Where do i go..
From here, having lost so much
Where do i go..
From here, having my heart and soul crushed
Where do i go..
From here, i came from a land of death and fear
Where do i go..
From here, when all that i see is unsettling and unclear
Where do i go..
From here, Cause im lost in a hellish heaven of smiles and tears

Even though i dont know
Why, i lost the parents i loved
Even though i dont know
Why, i lost my family and there hugs
Even though i dont know
Why, my mom gave her life away to drugs
Even though i dont know
Why, people were abusive just because
Even though i dont know
Why, i could say that so many more times

Id rather be in that other place on the other side
If i die, theres not much left i havent left behind
Id rather be in that other place on the other side
If i die, sooner then later id probably be greatful
Id rather be in that other place on the other side
In heaven, where angels always roam the sky
Id rather be in that other place on the other side
In heaven, where love is always easiest to find

Since im not ...and because im still here
Ive lived through to much to be conquered by fear
Since im not ...and because im still here
Im looking fear in the eyes making it dissapear
Since im not ... and because im still here
Ive got miles to walk until the steps i took
Fade away without a trace or a second hand look
Ive got miles to walk until the steps i took
Are replaced and repeated in our lifes endless book

Im waiting for the day when my reflection reflects no pain. No more discomfort and loathing of who I am and what I've been through. To show me the simple loving man i can be.

I love it. But for me its way too true. :-D

You got me thinking :-) nice poem

I pity the likes of these foolish men unable to think beyond their own thought :-)

Life is here now and gone then
before the end while were friends
Let us be reminded again
As love bleeds out of my pen! Lol

:-)

:-)

I might think i can write but my experience knows little words to make its appearance... grand !

Here i go again as my paper meets with pen.

My ocean of sadness

Im alone in my own home Is my past looking at me With a long bitter sweet tap... Wakening me with a snap... Time and time goes by and by With all my heart I try try... To forget where I came from Is a place filled with only pain Pain is all I've ever known My heart is broken in two Longing to be fixed again Again and again and again... In my ocean of sadness I find myself casting away Never to be found or saved Saying goodbye sweet sun ray's Im lost is all I can say Floating along as I pray God show me the light of day Navigating my own way I can hear the water's tear's Trapped in a nightmare of fear I can hear the water's dreams Shouting with terrible screams I've cried and cried my tears dry My soul begins to shatter As I begin to shiver Asking myself why why why... I dont know where im going Dont know what im becoming I pray for a new beginning...

Here i go again as my paper meets with pen.

My ocean of sadness

Im alone in my own home Is my past looking at me With a long bitter sweet tap... Wakening me with a snap... Time and time goes by and by With all my heart I try try... To forget where I came from Is a place filled with only pain Pain is all I've ever known My heart is broken in two Longing to be fixed again Again and again and again... In my ocean of sadness I find myself casting away Never to be found or saved Saying goodbye sweet sun ray's Im lost is all I can say Floating along as I pray God show me the light of day Navigating my own way I can hear the water's tear's Trapped in a nightmare of fear I can hear the water's dreams Shouting with terrible screams I've cried and cried my tears dry My soul begins to shatter As I begin to shiver Asking myself why why why... I dont know where im going Dont know what im becoming I pray for a new beginning...

Interesting if not else and who is the subject sounds like its name is Mr. Prick lol :-)

To see through my mind
Would cause you to brake
These devilish eye's
No human mistakes
To know what I know
Is only heart ache
To feel what I feel
Crucified on stake
To see through my mind
would cause you to faint
To go through my hell
You would bleed for help
There is no escape
In this hellish mind
There is no angel
God that can save you
To go where I go
Is no turning back
Cast out from the light
And into the black
To live where I live
Is sickened by death
Creeping around you
Staggering your breath
To eat what I kill
Would give you a chill
Would you like a taste
Of my human flesh
To see through my mind
You will never rest

Happy new year :-) as i sip.. from my cup...
Soda!! Not alcohol lol

I finished my post before i was done i canceled it LOL! Happy new year to everyone. Even if you are at home not having so much fun. Not at a party or with family because life didnt allow it. Or maybe im just the only one lol !
Here is my resolution feel free to post yours :-)

This year
Im throwing away all my fear!
I stand even taller in front of the mirror
This year
Im having a change of heart
Ill find apathy in replace of thing's I hate
This year
Im throwing away all my fear!
Along with these habbits and cans of beer
This year
Ill find new peace of mind
Not over looking regrets in question of why
This year
Im throwing away all my fear!
Into the ocean of sadness created by tears
This year
I love without expecting a receipt
I'll share my heart as it was meant to be
This year
Im throwing away all my fear!

Everybody in the world, every country. To all those locked up, to my brother in jail, To all the slaves suffering under the whip. To all the kids raised in war knowing only there gun and knife. To my cracked out mother knowing only her next fix, To our deceased love ones. To the pain and disease we self inflict. Cheers ! To better times and better years.

I cant describe or put words into this, because im lost in thought. To many things come to mind. Excellent

Here is my version of my Haiku i hope all of you like it

My heart is broken
But my mind is strong spoken
This woman i love
I give her all of my love
Maybe im too late
Maybe she thinks im too young
Time can only tell
Can she save me from this hell
Time goes by and by
Playing games with me my mind
As I continue
Longing for loves sweetest touch
I try and I try
Too see past these clouds that cry
Shower me in rain
God please don't drench me in vein
Driving me insane
I look out into the blue
Ocean of my blood
Shimmering under the moon
Iv'e seen better night's
And here I feel im at home
Beautiful star sky
Reflecting my own demise
Clear my vague vision
Captain of my own ghost ship
I reach out to her
Silent cold noise in return
Sail the seven seas
Never again seeing eye's
To a land unkown
Broken compass lead the way
To a land i know
Seeking light dawn's a new day

Very inspiring. :-)

Written so well. Very nice poem

Your still standing tall in the face of watching your heart fall
Thats what makes you a woman :-)

The strength in this message compels me to keep looking forward. No matter which way i turn into the forks of my road. :-)

I can relate to this. In my writing, the one where i wrote, I was adopted by an evil man, with evil hands. I would rather not see him again unless im standing over his grave looking down at his bones beneath the dirt. And if i was standing there, i would have no emotion upon my face. Not even a smile or a smidge of hate. Because i am an angel of god and i can forgive.