Thanks, I appreciate your words, made me feel a little bit better.

It amazes me how people don't understand what I am talking about when i mention stuff like this, I'm not mad at you sweety, I can't be mad at you. I'm not that way. I am mad at my best freinds ex sis. She has caused too much trouble. And I just don't care anymore for her.

With the kind of mood I'm in, I need an icecream desperatly, that and maybe a brain scan and a memory complete wipe! hugs I hate mean people. As nice as I am to everyone despite their rudeness, I always get hurt for it. hugs

Well, I have to say, i was more than dissapointed today. It seems to me like the world is rushing to its doom sometimes. Everytime I think someone I know can rise above the urge to get all evil and some junk on me just because I am a nice person. They prove me wrong, every, single, time. I found out today that my best friends sister, who happens to covet him and always has, decided to cause him to lose his love of his life, not only this but she decided in the last oh let me see, probably a year or more to spend her time and her status doing her damdest to discredit me and him. She basically said, I was dangerous and crazy and I should not be trusted and she told this to all her little friends and all of their friends and so on an so forth. I knew something was up, but I lacked the way to combat it at the time. I have been dealing with a great deal of physical illnesses and medication changes because of my decline in health. It simply amazes me that people will go to such horrible lengths to cause people harm. She has coveted him for a very long time trying to play both sides of her life telling me crap about my place and so on. It was unbelievable to say the least. I have always tried to keep a level point of veiw about her and him and his love and thier um, friends, that is. But when I heard this today, I thought to myself, laugh, now I'm not laughing at my bestfriends misfortune, far from it, but I laugh in their faces, because I know what they have been doing now, its just been confirmed by the very person they turned against my best freind. Oh well, I should never have expected anything from her, once a royal itch, always a royal itch dedicated to the distruction of hope. Call me crazy all you, want, I don't give a&^%$* anymore about her or her lil friends or what she wants!!!!

Ok, I don't know how to address this. Its a rather long story, I will make it short for you, seems a former sister of my best freind has caused him to lose the love of his life convincing her he is dangerous and crazy. Also attached to this is the fact that she said I was dangerous and crazy as well. And as you know I have been dealing with some major physical issues due to changes in major medications and also some new physical illnesses I have picked up along the way. At first I myself thought this seemed very strange that my friends on my web paged began to question me everytime I wrote a poem or anything of expression. They had never done that before. Than soon, no one came to my pages but for maybe three people. It seemed very strange concerning the fact that I had had 35,000 hits on my former page. To be honest, I always tried to keep a level point of veiw on the whole situation between her and him and his love among some other not so savory people involved. I do my best to be a good person despite the way that people are sometimes. I am always supportive and very giving. His sister, me and him go way back, I mean waaaay back. She doesn't like to admit I know what I know about her that she secretly coveted him always. It is what it is. But today, I now know the truth of what has been going on. Its rather sad to say the least, at what lengths some people will go to for strange or hurtful reasons. I for one have hope for our people yet, but it scares me to see the world hastening to its doom this way. hugs

I wrote this comment to a friends blog poem based on love and desire. He is a good freind of mine but I thought the comment deserved reposting. So I am posting here for you for fun.

Let us live she said, for those who have forgotten what it means, are all ready dead inside, but if we move in tides of love again, and throw ourselves into life, what better way to end the day, rather than dwell and suffer. I would give so much to see this happen, a day when we give no more to pain and sorrow, when we can turn the most mundane, into the happiest tomorrow. Strange how men and women alike, will station themselves in a place lost in lust and desire, but what is love without loving I say, I hope we will find our beloved todays and tomorrows caressed in a kiss, wrapped in loving arms of love. If stars should fall and we don't care at all, I'll lift you up once again. Nothing is for nothing, for everything is sacred, everyone has importance though we may not see it now. Love you brother, hugs from above, where my head is in the clouds again.

awesome, you did a very good job on this. You expressed it well.

Thank you, I was hoping it would. Thank you for reading my posts. hugs

Thanks film dude, hope your day is awesome. Nice to see you again around here. Rock on.

Yeah, I re did it, LOL hahahaha, re done, refinished, did it again, OK Ok Ok, whatever, hahahaha, so, how are you today, Giggles. smiles

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Redid my about me section on my profile, what do ya'll think. I was trying to show my querkiness and fun side as well as my more serious side as well as make people think a lil bit as well as show my complexity, for fun, of course, giggles

It wasn't like you asked her on a date or asked her to marry you, geesh, that was a pathetic thing to do. She could have atleast given you her freindship. wow, some people are so skittish.

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LMAO!!! Yeah, right, me a perv, never, a Lil wicked thing maybe, but a perv never, and only where men are involved, I love to play with my food, giggles hahahahaha, just kidding. giggles

I have lived with my parents all my life. But at one point I decided to help them buy the house we are in now, I took care of my mother til the day she died. My dad and I are now roommates. Problem is, he still won't let me be the adult I truly grew to be without him and my mother. Our beliefs and ideas differ greatly. He has many issues with my ideals and how I deal with things. He is constantly questioning me or trying to fix me so I fit into his point of view of what an adult is. It causes us to fight all the time. What I hate most is when people tell me to take care of him better, or when someone tells my sister or my brother to tell me to take care of my dad and help him more. It was the same way when my mother was alive. Truth of the matter is, when people say that, they truly don't know what I have done for them and they don't know how much I have sacrificed so that I could care for my family on a daily basis. Even though they would not give me the same help, I gave it to them and still do. My friend kept telling me to leave, but I loved them and I found myself backing out everytime. There is a certian amount of negative mentality that happens when you live with parents as long as I have, especially with parents who would not let me be myself or listen to me when I had something substantial to say. I grew up without them, you get ignored enough, you find other ways of moving on. I think you did all right taking care of your mom. You loved her, and you took care of her, that is an awesome thing. I feel yu where the relationship thing is concerned, guys hear I live with my dad and they turn into buttheads. They have no respect for my dad as if I live with him but they can still come over any time they want and stay over. That does not go well with my dad at all. It has been hell on my relationships and caused way too many problems. anways.

hmmm, never heard of them, I will have to check that out. thanks for the idea. have a sexy good night. off to bed to dream of my dream man. giggles

oh yeah, Krimsa, i went by your page to see your pics, no I am not stalking you, LOL I just wanted to see your pics cause I didn't recognize your avatar. Is that to an album cover? smiles

It fun, I like meeting people here and making friends. Not here for a relationship right now but you never know what might happen. I have met someone who has peaked my interest a bit. Who knows what could happen. I love the topics in the forums too, alot of fun. I like reading peoples opinions and ideas. Hugs

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