Days drag on
I wish they would either speed up or rewind,
This poor heart just keeps aching
Eyes glisten with tears,
Anger bubbles ever so slightly
Melding with the sadness and longing
Just once I wish someone understood
“Let go”...”you have to move on”
Those words burn me up faster than any other
He wasn't some mangy mutt that ran away,
Moving on does nothing to ease the pain
In fact, its like rubbing salt in a gaping wound
All around me sunlight tickles the world with its warmth
Flags adorn yards, businesses, and every lamp post downtown
Children have been counting the days,
More than ready to leave books and teachers in the dust.
Me?
I prepare myself for the biggest heartache
One only understood,
By those who have lived through something this sickening
Hatred killed my heart and soul,
But first, the gates of hell opened right here on earth
Helpless to stop it, it swallowed him.
Hatred in human form kept him there
And because of that
While parades are being lead,
And school children bounce with excitement
A happy birthday wish will be carried by the wind
I will be doing my best
To remember him as the honorable, courageous man he was
A man who, like so many others was not afraid of paying the highest price
Every fiber of my being aches
It feels as though a knife is shredding my heart
Yet no matter where I turn
All I hear
Is “Let go...you need to move on”
If only it was that simple...

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