Can I blow up now? It seems everytime I try to keep my head above water, another wave comes to crash down on me. Last week it was medication bills, which was $120 and for a week I only had ten dollars, but I made it work out, or so I thought. I ate saltine crackers and water for a whole week. I didn't eat lunch or breakfast, just crackers. And on friday i got paid and then checked to see if it cleared yet so I could eat somthing thats not a cracker, and it says I've been charged $70 for 50 dollar over draft fee, because all the checks I wrote all cleared on the same day, which was friday! I was like "wtf!" cause if they cleared earlier than I wouldn't have over drafted. But I did have enough left to get food and I bought only off brand except for soap and pepsi.

And it gets worse. I go out to buy a new wind sheild wiper and i broke the new one because it didn't fit but by God I would make it. And I took it back and they wouldn't give me my money back. So I had to buy another one, but its an inch too big and looks horrible but works for now and i don't want to go back to the store again.

Why can't things just be normal for a day or two?

Cause God has a sense of humor

Allen - check with your doctors office for the needy meds program, the drug companies will supply drugs free to people who qualify according to their income level, sometimes you have to pay a portion, but is usually less than a pharmacy, some people pay $15 for 3 months worth, or what about the $4 Wal-Mart thing, do any of your meds qualify for that deal? I think they are all probably generic drugs, but worth checking into. You have to apply through your doctors office for the needy meds program though, call and find out, it goes according to your income, sure is worth a phone call. Call your bank and explain the situation and they may write off some of the overdraft fees, they won't do it often or frequently, but on occasion they will credit the money back to your account if you explain your situation. They have done it for me, I would call and explain the situation and ask them. Doesn't hurt to ask and you may get some money back. Worth a couple of calls anyway.

Karen - the art project looks great - so awesome that you are doing what you love and you are so good at it. I am so glad that you are discovering happiness in your life. Funny how it sneaks up on you when you least expect it, huh? Enjoy it, embellish it, and keep on with the art, it is great.

Jax - great work, I haven't lost anything, actually thought I had gained, but have stayed the same for the last couple of months, avoided the scale because I was afraid of it. I always eat when I am stressed and have been so stressed and whacked out lately, I was blown away that I hadn't gained.

Iconic - good attitude, sounds like you are doing well.

Roy - good attitude too, I vote with Karen, eat the pie not the cake. It is hard when people don't come to work and you get dumped on. Spend all that time training people and then they go somewhere else, wish it would level out and you would get to reap some of your rewards of all the time spent training the aides. Good luck with "frisbee dog."

Amber - hope things are going well with your mom and stepmom.

My aunt is doing okay, moved in with her stepson and daughter-in-law and is going to sell her house. I was talking to my cousin last night and she told me my aunt asked her to "take charge of my dad" - I felt like "?? what??" I am in financial ruin, have no life, and wait on him hand and foot and come running every time he snaps his fingers, miss hours of work for his doctors appointments, care conferences, etc., what does she think I am doing?? Oh well, I don't know what he has told her either, I have supported him since 2003 and my mom (who died in 2006), blew all my retirement on them (real smart, I know) haven't had a vacation since way before then, etc. Oh well, I didn't say anything, did tell my cousin I take him his fish and chips every Friday night and out to breakfast every Saturday and Sunday (costs me about $200 a month), and talk to him during the week, buy him whatever he needs, pay his cell phone and other bills, watch his checking account and put money in when he runs low, but oh well, guess my aunt thinks my cousin needs to "take charge of him."

I work two jobs and go to school. It is not easy but I have to do it. Very stressful but you got to do what you got to do.

hey y'all....haven't been in a while (again)......been rough here and had a bad night..........deadbeat stepdad sent me a chilling email that proved i was right about him all along........he's whining because my mom won't give him none..........he didn't like the email i sent back either.......told him if he went looking elsewhere he would lose my mom cuz i'd make damn sure she was out of that home she's in and try to get her to divorce him.