this is just one of those nights for me. I actually thought it was sunday and I had school tomorrow. And you know what? I was disappointed when I realized it was just saturday. I can't even put my finger on what is wrong and that usually means a chemical imbalance. Which usually means I have to watch everything I do and say. That itself is hard to do. Let alone if you are having physical problems. There is nothing wrong with my meds. Im sleeping the same as always, nothing has changed but me. I hate when this happens. Sighhhhhhhhh

thanks everyone for your prayers, so trajic

Nice to know someone gives a rats ass......Im going to bed

are you alright sweetheart?? i give a rats ass. message me if you want to talk. (hugs)

i tried to email you, but it wouldnt let me. youve got it set up so i cant email you.

Karen - sorry you are having a bad night. Wish I had some advice to help. Is there some way you can break the cycle by doing something different, something to change the routine. I like silly movies, something to make me laugh, stuff like that. I don't know if that would have any effect on how you are feeling or not, they say laughter affects the endorphins in your brain, I wonder if watching some silly comedy that changed the way you are thinking at the time would affect the brain chemistry at all. I may be way out in left field here, sorry if I am, just a thought. I know I like to watch the Blue Collar guys, they can make me laugh and forget about all the crap going on in my life for a bit. Some movies will do that too for me. Just a thought. I sincerely hope you have a better day today. I didn't come on much Saturday night, was talking to Snuggles on the phone, her dad was missing, has severe dementia and took off in the morning and they had the police and everyone out looking, I logged on and saw her post about 5 p.m. and saw her post and called her and talked to her for quite awhile. They did find him about 8 p.m. our time, by the way and he was okay, thank goodness.

Debbie - glad you got off the Seroquel, sounds like it could possibly do more damage than good, and the weight loss is amazing. Some of the drugs, while helping us, also have nasty side effects. Have you ever asked your Dr. about rebound headaches?? It is when your body gets so used to the medication, that if you don't take it you get headaches. I have heard of people getting them from taking Tylenol and had to quit taking Tylenol and then the headaches actually quit altogether. Also, ask him about Topamax, it is a migraine prophylactic, I am on it. I don't have many migraines at all now. Very few side effects, and weight loss is actually a side effect, not gain. Just a thought.

Jax - hope your tooth is doing better and not causing you pain, but of course, will not be totally better until it is fixed or pulled, whichever the plan is. But hope the pain is gone.

Roy - have a good day, keep those people taken care of at the home. I hope the cold/flu bug hasn't it. It is circulating at my dad's home now. Ugly stuff.

Amber - have a good day.

Take care everyone, and have a good day tomorrow. Wishing you all sunshine and rainbows to start the day - I know, sounds corny, but haven't had much sleep.

thanks marie, ill look into that.

ive been fine coming of the seroquel, infact im not so tired.

my depression sucks today, last night i couldnt stop crying, im so up and down. i dont understand why im ok one day and the next day i feel suicidal.

Debbie - you may be reacting to coming off the Seroquel so fast, maybe you should have tapered off it. Your body was pretty addicted to it after being on it for so long. I can understand your not being so tired though. I tried it once for sleep, was either 20 or 25 mg, woke up the next day feeling groggy and hungover, never took it again. I take clonazepam for sleep, only 1 mg though, but will eventually get off that. My Dr. put me on it while I was caring for my dad at home after my mom died and he was watching TV all hours of the day and night, with the TV blaring all night and I couldn't sleep, maybe getting 3 hours or so, I was ready to drive off a cliff I was so exhausted and stressed, she put me on it to make me sleep through the noise and to deal with the stress of caring for him. It has helped me sleep. Topamax has helped with the headaches, I think the biggest help with the migraines was going through menopause though, I used to get one religiously when I started my period, now that that is over, I get them occasionally, get tension headaches all the time. Especially, since I seem to have developed the habit of clenching my jaw muscles all day and night now, don't know why, but realize it when my jaw starts to ache, just stress I would guess, hope it stops eventually. Think I will look for a mouth guard to wear at night, might help that out.
Hope you feel better soon. Do you have a counselor to talk to?? You need someone to be connected to when you feel this way.

its not the seroquel, i have phases like this all the time,i cant go into more detail on here, i can in email, but i cant email you, because you havnt got it set up so i can. im concerned, if i am having migraines, because sometimes they last for days, im worried something more is going on. do you think a muscle relaxant would help to, because i get a lot of neck pain to??

I don't have any restrictions on my e-mail, don't know why you can't e-mail, I get them from anyone, all ages.

A muscle relaxant will help if you have muscle tension and neck pain. I wish you would go see a doctor, can you go to an ER and talk to a Dr. about your pain??

I wish I could talk more, but I really need to get to bed, I need to be up in 5 hours to take my dad to breakfast and I should have been in bed a long time ago, I am really sorry. I don't know why you couldn't e-mail me though, I have no restrictions at all on my mail. I will try sending you a mail and see if it goes through. But I do have to go to bed, but we can talk tomorrow morning after I get back from my dad's breakfast. Sorry I have to leave now. I was up til this time last night and was up about 8 too this a.m. so haven't slept much. Take care, I will try to e-mail you and see what happens.

its worked now, ill speak to you later,

hows everyone today???

Having a good morning, Deb.

I am sorry to hear about your bad day, Karen. I hope you are feeling better this morning.

Going to catch up on my sleep, Marie. Then I am planning to do some painting on my bathroom. I have a friend coming over later to pull up the tile on the floor. I figured it would be a good time to paint the walls. I went to Walmart to get some sierra redwood color mixed up yesterday and have picked up brushes and rollers.

Sorry for my outburst last night friends. I dont usually do that and it was uncalled for. I will be fine and thank you all for caring.

sorry about your bad night karen..this is a place to vent so never apologize ,k?
Marie thanx for the good wishes..i have oral surgery on the 21st to get the tooth out.thank god i have insurance!!
roy can ya come clean my house since your in work mode?
Debbie you might want to hookup with a therapist or a group to talk thru your depression and other issues.some medications can cause depression....
My son has decided he will go to counseling.The school thinks he needs it and it may help with his abandament issues with his dad.
well have a great sunday.please say a prayer for my mom whos health is not great right now.She has had a TIA and just isnt her self.

Soooooo very sad today.
Just feel like crying.
Feel so lonely and alone.
Wish this would just go away.

hi angel and heres a big hug for you..

Thank you

Sorry you are having a bad day today Angel, we all have them. Don't know if something specific is going on. Do you have a friend or family member to talk to??

Hope you are feeling better today Karen. I agree, Karen, you don't need to apologize, this is our safe place to come and vent, ask for support, etc. No apologies needed.

I get Roy next, but he would take a look at what my house needs and go screaming into the street (roof, foundation, painting inside and out, bathroom floor, shower, garage torn down, that is for starters anyways).

yesterday would have been my 4th anniversary with the ex y'all and i didn't even realize till today............i'm so happy i made it through the day and i'm going out to a valentine's dance friday night...........yay!