It has been 4 years and 7 months since Dottie's passing. 3 months ago a friend of mine I helped to get out of prison. She lives in the extra bedroom. Her husband didn't want her back and last month their divorce was finalized. Her first month out she had to wait 30 days to get her disability back and $400 of that had to go to fines. She has had to go to see her parole officer once a month and a counselor 4 times a month. She now has her driver's license and insurance paid so this morning she will be able to see her counselor without me driving her. Next month she will just have to see the counselor once a month. She was able to give me almost $400 a month. I asked her isn't that too much and she said she give that much to her husband for marijuana. It is a symbiotic relationship I know but I don't feel alone any more. She is going pretty good even though I know she still loves her ex. But he has moved on and had a new girlfriend before we got all of her stuff out of his place. I thought maybe it would bother his and my friendship but it didn't in the least. Go figure. She is 9 years older than me; She cooks meals and does the clothes. It is kind of like living with my mom. She likes it here. It is strange and different for me. some people there is more to it than that but it is a good friendship that somehow is working out.

It is good that you could help your friend when she had no where else to go.. And I always say that "what goes around, comes around" and I know that to be true.. All my life I have been a giver and now it is coming back to me 2fold.. Accept the friendship for now, you never know what if anything will come of it and be happy you're not alone..and at least she is trying to make her life better... Just take one day at a time.. Merry Christmas!

Yeah. That was the big thing-Not being alone. That was really getting to me. I acquired the big half German Shepherd and Labrador I named Lady. Its three years old and I call it my 'ol Lady. I hope for you a Merry Christmas. Since the nurse gave us the 12 pound turkey we will be having a good Christmas. My friend staying with me has finally got the bug infestation down. Since she actually likes cooking we don't have to spend so much money eating out. Of course, we really have had to make some adjustments because it is different than living alone. She likes it warmer in the house than I do. She doesn't like me driving on empty for the vehicle. It is like strange and nice.

Christmas Eve will be 4 years for me since Roy past. He was cremated and we had his service the weekend after New Years. It was a nice service with pic's of his life. And our closest friends there.

Roy it is nice your able to do that for her. And I'm sure her x being your friend is glad this makes it easier for him. The compainionship is a good thing I don't like living alone and have let people live with me that have a good nature, you can just tell. And when I really needed a good roommate because I couldn't afford this place on my own and didn't want to move to a smaller place in a rougher neighborhood. God sent me an old friend and I'm happy for that. We make good roommates. I'm like Carole what goes around comes around. Hugs buddy

Carol, I even tempting my kids to live with me. I mean we both are getting something out of it. Its just when you get used to living on your own even as much as that isn't at times; Learning how to share a house can be a new experience, too. We both have had to make some compromises. As my dad use to say, "Good training." But she is agreeable on me building the new room because she is wondering what to do with her junk, too.

Me and my roommate get along we are both quiet and work different shifts. No drama :)

That is important. I know I get enough drama at work and it is nice just to come home and relax. I got to wake her up and tell her its time to go.

Hey sweetie it will it better.Mine has be gone 4 and half yrs to
so just hang in there.. am here if u need to talk
tammy

Thanks, Tammy. I was asking my roomie since I am making a big room off the side of the house with a built-in bathroom if she would like to move into my bedroom that I have now when I get the big room set up for me. She said that she likes her small bedroom that she has. Since I am a smoker and the smoke bothers her she likes the idea of me having the big room for me. At first I was thinking of having a new living room in that big room but it would have stairs going down to it. She has trouble with stairs and the ramp idea might be worse than stairs. So we are communicating which I find is necessary for any kind of relationship. She is giving me good feedback I just have to work on being less touchy. She doesn't give me guff on going to my meetings but lets me know that she has to eat six small meals a day unlike my three. She just eats smaller quanities. She is getting excited about decorating her room and saw some furniture she likes. She has already put me in her will and wants me to get a new fridge and hot water heater instead of used. She even wants to get the stuff on credit or monthly terms. We already found with her credit and my credit that we couldn't get a used toothpick in a fire sale our credit is so bad.

Hi Everybody! Just checking in to see how we're all doing these days. I hope well.

Hi, Auburn. Just made it home through this snow storm we are having. Might be a while before I am brave enough to make it back to town. Off tonight and tomorrow night from work so I won't have to worry about for two days. I hoope you are doing okay.

I'm writing this cause I know no one from mingle has my number and will call me and I can just let it out and deal with my pity trip.

I did so good this year getting through the date. I usually have nothing but good thoughts and spend my time laughing over the wonderfully funny times. Today though I am being slam dunked with a fountain of "I Miss yous". I'm crying buckets, my hands are shaking and I feel that I'm living through this thing all over again. I'm posting in my usual style up here but then it hits me again like they are being riped out of my arms. Good Lord, I can't wait for this day to be over and start afresh.

Asa, my little girl, would be 16 now and Mia and her would be no doubt spending their time wrapping me around their little fingers. Mia would be mastering me with her child like ways as always.

Oh well, figure if I wrote about it maybe this would get out of my system.

My heart breaks for you who go through this every day. Time for a nice walk I guess. What a day!

Those sucker punches come from nowhere sometimes. My heart feels for you.

Thanks Sharris, I'm plugging through it. Between Mingle and Vegas it's easy to take your mind off of things.

I used to cry alot and scream outloud.. bet my neighbors thought I was losing it but it helped...I's sooo hard to lose a spouse or partner but to lose a child... I don't know how people go on with life...the loneliness overwhelms us......Not only did I lose my spouse of 26 yrs but 7 mo later lost my mom... Evenings were the hardest and having to adapt to doing things alone was horrible...Having friends on here to talk to and to help get thru the hard times was and still is wonderful...I say..do one day at a time, it does get better..just takes longer for some than others..

I started writing, have not stopped. When those moments come, it helps me to write about it somehow..

I've lost my husband and both my sisters now my mom is all that is left of that childhood I had. And I dread that day.

It has been a good day.

Death doesn't care how old you are or what sex you are. When it's your time, it's your time. But that doesn't make it any easier for the loved one being left behind. July my husband will have been gone 6 years. I'm not looking for another him, I'm just looking for someone to make me happy and share life with. Good luck all.