*Looks a bit sad as he replies*

It is not a decision I have made lightly. I have more enemies then you will know. The less people that have connections to me the safer they will be. I already got Jericho killed. I won't let that happen to you or Finwe.

*Smiles a bit*

Possibly, although that is something that he probably shouldn't know for sure. Especially when we get Jericho back. Not something that either of them should know.

Why what? I was only saying that I am not sure why Finwe would do that with me if he has never done that before. He is a cute kid though.

Ah, I am not sure about that then.

What's that my dear?

*Rathil reaches out and takes Finwe from Alatariel. The baby settles down in Rathils arms and lays his head on Rathils shoulder.*

*Smiles a bit*

Part of me hates her and has no interest in seeing her again, and the other part of me won't let me leave until I at least see her again.

*He sighs a bit*

300 years...

I don't even know if I would call the feeling worry. I am not sure how I am supposed to be feeling right now and I think that is one of the things that is bothering me the most. It is not often that I don't know what to do.

*Looks at the baby and grins a bit as he tries to reach his way towards Rathil*

I am about as fine as can be expected currently I think.

*Smiles a bit*

Good evening Alatariel. How are you this evening. Kind of quiet around here tonight hmmm?

*Rathil comes into the inn and takes a seat in his usual place behind the bar*

*Rathil reenters the inn and takes a seat behind the bar. Still looking rather upset over something.*

I never understood the term godfearing. It has always been my impression from people who try to convince me that God is great that he is a kind, loving, and forgiving being. Why should I be afraid of that? Unless of course all those people are lying to me. In which case I should probably fear those people. If they lied to me who knows what else they will try to do. Although of course then that means that the God they worship is actually Cruel, Malicious, and Unforgiving. And if that is the case I wouldn't want to associate myself with him anyway. Either way something just doesn't add up about a godfearing person.

Eh, the problem is you are talking in absolutes here. Really when it comes down to it it depends on the situation you are in. For example, My best friend, I would take a bullet for that man and I am relatively sure he would try to do the same. Although no, I would not step in front of a bullet to save a complete stranger. I would probably try to help them if they were still alive afterwards and the chances of me being shot myself were removed.

Does that make me selfish? Probably. I am sure I could make an argument for it either way. Although I do disagree with you when you say everybody is like that. I have met people before that would lay down their lives for a stranger just because that is the type of person they are. Whether they were raised that way or whether they just have a higher sense of morality then some people.

Don't get me wrong, I am a big promoter of doing the right thing but I am also a big promoter of self preservation. I weigh the options of my chance of injury versus doing something to help a stranger. For example if I am in a bank that is being robbed. If I feel that they are just going to take the money and leave, I am going to sit there. Give them my money and wish them a good day on their way out. If they are more unstable and it seems like regardless of what happens they are going to start shooting folks I would take whatever actions I felt necessary to try to stop them. In that situation I already feel I am going to be killed. So if I try to stop them two things will happen. Either I will be successful and save a bunch of people or I will be shot and killed anyway.

Anyway, cliffnote version is that the way people act and behave is not absolute. You can't say that nobody feels that way just because you don't. There will always be people that will put the lives of others before their own for whatever reasons.

Thanks Jeannie. I am going to have to write that down so I can remember. I knew it was a long title!

Also I apologize Tribo. LOL! Guess I didn't catch the original joke. So hard to do sometimes online! Have a good day man!

You can have faith in things that are not religious in nature. All it is trusting in something so it doesn't surprise me to hear JB say that. :-)

And I do believe that she could form a religion out of it if she chose to. She is already a priestess of her own church. I wanted to join but I guess it's a one person thing.

I'm sorry Jeannie. I can't remember what your official title is or what the church is called. What is it you are a priestess of again? I know I have seen it several times I just can't remember.

Anyway, I must depart for a bit. Goodbye for now my dear. Hopefully I will see you again soon.

No, Not quite. There is someone from a very long time ago that will be coming into town soon. Most likely today and I am not sure that I want to see her. It has been almost 300 years since the last time I saw her and needless to say we did not part on the best of terms I am afraid.

*He lowers his head a bit as he talks.*

I haven't really decided yet to be honest. I am currently torn between a decision to just get away from Sinatorium and a need to stay because of the orcs outside. Hell, I may not even travel anywhere. I may just go outside the gates and kill orcs for a week or so. I am really not sure. I don't know what I want to do.