I dont watch em I just want someone to make em with. Lol

Thanks guys...An old writing I came across and I just wanted to share it.
WHat you say is so true -"creative". Thank you for your input.It is greatly appreciated.

GEL

When I was a young girl
I used to believe in love
I dreamed of white weddings
Two people joined from above-
But now Im older and question
All that I used to feel
I see the world and how it is today
And wonder if anything's real..

I used to believe in best friends
But have seen how they come and go
Recogizing they're "fair weather" friends
Only staying around for "the show"
No pickett fences-no forever in time
They're only dreams that lived
On in my mind...-

Its sad, I know to lose it all
And wake up to reality
But looking back I comprehend
How badly life has beaten me.
Alone is certain, alone is true
I wonder how I couldve ever
Believed in you...

I stare at my reflection
So often and think
Of how many times in life
I stood on the brink
Of thinking I had something
when emptiness previals
How awful it feels to have
The wind knocked from my sails
(again)

I used to believe I could trust
in something I couldnt see
But now It seems the only one
I can trust is me-
So I make my way alone in time
I know at least where I stand
Only it hurts to go thru life
without the touch of
somebody's hand

I believed in purity
I believed in truth
Now everything I held onto
Seems so misconstrude
I believed "right" prevailed
And all would work out
Now Im filled with confusion
All that remains is doubt...


Some where, long ago
I used to believe.....

You are absolutely right- I dont not intent to become hard. We are all human and have flaws.True love means being able to overlook those flaws in each other and forgive. Not focusing
on the past but moving on to the future and not keeping a scorecard...
As they say "time heals all wounds" there may be scars but I look at it as a lesson of things I do not want to ever do to others.
Have a great day everyone...
Tressia

Thank you everyone..
Its sad that some of our best writing comes from one extreme or the other-
Contentment and bliss or Pain and sorrow....
---Such is life!

I look at the bloody nub that used to be the hand I extended to you-
Mangled beyond recognition and thrown back in my face-
My faith in humanity has been shattered and the loving nurturing side to me that Ive managed to hold on to since childhood has been crushed and held with such high disregard.
To you I am a joke, a pathetic farse to be mocked.
My shell is cold and dazed. Many things I have been able to over come, to shake off and move ahead. This pain is far worse than any Ive known.
Maybe you were this person all along but my blind love for you and faith in all you could achieve distorted my view of who you really were.
This view is no longer avoidable, your raving tantrum shook me to my core. I can no longer see you innocently and all we "were"
is now a lie. All you meant to me is questionable.
The wreckage of what you left behind is unrecognizeable and I am never going to be the same.
I often sit and wonder why do people become so distant and uncaring...Why their walls are so high and sturdy-
Now I think I know the answer and I found out the hard way.
I never thought it possible to feel like such a fool.
But it is possible and some people just cant be helped. They are in their own prisons, sabatoging any one or anything that dares come too close to breaking thru their defenses.
Collateral damage...as they move on- never looking back

Yeah basicly these days you are choosing the lesser of two evils. No one is really right for the job its just that they are a better choice than the "other guy" (or gal).

Its seems its going to be
this way and I dont know
How I can go on each day
loving you this way so.
We have the best realtionship
we're friends and always will be
It's just so hard loving you
Knowing you're not in love with me.

We talk, we laugh,a deep bond we share
Like none Ive ever known
It seems impossible its only a year
Cant believe how close we've grown.
When You say you love me,
I know that it is true
No ones shown me such respect
Thats why Im so drawn to you-

But your love is a different love
than the one that explodes with in
Id be happy to call you lover
but your happy to call me friend.
So I will stay right where I am
For you are the one I can trust
Your the definition of a man.

I know I am blessed beyond measure
To have you in my life you see
For you are heavens gift my friend
and you mean the world to me.
Love has many facets that shine
And yours they shine so bright
So I will take your friendship
-and cherish it all my life !!

Hey "sweet" -Nice ride!!!
I have made several good friends here on JSH in the year Ive been on here. Like you I spent several years married and just finalized my papers in Aug. SO Im spreading my wings and just enjoying life. I have 3 children (22, 21 & 16 ) and 1 1 month old grandbaby.
Like every thing in life you gotta be careful cuz it's sad there are a few bad apples in every bucket,,, but for the most part, you will find caring, geniune ppl here and I have really had a blast posting poetry and throwing my two cents in here n there. Have a great time here and welcome to the site. Hope to see you around.
Oh yeah Did I say nice Bike?.....LOL

I really like this- great description and much thought...

Tiny little fingers
Little twinkle toes
I saw her and she stole my heart
Oh yeah!- there it goes.

She sleeps like an angel
But Like a Banshee she cries
Everytime I look at her
tears fill up my eyes.

All my cares fade away
when I hold that little girl
And to see the spark in my sons eyes
Shes the center of his world.

They have their little family
Its a sweet sight to behold
A miracle in the making
as their new lives unfold.

But Grandma has her part.
Right now its far away
but I hope to be closer
to that little one one day.

Hey folks- Havent been around much as I just got back from N.Dakota and visiting with my son and the new baby!!. What a great trip (just too short).We took some awesome photos and I have posted some on my profile.
Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers as I traveled so far. It was so surreal to see my son now with his own baby. And to be "Grandma". WHat a wonderful feeling to hold a baby again. It has been many years for me... She's a cutie but she sure can throw a fit...Wonder where she got that from? Hmmmm.(smile) Guess its in the genes..
Anyway I am back now and got lots of poems coming from that little one Im sure. She is an inspiration.
Hope you all are having a fabulous day and being blessed profoundly.
Lotza Love-
Tressia

you rock !!
Looks and brains too..Wow!

Good to see you again CCP (as always) you have done it again!!
Excellent!

Yesturday I dreamed of you
Your face etched in my mind.
But as I looked and looked for you
You were increasingly hard to find.
Dodging here and hedging there
always 10 steps ahead
Seems as tho I cant catch up
Im falling behind instead.
Today the sun is beaming in
I try to find a glimmer
But hope seems to be fading fast
And is quickly losing its shimmer.
Tomorrow will I have the strength
to look yet once again?
Or simply wait and accept my fate
And recall your face and then...
Remember yesturday as it was
Back when My hope was strong
And today, hope tomorrow soon comes
For yesturday is long gone..

Hey babyboy, Just be yourself and stay true to what you want from life. If you like who you are and clearly you are secure with that, just make friends for now. True friends always stay-
Build on that and dont settle for less than you deserve.
Everyone is rich- just some of us are rich with things other than money. Seems like you have a great outlook on life and you are a hard worker.Two great qualities as far as I can see.

I met a really nice man online in Jax florida -I'm in upstate SC. We began writing in May & have e-mailed and IM'd for awhile. When I felt comfortable after a coupla months he gave me his # and I would call him occasionally. Now we speak everyday. We met in person a couple of weeks ago. Then he came into town last weekend. He drove 5 hrs to see me. He is a really great guy and we continue to build a good foundation and there seems to be a connection there.
As for moving, That will be awhile off for me and I like the security for now of knowing he is 5 hrs away, after all I was married 8 yrs to a man I didnt know at all so I am really cautious. My youngest is in Hi school and I want him to graduate with his peers and this man seems to be understanding of this.
So for now the distance thing isnt a problem for me. He is having a bit more of an issue with it. I guess having been in an
abusive realtionship has made me really step back and take my time. And Im ok with that. After all we all deserve the best- why settle for anything less.

You go Kojack!!!
I had to read that several times it was So good.LOL

Really true words Mike...
I have been there myself
-Great writing..
Tressia

Great words of experience and wisdom...Thanks for sharing