Endless blue sky
Separates us now
All those dreams we shared
Have turned to precious memories
This heart once so full of your love
Now feels empty
You promised you would come home to me
And that promise you kept
I admire how hard you fought
Even after you were safe at home,
That pain you endured,
I felt it too.
It killed me to know,
I was powerless to stop it.
I loved you more
Than any woman could love a man
You saved my life,
The only life-raft in a violent sea of despair.
You taught me to believe
There is no such thing as impossible
You showed me that love is worth the risk,
Crying is always okay
And true love will always prevail.
All too quickly you were ripped away
Your battle is finally over
This year on the day
You would have turned twenty-eight,
There will be tears.
Many more than have been shed already
But since I know up there
You're still able to hear and see
I'll force a smile
Because
you'll never know how proud you made me.
Still do..
Thank you for all you have ever done
I love you
My soldier

Days drag on
I wish they would either speed up or rewind,
This poor heart just keeps aching
Eyes glisten with tears,
Anger bubbles ever so slightly
Melding with the sadness and longing
Just once I wish someone understood
“Let go”...”you have to move on”
Those words burn me up faster than any other
He wasn't some mangy mutt that ran away,
Moving on does nothing to ease the pain
In fact, its like rubbing salt in a gaping wound
All around me sunlight tickles the world with its warmth
Flags adorn yards, businesses, and every lamp post downtown
Children have been counting the days,
More than ready to leave books and teachers in the dust.
Me?
I prepare myself for the biggest heartache
One only understood,
By those who have lived through something this sickening
Hatred killed my heart and soul,
But first, the gates of hell opened right here on earth
Helpless to stop it, it swallowed him.
Hatred in human form kept him there
And because of that
While parades are being lead,
And school children bounce with excitement
A happy birthday wish will be carried by the wind
I will be doing my best
To remember him as the honorable, courageous man he was
A man who, like so many others was not afraid of paying the highest price
Every fiber of my being aches
It feels as though a knife is shredding my heart
Yet no matter where I turn
All I hear
Is “Let go...you need to move on”
If only it was that simple...

yup....turns out MOST everybody else had a crush on him too so i stopped wasting my time

nope i was considered an outcast so i wound up be-friending all the slutsd so i never had friends if they had bfs lol it was sad

apologize to anyone i knew of that i hurt tell my f amily all the disagreements we had were really no big deal enjoy all the little things and just live in every moment yea i know it sounds cheesy but i would

awww well ty :) ur pretty awesome too

ummm yea lol

LMAO okay now if u were my second mom dont u think that'd be a little weird considering who i call my big brother?...you're welcome

When the sky begins to fall
You turn the debris to fireworks
Instead of agony there is brilliant color,
Darkness slithers its way back,
You find enough sun to ward it off
If only for awhile,
Times change,
With those changes may come pain.
People we love come and go
But just like happiness, pain is a part of life
The unknown is still my biggest fear,
Yet I no longer live in fear from day to day
Yes horrible things are possible,
Good things are too.
Somehow knowing you're there
No matter what comes this way
Has made living less frightening.
Its hard to believe there was ever a time
I wanted nothing to do with you
Countless times hopelessness knocked on my door
I found the strength to ignore it.
Everything would be just fine,
I knew you weren't too far away.
And never would be.
Your friendship has been the greatest blessing
I could have ever received
Hard times are coming
They won't last forever
I am no longer afraid.
Because...
You always find a way
To turn the tears to rainbows.


Dedicated to Suzanne, one of the most amazing most loving people I have ever known love ya sis

what doesnt kill us only makes us stronger right?

uber

Friendship was carelessly tossed away,
There were no second thoughts.
After the line went dead, my heart gave way just a little.
What did we ever have?
To me it felt like magic,
All the little things I ever dreamed, were staring me in the face
Even so, the vicious demons of loss
Sunk their teeth into a mended heart
The ties used to mend it were broken
I desperately needed time
Time...
Once something to cherish
Its now my greatest enemy
Thoughts drift
Soft kisses fall upon eager lips,
Loves light filled young souls
Two staggering outcasts
One chance taken
From this, came the beautiful creation of love.
Remember when you made me promise
I would never leave?
How ironic life can be

Sorry im a proud big sis lol i just had to share, my little sister won the first softball game of the season 6-2!!!!!!!


GO MIDDLEBURY!!!

this wont mean **** to u comin from me but welcome home hun

my well ex boyfriend i guess...chris but i know hes in a better place

thank her for all the crap she put my brothers and i through by giving her not a damn thing

I'm bored
So thoughts keep bouncing around
Some unwanted, some intriguing
But most puzzling
How have I gotten here?
In the beginning I had hopes and dreams
A solid staircase of plans to get there too
Now?
I'm going nowhere fast
Yes, I finally have a few friends
All of them have children, dreams of marriage
What do I have?
Dust-coved dreams
And a rotting staircase that once were plans.
I look just like my father
These actions are the spitting image of my mother
Trapped in an itty-bitty town I despise with my entire being
Unhappiness has begun to make a home in my soul
What I wouldn't give to just pick up and go
Leave this stupid town in the dust
Spirits once soaring high now lie dead
Confidence I possessed as a young child
Is nothing more than a memory
In fact, I am not entirely sure it existed at all
Look at me,
What am I?
DIFFERENT
WEIRD
A nobody
Not suitable for any sort of normal, sane man
Intelligence and wits don't always matter
Not in todays' world.
I have seen myself as normal
My family has too
This is the hand I was dealt and that's completely okay
Some are just meant to be alone
After all, love cannot light every soul
Nor color every womans cheek the most lovely shade of pink
Being alone Isn't so bad
It's being reminded of the reasons
That has begun to erode my heart

Since when does I love you
Translate into sleep with me?
Since when does I need you
Mean only if you don't refuse?
What happened to holding hands
A little cuddling never hurt either
Why must we take it further
I don't want to lose you
But I'm just not ready
When you said “That's okay”
I assumed you understood
Instead she found her way to your bed
That very moment my heart shattered
Every hope and dream
All those pretty little lies you made me believe
Were swallowed by tears
Since when does the possibility of forever
End just because I said no?

LOL i dunno about great but thanks hun :)

Stuck with my earthly restrictions
For God only knows how long
I continue on with my days
Sleep away the nights
As best I can at least
Sometimes your voice cuts through the silence
A hand faintly brushes my cheek
Urging me to wake from the dreamless sleep
After doing so and my senses return
Reality hits once again
It hadn't been you at all
Tears fall like rain
Lying there alone I cannot help but think
If only tears could carry me
I'd grab hold of your hand
We would finish what we started
Move ahead with all the plans...
Sometimes I can almost see us
You standing at the alter
An eager but patient smile
Just waiting for my father to give you my hand
Eyes misty with tears he finds his seat
The preacher begins
But the words are muffled
By the thunderous beating of my heart
From this moment on I will be your wife
That's the way we planned it anyway
Now I'm left with nothing but wishes and dreams
Your hand is out of reach