how goes the weekend for everybody?

Why did you leave!
A shaky voice thundered
I am frightened
Alone
Cold...
Nothing heard
So nothing answered
Anger stirred
Then something inside softened
Whispered...
I have not left you
My gentle touch is in the wind
I gave the love we shared to God
Told him I wanted you to know
It was still there
So he grafted it upon the sun
When raindrops fall outside your door
They serve as proof
When you cry it hurts me too
I am the darkness that soothes you
Before sleep beckons
The happiness your friends provide
You have my voice
My words
They will play on forever in your heart
Listen!
You'll hear them
I am everywhere
But you must see
With a blind mans eyes

Tears splatter in front of me
One
Two
A third
One after another
Like tiny footprints
Footprints made by loss
By longing for what could have been
But now will never be
They continue on
Never really going anywhere
Watching these tiny droplets
As they made pools on the
Smooth bare hardwood floor
I thought of you
How much like your footprints they are
Falling one after the other
But never really go anywhere
They cannot help one run from pain
Nor carry the fear further away
In some ways they bring it all closer
A little easier to see
Until at last one is face to face
With the inevitable
Or in your case...
The angel of death
Your footprints trailed through the sands of hell
Falling one after the other
Yet getting you nowhere
Now tiny footprints
Made by pain
Litter the smooth bare hardwood floor

Flags wave
My heart sinks
Organized chaos clatters down main street
I hate this stupid parade...
Candy is thrown
Children squeal with delight
Clowns prance about
It's far from amusing
I hate this parade..
Driving back down the little road towards home
We pass a cemetery
Headstones and plain white crosses
Adorned with flags and flowers
Cause more than a dull ache in this nearly destroyed heart
I cannot help but picture him
His laughter sings out in every memory
Tears make the world a streaky blurry mess
I really hate this holiday
Painting on a smile
Or at least what looks like one
I will thank those who should be
For my soldier
Wouldn't have wanted it any other way
I hate this holiday
The emotions it triggers
Knowing on this day
There would've been a birthday party
If only we were not robbed of him
If only it were a lie
A sick twisted prank
Instead of the horrendous truth
He won't ever come home to me
My sobs may reach his ears
But he won't come running to my side
I hate this holiday

eh im nothin special

dont you hate it when you lose contact with your very best friend? it really sucks i miss mine a lot especially as memorial day gets closer...his friendship was of great comfort to me its been a few months since i've talked to him i was gonna ask if any of yall have kept in touch with him but i dont want 50 million people tellin him "hey nicki was lookin for ya" maybe just one or two lol..i just hope he re-surfaces because im kinda bummed

(evan101)

Evan
Will
Byron
Adam (both)
Randy
Jimmy
Uncle Mike
and of course
Chris

thank you guys
im sure im forgetting some but thats most of them

Once upon a time
Not so long ago
I trusted them
They were the good guys
Nothing to fear
Unless your the enemy of course
But now that no longer holds true to me
The good guys turn bad easily
Committing violent acts on fellow Americans
A woman no less
This notion frightens me terribly
Green matching uniforms
No longer provide a sense of safety
That sense was replaced
Darkened by fear...
If one must fear the protectors of our country
Who can we trust?
My very best friend
So strong and confident
Was rendered helpless
By one of those monsters
I cannot help this fear
Nor can I trust
Freedom defenders
Not for a long time

poetry

that was beautiful robert just beautiful

yes and apparently if you just figured this out YOU'RE slow :P but i luv ya anyway

Such agony
Summer has become so painful
Once upon a time I never wanted it to end
Now?
I watch the world through blurry teared vision
Frustration builds
Why can't I just let him go?
Death cannot be reversed nor erased
Still my heart screams for him
I love him
That will never change
It also no longer matters
What a fool I am
Most nights lonely sobs
Break through the silence
He knew he was going
Deep down I think I knew too
Though I thought denial may prevent it
Nothing did
Nothing could have...
I felt him leave that horrible morning
Racked with uncontrollable sobs
I screamed at the skies
NO NO NO YOU CAN'T LEAVE
Please...
It was no use
I knew the feeling
Helplessly I clung to each and every memory

thanks :)

“Your dad is an asshole,”
That's all she ever said,
When questions about the man,
I looked just like arose.
“He doesn't want you,”
Anger flared when I said I wouldn't give you up,
Her eyes always turned misty and clouds of anger rolled in.
“I want to know him,”
My father.
“He hurt me,” she'd say flatly
Wide-eyed I listened to horrible tales.
Terror turned my blood to ice,
Finally last march
I had my chance to see for myself
Just how terrible this monster really was
Shaky fingers held the phone to anxious ears
What would he sound like?
I swallowed hard
After a moment
There was a rough but gentle,
“Hello?”
My stomach dove to the ground
And my tongue stuck to the roof of my mouth
Finding the lost words at last
I heard an unsure voice utter one word
“Daddy”
The conversation went here and there
It felt like I'd known him forever
Suddenly the voice of this
So -called monster cracked
Tears were in his words
And probably streaming down his face
“I always wanted you” he swore.
“It's just that I was young and stupid”
“Becoming a father at twenty I was scared as hell”
By now the tiny hint of anger,
Had grown to a roaring fire.
SHE LIED TO ME!
A year and eight months out of the bottle,
His eyes were opened.
At last he did want me.
Here mom,
Here's your monster
Reduced to tears
Because YOU,
Kept him away.

men are assholes as well as liars so i guess if we have to choose its men no doubt about it

i dont think one gender tells more lies than the other both can be equally horrible

its kind of cheesy but i always thought the story was cute lol

In the beginning
You weren't my favorite person
Cocky and too sure of everything
All I wanted was to knock you down a peg or two
With a glare I growled
“Damn Jar head!”
Anger was fears best mask,
I was expecting a snide response
Instead you grinned at me
“You'll like me sooner or later”
I gritted my teeth
God you made me angry!
When my world fell apart
They day he was laid to rest
I reached out to you
There was no one else
Suddenly that creep I knew
And feared..
No longer existed
You listened,
No matter how much I cried
You cared,
When everyone else was too busy
I had to admit
You were becoming a good friend
Now days we laugh
I remember when you were nothing to me
But a damn Jar head

Dedicated to Craig one of the most loyal friends i've got

apparently its pretty darn hard

Lets ALL try to cure the bordem by complaining about how BORED we are yea that'll make things SO much more interesting! there are wayy too many bored threads lol