sorry to bother you this late and i know im kinda of a repeating record. I am having a panic attack about my job situation. its not that i am worried that i will be fired but that i wont find anything before my loans start to hammer down on me then i really don't know what i am going to do ya know. I did go to vocational rehab because of my hands but they were no help (their only idea was to have me move far away which i can't really afford). The economy is just so shaky right know, i am glad that i am working where im (becuase a lot of people don't have jobs) at but it wont ever be enough. I know i need shirnk help but ya i cant affrod it and make to much to get on the system to get free help. I just need to know what to do or that things will be better

I hope that things turn around for you & keep your chin up ~ remember accunnamatatah or I think that is how they spell it...it is from the lion king movie...means don't worry...I know easier said than done...but say a prayer & things should start to feel better...its like I used to say keep on plugging away & do your best & sooner or later things have to turn around bright eyes...sorry I know that is a song...LOL!

Prayer is a good thing, Jeff. I have had to talk to my higher power a lot lately. Being in the caring profession I have had to realize that there are some where I work that don't want my help and even one who told me that I wasn't touching her and she told me to get out of her room. While I wished her and her demon to have a good day I couldn't get out of her room fast enough. I asked the nurse what I should do because again we were short-handed and she said give it in the report to the aide coming on duty. Sometimes we encountered problems that are just greater than we are and we have to ask for help from an outside source. I am thankful for having a program which has taught me how to surrender to a higher power. I am finding it useful to pray for myself and for others. It has helped me to turn things over to a higher power that I can't deal with.

does anyone know whats stronger, zaleplon or zolpidem? there sleeping tablets.

thanks

Last night I got the first indication that I might be taking my job too seriously. Another aide asked me if I would be her valentine and I had to think about it. It was okay because the aide asked the nurse if it was okay if she asked me to be my valentine. I thought about documenting it. Just in case it should be in a incident report. God, I need a vacation.

Jeff- I used to wait for things to get better. I guess I did a lot of soul searching. It took awhile to really examine me, who I was and what I really wanted to do in life. I know it's hard with panic, but looking at yourself and finding your strengths and focusing on them will help you. I had to learn the hard way...many jobs...not knowing why I couldn't find one that was a remote fit. I took interest tests. One called the Meyers-Briggs (you can take a short version online) helped me a lot. I would consider doing that. I just can't tell you how much I learned about myself from that. Hope that helps.

Deb whats with all the drugs?I know you can't sleep but maybe you should find the cause of your insomnia before going on yet another pill.

Jeff cutie pie is right.Also have you tried applying for section 8 so you can get help with the rent?since you are disabled you would qualify.

im living with my mom under section 8 so not really they dont help us out cuase combined we make to much

So then Jeff if you had your own place under Section 8, you would pay minimal rent and your mom's rent would go way down because they wouldn't count your income in her's anymore either. If you are disabled, why don't you qualify for medical benefits through the state?? Then you could get counseling.

Debbie - I worry about you asking so many questions about medications to people who are not doctors, we are not professionals and can only make guesses. I wish you would call your doctors and ask them. I wouldn't want you to overdose and have it be on my conscience. I worry about everything you are already on, your doctor needs to review and sort them out. Please ask them to clarify the medications for you.

Hope everyone had a good Valentine's Day. I have been laying low, battling a headache and just feeling punky. Hope you are all well.

Hope things are going great for everyone else. Take care.

I survived Valentine's Day. Got to work with the big-eyed kid, again. She was sicker than a dog still but came in last night. We were both working our butts off but I had her laughing all night. I have been trying to help with her love life. She was asking me if she should go back to her ex-boyfriend and or stay with the 31 year old who bought her the 100 dollar Nikes. The 31 year old's ex-wife doesn't like her. I was advising her to try single life for a while till her head clears. She is sure proud of her new shoes. She asked me what I would do if I was her dad and knowed that she was dating a 31 year old man. I did my best to protect her by telling her to make sure you glove up; Close the curtains and do everything by the book. Probably selfish of me but I am not ready to feed her to the lions. I am trying my best to train her the best way so she doesn't have to learn the hard way like I did. I have did pretty good to teach her how to kill them with kindness no matter how combative the residents can get. She is coming a long fine. I keep telling her to just keep calling them honey no matter how mad they make you. By morning we had them all smiling but it damn near killed us.

because my disability is ranged in under minimal (cause i can find ways to work around it) i only got help from vocational rehab becuase i was also overweight

hi marie, they have put me on chloral hydrate with the zolpidem and it knocks me out. so im sleeping great. as for the depression, its knocking me about at the moment, its horrible thinking whats the point living. im plodding on and doing my best though.

because they keep changing them. i get immune to them very quick as ive been on them years.

Hey there Marie, sorry you are feeling so poorly. You've been under a lot of stress, so take time for yourself. You deserve it. Thank you for all your help and support! Time for us to give a bit back! Need anything, let me know, ok?

hugs

Marie your a very strong woman .I hope you feel better soon.Thank God the valentine's chocolates are on sale!!

Chocolates on the house.....passum around

I have had to give back a bit, Karen. It is like a juggling act in my case. I have gotten a lot of help from helping others where I work but lately have been burning out. It is like I feel I just don't have anything more to give. But at my meetings our grand poopah is burning out and wants to spend more time with his family much like the aides that don't show up for work. So I have decided to kill two birds with one stone. Sorry for the clique. I asked the grand poopah if he needed any help for chairing the meetings in my locale. He said that one chairperson needed someone to take his place for the Thursday night meeting. So I called that person and he said we would talk it over with the grand poopah. What made me come to this realization is that I was helping the grand poopah with a newcomer with the importance of service work and it backfired. In other words, I had to practice what I had preached. I think it will be very helpful to the one who leads meetings on Thursday nights since he works at a treatment center also and has to be careful how he words information because he is also a counselor. It should alleviate some of the grand poopahness since we all will be able to specialize in what we all do best. Basically we all see a need and want to fill it but there is only so much that is humanly possible for one human to accomplish. The new comer was complaining that he was bored. We know that work cures boredom because when you work at something that you love you really don't have time to be bored because boredom has to be scheduled in only when there is enough time to be bored.