Torrid Flames

The black veil couldn’t hide my fire breathing heart
When you pressed your words against my soul
I nearly burst from the caress of your voice
The mere sound of torrid warmth
Leaving me breathless in the hands of my desires
I long to run my fingertips along the curves of your body
And unlock the secret of the form of my true love
Let us stir the sunrise with the flames of our passion
Let us drink heaven like the nectar of our love
Let us not be daunted by the approaching of loves first light
Let us make this hour happen engulfed in white hot heat
With the tasting of each others flesh and moans
Your breathe is mine and mine is yours
We are no longer alone
Let there be no figments of imagining here in this hour
Let the shining of our love kissed skin gleam with delight
May we never lose our fervor or forsake the calling of true love
Let the dollop of your lips nourish my need forever more
Let me hold you here in my most intimate embrace
Let me scream your name without an ounce of shame
Pull me to you closer and closer still until we meld as one
Like two dragon flames come together to blaze all souls
Drown with me my love in ecstasies true hold
Make your move my love and let this amour be bold.

oh my goodness, what a fun write, you are a tease, just like me, giggles. You should see one of my poems from my book, "A Naked Dream Exposed" Will try getting that one published soon giggles

I am a sckitzphrenic and I am bipolar. I Had a very hard time dealing with religion and my mental illness for a very long time. Than one day when I was admitted into the sunrise mental health unit, I asked the doctor if I could speak to my priest. He agreed, when the preist came to visit me, I let him know, I need to stop all beleif and pursuit of religion or any form of religous idealisms for a long time, so I can work on my mental health because religion is causing me to hallucinate and think things I know aren't real but that are causing me alot of mental stress and breakdown.
He told me, I had to step away from God and take care of my health first, and once I had achieved that, than I could return to my father God. But he saw it the way I did, a mental illness is the same as a broken arm, it takes time to heal, and you will have aches and pains from it occasionally.
so you know, it took me 9 years to get my act together so I could step into a church with confidence knowing I took care of my mental health before returning with reason and accountablity, and with knowledge behind me to back me up.
The more you know about your illness the better you will be prepared to face what may come and the better you will know how to reason out a manic episode or a depressive low or if you are hallucinating, you will need to get your medications in order so that your symptoms are lessened so that you are more functional in daily life than you were before you took your meds. Sometimes meds take 5 to 6 weeks to work right, or even a few months. Also keep an eye on the side effects from meds.
And speaking as a christian, we are God's children, there for we have a little bit of God's spirit inside of each of us and God is greater than evil and therefore he gave us that understanding as well, and no one and nothing has the right to take God's blessins away from his children. Therefore, you need to take care of yourself and let God do his business and you do what he wants you to do, each of us to do, which is to do the right thing by taking care of our bodies and minds.

thanks sweety, you are appreciated. hugs

It was a cold night in January, 2008 and David knocked on my door around midnight. He seemed anxious and a bit in a hurry.

"What are you doing here so late, you woke me and my dad up?"

"Deanna, I'm so sorry, and Miguel I am so sorry, I know I scared you, I only have a moment, it won't take long anyhow. I was wondering Deanna, if you still had that jacket of mine, you know, the black leather trench coat my uncle Robert gave me?"

"Oh yeah, I'm sorry, you must be freezing out there without a coat to wear. You left in such a hurry the last time you were here I just put your coat in the closet. Here, let me get it, you can come in you know, I don't bite."

A strange look came upon his face, his eyes dimmed for a moment, and he seemed somehow sad. I asked, "What's wrong David?"

"Nothing, I'm just in a hurry...that's all. The jacket, please."

I looked around as if I could find the source of his unrest in my living room and suddenly noticed our shrine of Mary that my father built recently. David had never been one to conform to any one belief or religion and I know that religion in general was a harsh topic for him having been disallusioned by exploring too many belief systems on his own.

"OK, I'll get your coat."

I opened the closet and there was his coat, soft as a lambskin and butter right in front of all the others. I touched it, I couldn't help but do so, it was so supple and inviting.

In truth I had worn it a few times since he left it here. I wasn't yet sure if that spoke of my like for him or the coat itself. Somehow, I felt safe when I wore it, and confident like I could take on the world. I knew the coat wasn't magic or anything, blessed, well, that was something I wasn't sure about yet, I wanted to tell David a story about this coat, a very special one about a hidden pocket I discovered in the layer right on the left above the heart.

"David, I have something to tell you."

"Yeah, is my coat ok, did you lose it? Ah man don't tell me you..."

"NO no, I have it right here, it's ok, I wouldn't lose your coat David, your my freind, like a brother to me. You know I take care of your things and don't let them get ruined."

"Yeah, I know, sorry, I have been going nuts trying to figure out where I left it and then it dawned on me I left it here that...night."

"David, please come in now, I need to talk to you, just for a little while, it won't take long ok. Please, we can talk in my office, and I can show you my new painting I got from Olivia."

"Olivia is painting again? That's great."

"Yeah, well, its because of your coat."

"What do you mean, its because of my coat?"

"I'll explain, come with me."

He stepped into the door gingerly like as if stepping on a boobytrap. I felt for him having been where he was now and I was even more certain I had to tell him about his uncles coat now and not after he takes it back.

He sat on army green office chair and I sat on my black cushioned one. I knew I had to make it quick because the green chair was not at all comfortable and so I began with, "Do you want anything to drink, coffee, hot cocoa, anything?"

"No, I'm fine, can we just..."

"Yeah, yeah, ok, Well, David, you left your coat here for three weeks now, and I could not get a hold of you for that three weeks. That night when we were all watching a movie, you got a phonecall. I remember, you looked shocked, and angry and so hurt, all at once, and I didn't know what to do. You left so quickly, you made us all worried about you. I am sure whatever reason you left is your own business, but I have to say David, when I saw you leave, I feared something bad would happen to you. So I prayed that night for you, that whatever you were going through you could get through it in one peice and ok."

"Well thank you, I appreciate that, but what does this have to do with my coat and why Olivia is painting again?"

I smiled, my heart began to fill with a warmth and my eyes began to tear.

"Are you ok? I didn't mean to make you cry, you were that worried about me?"

"yeah, b-but it's not just that, um, David, you remember how your uncle Robert's will dissappeared after the funeral?"

"Yeah."

"Well, I was wearing your coat one day, its a nice coat, and I only wore it to a meeting for my wellness group. You know the one on Mondays. Well, I got it caught on the chair I was sitting in when I was leaving and I thought I had torn it on the inside, well, when I looked in a panic, I discovered a secret pocket in your uncles coat."

He took the coat and said, "Show me."

I took the coat from him, and opened it up, within the pocket I took a business card out and handed it to David.

He read it, and looked at me, and than read it again, looked in back of it, and than said, "What the hell is this, some kind of joke?"

"No David, its no joke, believe me, there is nothing funny about this, and you should take it seriously, as seriously as I did, and Olivia. She has been commissioned to paint the pieces for the entire building of Montoya Inc. We went there when I found the card to be sure it was a real buliding. Your uncle gave you his business, that is your business card, with your name on it. David, he loved you very much. There is a number on the card, call it, your uncles lawyer wants to speak to you as soon as possible."

He sat in shock, he couldn't move, couldn't breathe, and I sat and smiled and thanked God with my heart.

Than a tear slid down his face and I said, "Oh David, I am so happy for you."

He rose from his chair in a rush and hugged me saying, "Thank you, thank you, thank you."

"No problem sweetypie. I just thank God you came back for your coat. It has blessed us all. Your uncle was a good man, and a kind man. He was a gracious christian and a giving human being. He helped me see things in a better light many times sweety and even though you don't want to believe it I am sure, even you helped me see things in a new and better light many times, by being my friend."

"Thank you Deanna, I don't know what to say now." 'sniff, sniff ' hahaha" You have no idea how much this, how much this means, to me, WOOW!!! Oh my gosh, I can't believe this, this is the, the best thing that has, Ever happened to me."

"That night, the phone call, that was my landlord, I was being evicted. I lost everything Deanna. Because of some mistake and switch up with my name and some other guy who was a criminal. I have been put in jail, I have been hounded by the police and my lawyer didn't have a clue half the time...and, I got out of jail today. They caught the guy... I didn' t have anywhere else to go, all I kept thinking about, was my uncles coat, and I just kept walking, and before I knew it, I was at your door. If there is anything I can do for you, please let me know, please, anything at all."

"Pray for me, that's all I ask, just pray for me sweety."

"Why, is something wrong, are you ok?"

"I'm fine sweety, but I don't only want you to pray for me, but the people I am going to help, because your company, supports volunteer work overseas, I leave tomorrow."

"Oh my gosh, oh man, I had no idea, oh Deanna, girl, damn I'm gonna miss you. If there is anything I can do to help pay anything or, I'll call this lawyer tonight ok, and oh my gosh, wow, wow. you are amazing."

"Here, use my cellphone." My dad said coming up behind him.

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Update,

"Dear David

The school here going strong. I have 100 students, whom I teach in differant age groups all week long. Your prayers are not going unanswered my freind. The food has been coming regularly. We have fresh water now thanks to the new volunteers you sent our way. The medicine has helped a great deal and I have seen more smiles today than I have seen in months as I announced a new playground to be built nearby. Oh and David, I love you too. I look forward to your visit in two weeks.

With love,

Your Deanna.






written by Veronica Garcia on January 15, 2009

Well, I hope you find her soon, as I know nothing of destiny or otherwise, I will have to say, I don't know you, but I like you all ready. Wherever she is, I hope you find her when the time is right. Smiles

Wow! that's awesome! So beautiful too. Welcome to this forum, have you been here before?

Thank you very much, that made my night so much better. Superhugs hope your night is awesome.

I THINK I AM Talking to one now

I also look myself in the mirror from time to time and say this "I now release and am released from everything and everybody that are no longer part of the divine plan for my life. Everything and everybody that are no longer part of the divine plan for my life now release me."

Or I say this,"I am surrounded by the Divine substance and this Divine substance now manifests for me in rich appropriate form."

Is giving your number the first time you meet someone on here a bad thing or good thing? and should you call? Would you?

I sure do get tired of lying to myself, I have to be honest sometimes and look myself in the mirror and say, Hi, oh there you are, I thought you was out for the day..........ok so I'm wierd, hahahahaha

Someone call animal control, or maybe not, seems like there is some animal attraction between you two, giggles

Love is like cheese, the older it gets, ummm, I have no idea where I was going with this, hahahaha

all the above, and I'll have to double check on the F' ups k, before I can endorse it, however, f'in up is definatly not cool, like cheating, cheating, so not good.

I agree. Yup Yup!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I find I have to pull back sometimes or I do become overly affectionate towards my freinds or someone I love. And yes, timing has alot to do with it, it can be too soon to be too affectionate especially if someone is turned off by it or is taken aback. Reminds me of that movie, How to lose a guy in 10 days. LOL

To be an artist means never to avert your eyes-Akira Kurosawa
There is no theory. You have merely to listen.-Cluade Debussy

Oh yeah, I so agree, this is my favorite one, allthough I have to say, everything in this post is absolutly wonderful. Great idea Artgurl