As you know when you go into a room where a resident is in isolation you have to glove, gown and mask up. It was last wet check so I asked the resident if she needed changing. This resident is a former nurse of the facility when the nursing home was a hospital before it became just a nursing home. So I ask her and she says I have to brush my teeth first. So I am asking her where her tooth brush is and she says she doesn't know. So I ask her where her emesis basin is and she says she doesn't know. She I search and eventually find both. I have told by my charge nurse to orientate this new aide I am in the room with at the time and to show her the ropes and how to chart the asl. So she brushes her teeth and I ask her when she is done if she is ready to be changed and she says I need to be pulled up in the bed first. So we pull her up in the bed and I check her and she needs to be changed. So I am go to get a brief to change her with and guess what there isn't any. I am starting to get really pissed at this point but remembering what my charge nurse told me to do I turn on the call light. Only nobody comes to my rescue and my patience and tolerance is really low by now. So I take off the gloves, gown and mask and go storming out to get a packet of briefs and return to the new oriented aide in training and change the resident. And the new aide asks the resident if she needs anything else and of course she needs a drink of water and for us to turn the room light off. And we ask if there is anything else that she needs and she says she wants her blanket pulled up. So finally we get out of there and I come to the nurses station and I say I am glad I remember to use the fning call light so I could get help and the nurse just leaves laughing. But I get a lot of apologies and I had to apologize myself but I did get my point across.

wow roy, you did have a rough shift...but at least you were able to control your reaction....i'm proud of ya

Thanks, Amber. At tonight's AA meeting we got to read from our Daily Reflections book and it helped. April 3rd entry's was about dealing with your humanity. I felt good because I didn't stuff the anger like I used to do and just blow up. Yeah, like you said I was able to control it.

good for you!!!!!!!!!!!
just found out daddy might have parkinson's....two weeks ago he found out that he has dementia

That is a hard thing to accept. We just had an inservice on it payday. My son and daughter just left to go back home. My daughter brought her boyfriend. Didn't get to see the grand daughter. Son is still going through the divorce so she is with her mom. I took them all out to dinner at the buffet. Daughter spent a lot of time going through pictures and organizing them in folders. Pictures of my son when they were little. My son spent some time outside with his chainsaw. I lost some pictures because they took some with them. My daughter likes cleaning houses and putting collectibles like pictures and the like into scrap books. She said she would be coming back, again. She told me not to tell my son I gave her twenty dollars to help them get back home. I had my friend, Robin take pictures of us at her house. I took my daughter to where I work and showed the picture of my grand daughter on my locker at work. The time just went too fast because we were enjoying each others' company. She wanted to get my son home soon though so that he could take his epilepsy pills. I miss them already.

sounds like you had a great time, roy.......

i just burned the hell out of my hand, heating up some tater tots......oh well.

Oh, be careful, Amber. I know that kind of thing hurts. Pass some tater tots this way. This makes twice that my son has said, "You know dad; You can come see us." That is like an open invitation. It gives me another reason to get my old van fixed so I can do some do some traveling.

lol.....i know you'd enjoy that.....

I just ended a friendship with a former good friend of mine....

Called her up to find out who won the race and for no reason, she started screaming and cussin me out. she was messed up on booze, weed, and cocaine....i just can't deal with her crap anymore.

i backslid bad with the emotion regulation.....got a new whole in my wall

lol.....i know you'd enjoy that.....

I just ended a friendship with a former good friend of mine....

Called her up to find out who won the race and for no reason, she started screaming and cussin me out. she was messed up on booze, weed, and cocaine....i just can't deal with her crap anymore.

i backslid bad with the emotion regulation.....got a new whole in my wall


And you were doing so good, too. Hey, with stuff like that happening I can't really blame ya. This morning I was dealing with this one resident who kept wanting to do stuff for me. I just had to get out of there to cool down. She kept asking me if I was mad at her. Finally, I just said I wasn't mad at her that she was mad at me or otherwise she wouldn't just keep asking me to do things for her. Of course, she will just forget it happen because of her dementia but I thought I would give her a honest answer.