I am happy for you. Can you say damned if you do and damned if you don't?

LoL Roy.....I guess I was ready for that relationship to end because he's been gone nearly a week now, yet I haven't cried one tear

I am glad you got through it okay. I am still working on friendships. The nice thing about a friendship is you can still have a friend. One of my friends at work, a nurse was trying to set me up with someone but I am enjoying just having just friendships only. It is pretty cool because you don't ever have to worry about that, "Can't we been just friends?" Because that was all we were to begin with so nothing has changed.

Amen! Though I must say, I'm already seeing someone else

That is good news and I must say that good news isn't off topic.

Well my ex won't leave me alone now, he calls me constantly, ims me on yahoo messenger so much that if i leave my computer for a minute when i come back the screen is full of ims. Last night I had company and he tried to start a fight on the computer with me....I told him that I was going to bed and I would NOT answer ANY calls. I did fall asleep around 11 and when I woke up at 1am, I noticed he called my phone 15 times in the time span of 10 minutes I noticed I had a couple of voicemails so I checked them and sure enough it was HIM...he left me two very nasty messages full of accusations and even a threat in the last one.

Well later on when I woke up for the day I had an offline message on yahoo from him, saying he was sorry for everything, that he doesn't remember anything that happened last night because during the middle of the night he had a seizure bad enough where he peed himself. Do I believe that???? Not really.

That would sound strange him not remembering.

Exactly! Just got some bad news last....I went to the ER a couple weeks ago because of chest pain...was told nothing was wrong and sent home, but Friday I got a certified letter from the hospital I went to saying that I have a hiatal hernia. Don't know exactly how large it is or anything yet, I'll be taking the letter to my primary doc next week when I go for my appt and we'll set up testing and all that.....will keep y'all posted.

That's exactly what i'm like. I know there's a good reason if i leave a guy. So no use me getting upset over it. There's men out there who will treat a woman much better than the last.

I wouldn't say i was depressed right now. Just a bit devastated, as i seen a guy on tv lastnight, and he looked like someone i used to work with. The friend had to move to India, cos he had to be transferred there, while he worked at the call centre in my town. That or lose his job. It still feels as tearful as back then, which was year 2001.

Yes, keep us posted! And also good luck

Some men because they have learned from prior mistakes and some men because they just wouldn't treat a woman bad.

oh depression.
what must i do with you?
keep you in a jar?
smear you around?
smother you?
hell if i know.

Misery, misery, go away. DON'T come back another day!!
I feel as if my P.M.T causes me to be upset, even when i'm completely happy with everything. How stupid that something hormonal, can give you sadness, and then after seven days it dissapears again. If i was a man, at least i'd never have this.

I find myself stuck between a rock and a hard place. I never wanna speak to my stepdad ever again. He's something else. I think vile is the right word. I hate getting flashbacks from my childhood. I half detest my mum for it, and half still want to communicate with her. This is really annoying me. I don't mean to sound like a whiner. This thread does say 'Depression Support", so yeah. Part of me needs to tell mum. Except, i know how angry i'll come across as. And i never get angry that often.

sometimes we get so caught up in our emotions that it is difficult to make a rational decision. it's easy to hate someone for something because we actually see where we want to direct our anger to.
people are people and as much as we hurt, others hurt to. people are not bred to purposely harm others. but it can be very difficult to separate the person from the action.
when we want to confront someone for something that as happened we tend to approach the person and blame them personally for it. you caused this pain in me, instead of what you did caused this pain in me. you see, if you can somehow remove the deed from the doer it may be easier to talk about and deal with the situation.
no one wants to lose a mum, but you can't go on living without healing yourself. it's going to be hard to imagine your mum's situation and even harder dealing with her excuse for her behavior. yet once you talk, you will begin the healing (with or without her)
godspeed, bulldog

Heart's in good shape! Going in tomorrow for liver ultrasound and have an upper GI scheduled for next week. Still seeing the "new" guy. So far, life is good over on this end of the woods :)

I am glad to hear that you are doing good, Amber. And I wish you luck on your ultrasound. I have been clearing sticker vines on the fence line. They don't have flowers, fruit, berries and to me serve no purpose but to give you are a hard time. They sure have been a tangled web. I got scratches all over my legs but the drive way to my well pump house looks better. I have been using loppers, a couple of rakes and was using a bow saw some, too. The weather has been really nice outside and my dog, Lady has been having fun running, jumping up and down.

i give up