i love showin off mmy lil cousin lol

Got a new pic of little Abbie

“Its time” she said and off they raced
To begin a life as parents, such a precious blessing
In the doors they flew soon machines were attached
Something is terribly wrong, that heart rate keeps falling
Soon-to-be parents grow more frantic by the second
A hospital bed is wheeled down the hall
Maneuvered through operating room doors
Doctors move skillfully
A tiny life is hanging in the balance
After what seems like hours the tiny being is retrieved
Three months early, only two pounds one ounce
Stricken with pneumonia young parents fear for their baby's life
Finally they brought the little one home
She had beaten the odds
What an amazing miracle
And still she must wonder where her father is
Why did he leave?
Does he not remember that nearly ill-fated day?
When that little heart was just growing weaker
And God almost called her home to stay?
When at last that baby cried
Did he not wipe tears of relief and joy
From weary eyes?

Her father is not the only one in question
For as she grew, feelings of hatred and emptiness followed
Yes that little miracle felt unwanted,
I guess her mother too forgot
That day when time stood still as
She lie on her back staring at the ceiling
Silently praying that her baby will live
Because with a forked tongue she raised that child
During a fit of rage
Regret of ever having her seeped through clenched teeth
Poisonous words stained that little broken heart
Such a shame it was
That little miracle felt like nothing at all
Today she's finally thriving
Away from all that caused pain
Sometimes in the quiet of the early morning
Her mind begins to reel.
The doctors worked frantically to save her that day
Still her mother favors the younger three
And her father...
He appeared once
Claimed to want her
Then vanished again
Can't either of them remember that nearly ill-fated day
When god almost chose her to come home forever

LOL i know right!!! im tater but she could be lil tater

LOL no she named her Abby but i wanted to name her tater-tot but my aunt said no

i dunno if any of u remember me announcing that my aunt was pregnant but she had the baby last night its a little girl her name is Abby

There are no words that could describe
This endless emptiness nestled deep inside
It devoured the smile he loved so much
Murdered the laughter he did anything to hear
And as for that twinkle of mischief he spotted so well
That has been replaced with a storm of anger
Looking down on me today
I know he wonders where that girl is
The one whole stole his heart with no intention of giving it back
Who loved him more than anyone ever would.
Wonder he should not
For I know exactly where that girl is
Her last breath was drawn
The very moment his escaped those lips
There is a being that came in her place
And though times are tough this new image of her will survive.
Sometimes I too miss that girl
A few times it seemed as though I had found her
But it was only an illusion
She no longer belongs here anyway
That girl...
She was his
And his alone
I hate the mirror because now it lies
The being staring back is not really me
It has my face and my hair
But none of the emotions are still there
The ones I feel are that of the being
That stranger he never knew

Not so very long ago
My heart and soul was lost forever
In its place is heartache and emptiness
Time marches on
But the darkness is never far behind
His love lingers everywhere
Soaked into every fiber of my being
Still I march to the beat of a sorrowful drum
Longing to be revived
Love like I never lost him
Live as if it'll never happen
Dear lord these tears..
They just keep falling
Sometimes I think tears are the hearts way of bleeding
For when he is mentioned the salty river begins to flow
Merging with the river is the molten lava of anger and hatred
Where most see a leader I see a murderer
He sent everything that mattered to me to hell
Now he sleeps among the angels in heaven
And I miss him more each day
Sympathetic arms embrace me until the storm subsides
They think they understand
That they can imagine what this feels like
Yet each night they fall asleep to the rhythm
Of their lovers' heart
Tell me how they could understand?

thanks guys

He called me Tater
Soon the rest started too
A five letter nickname
That will forever keep him alive
Not in flesh and bone
But in this heart and mind
Named after a crispy potato
Yes that's true
Still I love it
He called me Tater
Then the rest started too
It brings a smile to my face
Lifts the weight from this heart
He called me Tater
So that's who I am to you
Just a five letter nickname to most
Is the difference between living again
With a tiny piece of him still here
And dying inside
So
They call me Tater

Britney spears

yea sure we really care that tomarrow is the actual april fools day...really hmm was that convincing?

LOL now thats funny

LMAO nope i didnt fall for it YAY there IS hope for me yet

I totally forgot about april fools day being today and besides that i'm about the most gullable person on the planet every single day therefore i've been a mega easy target next year im so setting a reminder

he was in iraq

Today has been the best day EVER!!!!! i just found out my friend derick is back in the states!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Two souls entwined
Their hearts melded as one
Such a beautiful thing love is
He is her everything
The perfect example of just how blissfully blind love can be
Each and every day presents challenges
Simple things cause much frustration
Yet each day she carries on undeterred
Unwilling to quit
He loves her for the person she is
Oblivious to every difference
Every mountain she must learn to climb
He won't be far behind.
Slowly the days crawl by
Even slower still the crater left by death has begun to fill in
His love has been the cement poured over the once gaping endless hole
Oh if he only knew the depth of this love
Her eyes now sparkle like dew upon the early morning summer grass
At the smallest mention of his name that heart gives a little leap
Not so long ago all she wanted was to turn back time
To love no one but the man that was lost to the horrors of war
And now...
Her dreams are filled with the future
While it is still unknown exactly what awaits
Its no longer a frightening thought
Emptiness is no longer her closest friend
She lives to love him
And will until the very end
More beautiful than summers crimson sky
Is the love they share

You are SO my hero!!!!!!!!

you've helped me more than anyone well my brother too but you knew that and it pretty much means the world to me