Okay, you are 18. You're too young to be having a bunch of kids! You've got so much of your life ahead of you. JMO.

Yeah make sure you can afford to support 2 kids before you do anything like that.

Most of my friends are in relationships. Apparently, even the ones who I thought were single are in relationships! And they don't seem to have these kinds of issues. So they've been no help to really talk to. I am actually already in counseling for some other things, but social anxiety is one of them that I'm working on. I'll get there eventually, but I'm just tired of feeling awkward!

Thank you

Yeah, at work I'm very outgoing and have lots of leadership responsibilities and am very involved. And I'm friends with everyone. But at home, I've got a small group of very close friends and I keep to myself.

good girl. it's hard, but you did the right thing.

Right, he's a friend. One of my best friends, but not a romantic interest.

I need to be in control.

Yes, I'm more outgoing if I'm comfortable. Otherwise, I'm a wallflower. To answer your questions:

Yes, unless I go out with my friend James, and then he drives.
No, I go wherever my friends want to go.
If I absolutely have to go somewhere that I'm unfamiliar (which I try to avoid), I prefer to take someone with me that I know.

I have an outgoing personality. Well, I have an outgoing persona. I'm introverted, and while I'm not a "loner", I don't think, I do like to have regrouping time by myself.

How do people do this all the time? I know people who have never been single since I've known them!

I know. I know! I know. This is all so overwhelming!

Consciously, no. I would actually really like to have a committed relationship. If I can find the person that isn't going to hurt me, I have alot of love to give.

Well, I all but threw myself at one guy, and he would never acknowledge that anything was going on (though things were, but that's a long and crazy story). And then I acted like an idiot with the last guy I dated, and all he wanted me for was a friend with benefits. But I was kinda interested in this guy at work, and as soon as I found out he was also interested in me, I lost all interest and treat him totally differently (we're still friends, but I have no interest anymore). And then this other guy! He started saying things that indicated he liked me, and it shut me down. Why can't I be somewhere in the middle?!

I know I have to do this by myself. Which sucks! I want someone to say, "do this and you will get better". Like taking antibiotics. Ugh!!!!!

I was probably trying to rescue some of them (definitely one... god that was awful.. codependent.. all sorts of bad news bears). The last few have seemed to totally have things together, though.

Thinking too much is bad if you can't shut it off. I know what you're talking about.

You just meant that I should stop over-analyzing. But okay, are bad previous relationships "baggage" necessarily? I don't talk to the guys anymore, I don't have kids because of them, or anything like that. And I've always been incredibly socially anxious, but I think it's more pronounced with someone in whom I'm interested... So I need to figure out how to deal with this, both internally and with the guy it is that I like.

Oh, I absolutely do.

I think I really am ready to have some normal kind of relationship, I just don't know how to not screw it up. But then it's hard to know if I screwed something up or if it wasn't meant to be...

Someone suggested that I warn him, is that wise? Or does it say, "I could have baggage - RUN!"