oops did not mean to make you read it twice ha

i live a pretty depressed life i am all alone in facing my depression.
it is one thing after another

your not alone. JSH is here and believe me there are enough people here
to boost your day! any time you need to talk im old hat about
depression, ilive it

If any of you need someone to talk to I'm here as well...
I've been there and currently doing my best to get out of it (so far so
good)...it helps alot when you have someone to see you through ...
hugs and warm wishes to you all

"A true companion is loving all the time, and is a brother that is born
for when there is distress." Prov. 17:17

I can't be on here during the day but would like to talk to anyone who
wants to at nighttime, I am on every night, pacific time. I have
battled depression most of my life and have a fair amount of experience
and would like to talk to you and share wtih you if you like. I would
be happy to talk to you if you want to mail me.

you know its almost an embarrassing thing, depression that is, at least
from my stand point. Now at least with what I had experienced, it
eventually subsided, I mean we all get down from time to time but I had
a period of several years where morbid thoughts of self demise filled
the majority of my thoughts. Had this never ending longing. And it all
boiled down to a change of scenery, some meditation, some self
discovery, gaining more independence and self esteem, before I could
begin to completely recover. Now I won't go as far to say that this is
enough for everyone but if your depressed, enough, anything is worth a
try to end the rout, cause as we all know, you keep up a behavior/state
of mind long enough, you may never have the strength or perseverance to
over come it.

their is alot of people out there that cannot just change their minds
and be well. I'm happy it works for someone but, if I didnt have my meds
I probably be dead from those morbid thoughts, I was very creative with
my thoughts and doings.

There are lots of different types and degrees of depression, some of it
is situational, you lose a loved one, that type you do get over after
time. But other types you don't, is not that easy, diagnoses like
bipolar are lifelong and people battle with them forever. Meds do help,
but is an ongoing battle and even to find the right med or combination
of meds. Counseling can help, support from friends and family helps
too. Isolation is the worst, that is when it will beat you down. Keep
talking to people and reaching out. Talk to your doctor if it feels
like it is getting the best of you, otherwise remember you always have
your friends on here, and we care about you.

I was there too ,it is no joke,it can make you week ,and can cause
pain,if you experience depression seek help.

I was going to e-mail 1 or 2 of you but there were so many names.I to
have been depressed all my life.On so many med at atime,so many
doctors,in the hospital.I felt suicidal almost everyday,I always told
them,I would never do it because of my kids(I thought)but about 5yrs ago
I tried.I'm so thankful I did'nt die.They gave me ECT treatments
(electric shock therapy)I 50yrs old and that's been the only thing that
snapped me out of it all these years,I still have good and bad
things,mood swings all that comes with it.But I'm down to 1 med now
verses 6 or 7 and getting out of bed in the morning,which is a miracle
itself and finally enjoying life.If anyone wants to talk,I'm here,but
please don't give up,you are precious and life is worth living. Pam

My younger brother came over, today. Brought a piece of sheetrock that
was 4 by 8. Asked if I had a razor knife. Couldn't find one. He brought
another old man with him. The sheetrock screws he brought were too
short. While the older man was here I could concentrate on cleaning
house. Got a lot done. I kkep the computer and television out of the
bedroom so I don't isolate in there. One friend I used to talk to ims
gave me some good advice about having the radio on. I just turned in on
because I just remembered that. Lots of pillows on the bed and changing
the sheets. Bought some new sheets that match. Keeping the windows open
and got lighter curtains that let the sunlight in. Make myself go
outside even if it is for a walk or to get the dogs some food. Started
waving at people, again even if they don't wave back. Try to keep a
smile at work. Daily, I free myself from the prison that I once made for
myself. Started buying old movies. Take it one day at a time.

hey kids, i disappeared for a while. busy busy. i had an appointment
with my shrink last month, and, unless something crazy happens, i get to
start tapering off my meds in october!

That is great news, Morebass. As an addict I know how drugs in any form
can have an affect how a person can view things. When I got the script
for the Tylenol with codiene I just took enough to counteract the pain.
When the pain stopped I quit taking them. My dentist told me to take the
penicillin till it was gone. The swelling in the left side of my face
has went completely down now. It is cool that I can take medicine now
without it kicking in my addiction. I had quit a job that the resin and
catalyst was affecting my addiction. I know that non-addicts have to
worry about the side effects and the way medicines can have a way of
interacting. I was talking to a lady last night about how this one drug
could alleviate stomach pain but had to weigh it against all the side
effects that seemed worse than the actual benefits of the drug. 23 years
after being off mind controlling chemicals and I still get flashbacks.
Of course I was a paint stripper huffer and the effects went straight to
the brain. I think people who are coping with depression are living
miracles and I like this little support group even though I realize that
there are different types of depression and different effects.

In my case I have never been to a doctor or have I been diagnosed as
being depressed/bipolar. However, throughout my teenage years, into my
twenties, thirties and early 40's, I would go through very high and very
low times. The depression lasted longer than feeling happy. Throughout
that part of my life, I considered suicide even to the point of planning
it out but never carrying it through several times over. My conscious
overrode my mind at those points and I would shake in fear to go through
with it. However, about 4 years ago, it all reversed. I try to analyze
it but can only find a few reasons things changed around for me. I did
go through a devasting divorce 7 years ago and while I was in the
country of Qatar, a doctor prescribed prozac. I had to quit taking it
because it made all my stresses/problems disappear. Deep down, I know I
had to deal with them so I quit taking the medication. For myself, I
did use faith to help me heal and I still do. But all the previous
thoughts I had of suicide has since vanished. I am thankful for each day
I awake. Now, most days are positive and happy. Very seldom do I have a
depressing day or period of time. When I do, it isn't as a deep
depression as I felt years ago that haunted me daily. However, tonight,
I am slightly depressed and at those times, I do feel like sharing. I'm
sure this won't help anyone but it does help me by getting it out in the
open. Anyway, the only thing I can think that happened was I began
having a positive outlook on life even if something negative happened to
me, I would find the positive from it. Whether that was it or I simply
out grew it, I don't know but I look forward to growing older each day.
Thanks for listening....

Thanks for sharing, Yelm. Its been seven years since my divorce but
sometimes it seems like it was only yesterday when memories come back
and I relive them through forum posts. The ex was on prozac during the
final years of the marriage. It was so weird because she didn't get
happy or mad. She was just kind of like a zombie whe she took it. But
when she didn't have she would go through withdrawals from it. Last
night while working with my bipolar nurse you could tell that she must
of had a bad day. This morning was strange because when the dayshift
came in they were all in good moods. I think they must of all got laid
or something. They are married or have boyfriends where I work. Damn the
luck. About the time you get to know someone they leave but then some
come back. Working my ass off at work seems to help in my depression but
then I come home. Last night really wasn't too bad though.

Had a good meeting. A 13 year old boy had to come the meeting. He is a
huffer and had to come to get his paper signed for the court. It is so
cool to work on them when they are young to plant the seed of recovery.
Would be wonderful if he didn't have to find out the hard way like so
many do. He thought the meetings were boring but perked up when we
mentioned the canoe trip we had last week. I told him there are all
kinds of fun stuff to do without destroying brain cells. Hopefully he
will get a chance to come back and learn what is like to stick with the
winners.

u cannot fight depression alone
meds and talk therapy

music can change your mood also

people need people and hope

when am depressed i write poems it helps me to put down on papper what
am feeling,maybe someone will read my poems ,and make them feel better