I usually dont post here I try to solve my issues myself but I really feel like im losing me. I keep being told by people they dont want to change me but slowely they try. I hear all the time what a nice guy I am. I did not think that was a bad thing but it seems that the world does not want that I cant even think of anything happy tonight my world seems so dark now. I feel like the world is winning and im losing what made me me and becoming something i never wanted to be. I dont want sympathy I just wanted to get it out.

ken, he's not my daughter's father.........he's the reason i lost her to DSS in the first place...........i'm not gonna go to him......in fact i'm hoping to go to the new year's eve dance at my church ................ gotta meet some more people....lol

that's what this thread is about...to get things off your chest...good luck and keep posting

ty very much

The nice thing I have found about this thread that I have also found out in the real world is that it feels good to be able to help others and the opposite is also true because it feels good to be helped by others. Everybody does has something to contribute. One of our latest residents and her brother has downs syndrome. She just turned 34 and her little hands are deformed. Her brother doesn't have it as bad, the downs but just needs a little encouragement. He is what we call a self. In our terminology a self can just about take care of their self with minimum help. Needless to say I have found what an aide told me when she was teaching me to be true and what is in the nursing aide handbook which is to call the resident by their proper name or by the name they which to addressed by. I have had to quit calling them by terms of endearment because it has come back and bit me on the ass.

Hi everyone

Sorry I haven't been around much, the seraquel has been kickin my arse!! so, yeah I have been sleepin ALOT!! back to not being able to get up in the morning....somewhere there has to be a happy medium!

Mommy - sounds like it might be too heavy a dose. I tried it once or twice for sleep and quit because it wiped me out and I was having trouble getting to work. Wonder if you can take a smaller dose??

Amber - glad you are not taking him back, sounds like bad news.

Karen - sorry things are so crappy for you right now. Wish I could help, but I sure do know about the financial BS right now. Still waiting on the bank. My nerves are wearing thin. Try to make the best of Christmas and just enjoy being with your family.

Thunder - welcome to the thread. Sorry things are not going well for you right now. There are a lot of good people in here and the support is great.

Allen - sorry you are having a mid life crisis - likely holiday stress too, and all the others thrown in the mix too. Try to ride it out, or talk to a counselor if you can to help you sort things out.

MB - hope you are doing well. You do a great job of keeping this thread going while some of us are not around. I hope you are doing okay with coming off the Lexapro.

Roy - working in the nursing home must be hard. I could never do it. My dad is in one now and I talk to the people as I go in and leave, but could never work there. Kudos to you for the work you do, definitely a needed resource. I admire people like you who can do the work. I had dad at home for over a year caring for him myself, I couldn't take it much longer, literally, I am not cut out for that kind of work. He has his favorite aides and nurses, of course, most likely do.

Hope everyone has a great day.

Marie, there are some days that I wonder if I am cut out for this work. There can be a close bond that can develop between the aide and the nurse that just doesn't happen in a different type of work environment. The solution or problem depending how you wish look to at it is that we have to communicate. We basically have no choice. I have had to be strong for the nurse at times and at times the nurse has had to be strong for me. There are times when we have had keep each other sane. I have had to tell her that she isn't crazy and she has had to tell me that I am not crazy because we work with so many Alzheimer residents. To illustrate, Last night I went to take a break and she called me on the cell phone to get my ass back up to the work area because so many lights were going off and a number of alarms. As usual we were understaffed so the nurse on duty had to become an aide and the nurse on another floor had to be the nurse for three floors. Instead of just sitting in the nurse's station charting she was running her ass off trying to do what I have to do normally. By the time I got back up there she was breathing heavy and running in circles. I wanted to say welcome to my world. I looked at her and she had one of these wtf happened? Everyone so calm before you left. Everyone thinks third shift is so easy but some have never encountered the sundowners.

The really cool thing that happened last night was the first time we got to use the new briefs that have Velcro adhesives and that are super absorbent. They stretch real good and they don't have sticky tapes that can cause skin tears. Instead of pulling out wet gobs of cotton balls with plastic that breaks in to it is one heck of a lot better adult brief. They are experimental for us because the manufacturer just wanted us to try them out. I know just as soon as the other aides get to try them out that they are going to beg the nursing home to keep getting them. They are so much safer for the residents. All I can do is pray that we get to keep them stocked. I was very impressed with them.

Ruthie, I hate trying new meds........I have been sleeping alot to...I don't know why......Right now, I'am trying to get ready for Christmas..............

its only 100mg pill




Me to Cindy...but I gotta sleep at night...oh well.. i guess i'll just talk to my doc when I see her

i suffer from depression , i didnt have any money for my pills just got them today , was crying at work today i had to go home , its awful when you dont have money to pay for them

Hey ((coco)) long time no see. Sorry to hear you are going through this too. The pharmacutical companies are eating us up!

I hate them and the meds. But don't feel too alone coco......I had two classes where I had a meltdown and had to leave. And I have meds.

I wish I didn't. Being an art major, well, the meds supress my creativity. I am going to talk to the dr and see what she says.

I don't which is worse. Being the crazy artist or the sane person.

i remember one time which was a long time ago i felt as if i was in a deep dark hole , and my dr at the time wouldnt give me anything

I know that feeling too. When I was very young, after I had my 1st child, I wnet bat****. I tried so hard, but back then they didn't even believe in BP or baby blues.........not to mention they didn't give a rats ass if I had PTSD or anxiety. They just told me to get some help with the kids and suck it up. When they did give me meds, they didn't work and I gave up on it and so my life has been hell.
!0 years ago I finally got onto SSI. But I had to fight tooth and nail for about 1 1/2 yrs. I have finally gotten on a cocktail that helps most of the time but meds are no cure. They are only something to help you. The illness I have is for life. It suck big weeniees

Coco, did you ask your Dr. for samples? Maybe he can give you some to get you by.

hey mommy,
my doctor gave me 50 mgs of trazodone to sleep.it knocked me on my ass so now i only take half a pill which is better.if you have pills(not capsules)try that..

roy even though i'm not an aide ,(i'm the housekeeper)there are somedays i question my sanity on working on the UNIT.i mean when evryone gets a bee up there ass at once and the aides are busy and your trying to keep some people from eloping and trying to get another to stop walking so you can grab there walker so they dont fall or a whole table is fighting over kleenex ,or two residents get into it cause one sat in the wrong chair.........ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
I love the residents but there are some days..to the moon alice!!

well guys and girls its that wonderful time of year


glad this was brought back

hello again and hope you are all well

i hate Christmas Mon. i cried like a BIG baby it felt good afterwards though

Hey froggy...you look familiar...

A good cry is sometimes better than a years' worth of therapy...