I Dont comprehend that last line of yours. I don't know what to think.

Its 9 am and i havent slept. its christmas day, and yet i feel like its Halloween


When i die and im gone will all of you miss me
Will you spend days or even year's thinking about it
In heaven you find no sorrow or pain
No sadness or regret of any kind
If this is true then i won't have to care
At the end of my road i won't need to prepare
This life will go by and ill be reborn again
It will be like time never stopping and nothing existed
This mind of mine seems dark and twisted
Curiously sickened and seriously wicked
Immorally vivid intrinsically synic
Impartially wretched dispicably demented
Deranged and insane not entirely asanine this mind of mine

Let me
know what you think.

My life ..

To see through my mind Would cause you to brake These devilish eye's No human mistakes To know what I know Is only heart ache To feel what I feel Crucified on stake Tortured beyond rape Burning beyond rage To eat what I kill No human can take To bleed what I bleed Will cause you to die To kill or be killed Is that who you are My heaven is gone, as i watched it go by. My father and mother now angels in the sky. I never knew them as much as i should. I never loved them as much as I could. My brothers and sister all split apart. Was a fiery dagger, stabbing into my heart. I was to young to know i was growing up in hell. I couldnt predict i was already in a jail cell. I lived on, and lived on and what else could i do. I looked up to the sky with nothing loose. I was adopted by an evil man. A child molestor with evil hands. Ive cried and ive cried until my tears ran dry. I grew hate in my soul and hate in my eye's. I smoked and i drank the minutes away. I lost my smile along the way. Nothing helped until i ran away. I looked up to god for help as i prayed. Years went by, and years went by, some how, some how i found my own way.

know what you think.

Emotionless

To see through my mind Would cause you to brake These devilish eye's No human mistakes To know what I know Is only heart ache To feel what I feel Crucified on stake Tortured beyond rape Burning beyond rage To eat what I kill No human can take To bleed what I bleed Will cause you to die To kill or be killed Is that who you are My heaven is gone, as i watched it go by. My father and mother now angels in the sky. I never knew them as much as i should. I never loved them as much as I could. My brothers and sister all split apart. Was a fiery dagger, stabbing into my heart. I was to young to know i was growing up in hell. I couldnt predict i was already in a jail cell. I lived on, and lived on and what else could i do. I looked up to the sky with nothing loose. I was adopted by an evil man. A child molestor with evil hands. Ive cried and ive cried until my tears ran dry. I grew hate in my soul and hate in my eye's. I smoked and i drank the minutes away. I lost my smile along the way. Nothing helped until i ran away. I looked up to god for help as i prayed. Years went by, and years went by, some how, some how i found my own way.

Thanks. Ive been artistic my whole life, i can draw as equally well.

This one didn't take long for me to write. Its a scary feeling knowing what kind of darkness clings on to yourself.

Emotionless

To see through my mind
Would cause you to brake
These devilish eye's
No human mistakes
To know what I know
Is only heart ache
To feel what I feel
Crucified on stake
Tortured beyond rape
Burning beyond rage
To eat what I kill
No human can take
To bleed what I bleed
Will cause you to die
To kill or be killed
Is that who you are

Let me know what you think.

Emotionless

To see through my mind
Would cause you to brake
These devilish eye's
No human mistakes
To know what I know
Is only heart ache
To feel what I feel
Crucified on stake
Tortured beyond rape
Burning beyond rage
To eat what I kill
No human can take
To bleed what I bleed
Will cause you to die
To kill or be killed
Is that who you are

Although my life could be much worse, its been bad enough. Im not starving or homeless, but ive never had parents. I was raised without my family most of my life, and then i was adopted by a man i hated. When you draw from words from your past. I have enough pain to think back on.. Imagery is all i think about.

I don't mind at all it would be an honor to be mode recognized. And again im happy to hear those kind words.

Thank you. Your words are kind. I dropped out of HS, no college. But i read a lot and i guess im self taught. I recently started writing because of a woman i know. Other wise its been years and years since my last poem.

Little Warrior

Im an amateur entering this new found game
But ive been all around the map i know my way
What hellish beast coming forth do i now slay
What hideous devil dare taunts me to play
As small as i am to think me a fool
We'll see who falls last beside your own pool
To fight this last fight I'll ever know
Prepare war when i give you your last show
I walk with fire and flame in my soul
To the very end When I pay my own toll

I have a few of my own under my name new members. check em out.
I havent titled my other poems this is my first.

Little Warrior

Im an amateur entering this new found game
But ive been all around the map i know my way
What hellish beast coming forth do i now slay
What hideous devil dare taunts me to play
As small as i am to think me a fool
We'll see who falls last beside your own pool
To fight this last fight I'll ever know
Prepare war when i give you your last show
I walk with fire and flame in my soul
To the very end When I pay my own toll

Same poem i added line twice. And this cheap website prohibits my bad word lol oh well.

Im just gonna use this post, to post what i write cause most of the time. Im not in the mood to talk about anything else, unless someone asks me. And this is how i feel right now. Maybe somebody will find it interesting.

-If im looking forward to that other side
-Why do I still miss being in this life of mine
-I have my eye's focused on a more beautiful horizon
-And yet my spirit is pointing at me like I committed a treason
-How can I stop dreaming about reaching what is beyond my grasp
-When im confined in my own cell
-And it's quite odd that I manifested this very hell
-So now that I know im living waist deep in deadly water
-Where the *** do I find this never appearing shore lineline

I love music. Lil wayne inspired me on that last poem.

I got Blood in my eye's, Blood in my hands
Blood in my heart, I bleed blood when I cry
I was raised in blood, When I first came out
Now it's time I return, To that place I came out
I got hate in my veins, All that remains
My night always is dark, It's driving me insane
I got blood in the sand, Beneath my feet
I walk on razor blades ... cutting to deep
I try to tell myself... To just let it go
Homie in my town ... When it rains it snows
My night's only get darker, My life only gets harder
I never had a life ... With my Mother or Father
Im so fukin tired ... Of being a fukin martyr
But just hold on for a minute let me explain

I got ice in my veins, Blood in my eye's
Hate in my heart, Love in my mind
I seen night's full of pain, Days of the same
You keep the sunshine, Save me the rain

Poetry is such a fragile thing. You can learn more in fewer words then a full book filled with hogwash.

To every women who has a heart worth waiting for
Dont let any selfish man take it for granted.

-If I ever find that special woman like her
-No romantic phrases or term, could I express through word
-But if i had to try i think i would say
-It's like iv'e been waiting my whole life for this day
-If I ever find that one and I break her heart
-Devil descend unto me and make me depart
-I'll bleed beyond dry, for that dream in my sky
-To be with you again I'll go beyond death when i die
-If I go through this life alone and through hell
-Let me come back for that girl casting love's spell

Poetry is such a fragile thing. You can learn more in fewer words then a full book filled with hogwash.

To every women who has a heart worth waiting for
Dont let any selfish man take it for granted.

-If I ever find that special woman like her
-No romantic phrases or term, could I express through word
-But if i had to try i think i would say
-It's like iv'e been waiting my whole life for this day
-If I ever find that one and I break her heart
-Devil descend unto me and make me depart
-I'll bleed beyond dry, for that dream in my sky
-To be with you again I'll go beyond death when i die
-If I go through this life alone and through hell
-Let me come back for that girl casting love's spell

Lately iv'e been gliding along this ride called life.

-When you stop and pause to think about your life
-Do you find what you expect are you weighed down by regret
-When tommorow is near and on that final day
-The last day i will ever know God accept my prayer i pray
-I feel like today is my last and tommorow is lost
-I look forward to the storm stinging with frost
-Who i am and what iv'e become
-Is not a man a father be proud to call Son
-There's been times i thought about picking up that loaded Gun
-So what can i learn having no teacher
-Where do i return looking up at my preacher
-Before this all ends dont pretend im your inferior creature

Hi :-)