Mistakes. History seems to repeat itself for me. Just as soon as I make some mistakes the Deja Vu dawns on me.

Deaths and my kids! straight up.

My ex

Drugs, alcohol, and rock and roll. Probably more the narcotics though.

Drugs, alchohol, cigarrettes, manual labor, pollution.

Smokes.......working nights.

Keeping my customers satisfied

Hmmmm....probably smoking! Although I am thankful for my Mom's genes...otherwise I'd look "HURT"!!!

The cocaine before the Motley Crue - KISS show probably didn't help.
The Mochacinoes since, were just a substitute.

Working for over half of my life (I'm really not that old to have been working for almost 15 years already)

the big one .... TIME ....

driving in Toronto and the 401 in winter.

my ex's though some helped get me healthier with good food and proper sleep.

prior to the ex ... late nights in bars smoking and drinking.

not sure how this dumb site double posts me but it did ... and doesn't let you delete it.




the internet ... is probably aging me

Just answering this will age me ...

The same things that aged, gave wisdom ... ... How bitterly paradoxical!

The single most aging event was my mother suddenly dying in my arms when I was but 11, w/ her 11 month son at my feet ...

It is a day that ripped the fabric of my innocence and can never heal, an inner scream unending ...

... Esp. as I was immediately banished to my Father's home that seethed w/ hatred and dysfunction ...

Other things?

GREAT Loss (esp. that of my entire family, young ... At least I've intense supernatural contact and protection)

Betrayal

Hatred

Abandonment

Working by age 12, Living on my own by age 15

Kidnap/Rape/Assault

Leaving/Losing Europe

Violence

Traumatic, Crippling Injuries

Heartbreak

My Daughter's Abandonment

Single Parenting (esp w/out any family)

Theft

Being Stalked

Putting Someone in Prison

Isolation

War, Murder, Torture and Poverty

The Division of People and the World

EVIL

Time does not heal, it gives distance, wisdom, insight, perspective, radar and callouses born of killing pain!

Any person that counsels otherwise, lies to make themselves feel better ...

Now, you know why I so love to laugh and am drawn to all that is light, loving, good and goofy ...

Life IS beautiful - and precious, still ...

This is likely the most revealingly honest I've ever been here ... Yet I ... *Post Reply*

time

And, yet???

I still very much "feel" as if a youg girl w/ an incredibly open heart ...


... ... Grace, how bizarre!!!


All good and perfect things really do come from above ... Must be ...

My husband passed away recently from pancreatic cancer...We were married for over 24 years so it's been a rough time for me...My son passed away a few years ago at 37....It's all taken a toll on me but I try to find joy in life anyway....I don't want to shrivel up and die myself...

Death of family members certainly takes a toll.

Problem children-particularly while they are still at home.

Dishonest people who think nothing of taking your financial security away from you-ie. conartists.

Worry about jobs, health, money and whatever difficulties come your way.

I try to look at the positive in any situation. It helps with all the above and makes life a little easier.

" ... added years onto your life ... " Qué? There's stuff that can DO that ... ?

I haven't had time to worry about things like this 'cuz I've been too busy enjoying life while I'm on the right side of the dirt - and yeah, that includes the 'bad times'. In the long run, we play the cards we're dealt or we fold ... there's no in-between, and the only other option is leaving the game.

Anxiety

Radiation sure will

[too much time in the sun fits into that category]