Seems I have lumps in my breasts, possibly still have fibrosis of the liver, heart problems (echocardiagram for me too Jax) and cancer of the skin and I still don't know why I can't remembr things, why my neck still hurts and why I have blurry vision sometimes. Sighhhhh

I have to get some blood work done and they said they would make appts for me with all the different Drs I have to go see in about a week. Hellfire! I have to go back to school August 18th!

I hope they dont find anything wrong and that all these appts are before school starts........

I hope everything comes out for the best, Karen. I know that must be a scary diagnosis.

Awwwwww, thank you (Roy) . I don't want to sound like someone with a D in the name but I just had to let this out. Yeah it is scarey. IF I have cancer, I will not do chemo. If it is something they can cut out, fine, but anything else is out! I did chemo for a year back in 04 and I swore I would never do it again.

feeling lonely today im tired of everything i guess no one to share things with

I am sorry you are lonely, Coco. One of the lady residents we have is a registered nurse. Usually she is a real trouper but the other day she broke down in tears. She told me never to get old. She has some very old medical equipment and my friend, Lisa told me that she is the one who taught her as a CNA. She gave me some toenail clippers that clip from the side. She always tells me that if I get busy I can come back to her. It really isn't a bother to wait on her. If I ever get lonely while I am working its my fault I finally determined because there are plenty of people to talk to. One of the reasons I work so much is that it fills needs and wants for me. For me it is like a magical place and I have never felt so loved in all my life.

yeah it does get tiresome not sharing life with someone but hang in there wanda.if these feeling persist please go see a dr .

when i had blurry vision and my neck hurt it was from Lyme disease.so far my meds are working.no panic attacks and the side effects are mild.headaches,nausea.Karen good luck with the tests .jesus.

im feeling better watched a good movie the bucket list it brought me to tears and laughter

awesome.i want to see that one.glad you feel better.(((wanda))

thanks, me too

Im glad everyone is feeling better

Karen - lumps in the breasts can be fibrocystic disease, is normal, so don't stress too much about that. The rest, I don't know. Your meds can affect your memory and maybe muscles to make your neck hurt. Stay on top of your health problems though and get everything checked out. You are a great person with a good heart and I want you to be healthy.

Hope everyone has a good week next week. Take care.

I just wanted to write something on behalf of all of those suffering from depression.

I know sometimes it seems like you're fighting an endless battle. I have been there. It seems like you're in a dark hole climbing towards the light at the end of the tunnel. And the more you climb, the further away the light gets. But let me just say this, it's worth trying. Even if it may not seem like it at times. Because once you reach the light, it's the most wonderful sensation ever known. The simple pleasures in life are well worth taking into consideration. You have a roof over your head, food in your stomach, and the clothes on your back. You have family and you have friends that are willing to support you. There are times when we all feel lonely. Like we are fighting this battle all alone and no one truly knows how we feel. But in these moments, if step back and evaluate your lives, you may find that you find yourself. Try to find out what the missing puzzle piece is within yourself. The best feeling in the world is to feel whole with or without a relationship. When I begin to feel lonely, I decide itms time to work on myself. If you're unhappy with yourself, then you will be unhappy in a relationship. People do not make us whole, we do. Happiness depends on a lot of things, but mostly on you. Try to stay optimistic and bless all of you!

hmmm.....i just found out my ex's momma died last month.....and this is weird for me (because i'm never this way when someone dies...) but i'm actually happy.....

is this normal?

I dont know

Thanks (((Marie))) but nothing has changed except the fall happening. The memory loss is getting very bad. Like hour to hour. None of my meds have been changed. And I know Ive had lumps in my breasts for a long time. I just didnt want to know what it was. This Dr will not treat me unles I do what he says, and he is such a great Dr, so here we go. Gastroinestonal check up, liver check up at the digestive diease centerl, have the mamogram ste up for the 30th. I made another appt to go in on thrsday cuz this is getting so much worse it is scaring me and I have developed some pain on the left side of my head. It comes and goes but it is different.....thanks for the support, hugs everyone

hmmmm

OH YEAH karen, i finally got in touch with my dearest friend from high school.....he's the one that helped me through ordeal when i was raped at age 14......and a lot of nasty rumors were started about me from that and he quelled them for me..

Good for you

That is what I get from my job, Amathyst. I have been on a reevaluation kick for the last three years. And the amazing thing is sometimes it goes full circle. For instance, I can remember my ex complaining to me that she wasn't super person. I had to tell a resident that same thing, tonight. The other aides just simply tell her that she can do some of the stuff she asks us to do herself. Tonight we were so busy it was like a dog chasing its tail. The resident asked me after she kept asking me to do so many things if I was mad at her. It made me think because I was angry. I told her no I wasn't mad at her. And the truth was I wasn't angry at her. The truth was I was angry at myself because I was allowing her to manipulate me into doing all the things I was doing for her. After she asked me to do so many things for her and kept asking I told her honesty that I wasn't super person and that I wasn't fast enough to fill her honey-do list because it was just too big and she asked too much. I told her that she wasn't the only one that I had to take care of. She told me that she was sorry and then asked me to do something else for her. I finally realised that I couldn't win with her. That nothing I said she would retain. The place is really teaching me my limitations. The wonderful thing I found out that she does have a conscience. I knew it was there somewhere and with other aides I have found it which helps me because it allows me to vent with the residents who try to take advantage of my good nature.

Darn Karen, sounds like you may have had a closed head injury when you had your fall and that is affecting your memory. Please follow through with your doc and whatever testing he wants to do. Did her order a CT or MRI of your head?? I hope he is putting a rush on this testing. Hope things turn around for you soon, you deserve a good break for a change. Will keep you in my prayers. ~Hang in there.