Well, Momma took it well, she said it explained a lot of things.....she's trying to get in touch with her oldest sister to see if Margie (my aunt) can let Mom stay with her until I get a place for the two of us.

Welcome to JSH and this thread.

I am glad you managed to get through that, Amber.

me too roy

Hope you all are doing well. I am still tired, this surgery really kicked me to the curb but I am slowly starting to get my energy back, just amazed at how slow it is. Having some minor problems with my stomach and food intolerances, so need to learn what is safe and what is not yet.

You all have a great day and take care.

I am glad you made it through the surgery, Marie. Hope this day is good for you. I would say you are still feeling a bit rough but good to see you are trying to have a good attitude. Just getting off a 14 hour shift. Got an inservice today and have to get back up at noon. I did it to myself or as my ex used to say I did it to myself. It used to be easier when I had someone besides myself to blame it on. Was just lucky it was an easy night. The new male aide is better at doing this stuff than I am. But heck he is a few years younger. We got this new resident that is guilt tripping everyone there. Can't nobody do anything right according to her. I am really having to bite my tongue with her. I think she is finding what a real smart ass I really am. This morning she told me that I didn't know anything. I told I used to know a lot before I came here. Yesterday, She told me that she didn't want to see me when she woke up. I told her that I would hide if I saw her before she saw me. I think she has found out that I don't intimidate that easy. I think I am getting to her. I can't help it she cracks me up.

Hi (((Marie))) sorry the surgery has taken so much out of you, but am so glad to see you posting. Miss ya around here. Hope you can feel better and better. Take care with the food and hope you aren't having the upchuck problem I hear so much about.

Roy, I wish I had sharp wits like yours. Hell I wish I just had wits, lol

This was the last day of school. Long day and I forgot to take my meds so that explains a lot of how I was feeling today. I thought it was just critique jitters.

Talked to friend after everyone left the goodbye pizza party, and he said he would teach me how to weld. I am now an official apprentice and get to learn some new things. I have wanted to learn to weld for about 5 yrs now so I intend on taking advantage of this opportunity and being able to have something to do while school is out.

WOW! I havn't been to this post for a long time! It has really grown, i'm glad to see there is still a place for us to get support. This place really helped me when i needed it. I am also prous to say I am back in school working on my Maters Degree in Counseling and hopefully in a couple of years i will be able to help more of you. Good luck everyone and thanks for helping me in the past

Aw, Karen this morning was great. Being older than some of the new help we got I have found I just can't keep up with them. But one resident gave me a compliment. She is one who used to give me hell and told me at one time she was tired of training new aides. But this morning she told me that she didn't want either one of them to touch her but me with moving her leg because they are too rough with her. She is the type that doesn't give a compliment unless you have truly earned it. With the physical the new ones are better than me but with the really sensitive I still am better than they are. With the really fragile you have to have a really delicate touch. It reminds me of that show from 1954 called Medic where the show started with, "Eyes of an eagle; Heart of a lion; And Hands of a woman."

Well, I feel like the weight of the world has been lifted off of my shoulders......and I might be moving back to North Carolina to be with my mom after all......I'm trying to convince her to move down here.....

Im so glad you took care of all this and that you are feeling better.

omg big hugs

nice to see you marie !!

awesome and you look hot in that pic!!

Thanks Jax, I have been slow to get back into the swing. Been working, but not quite back to full-time yet, mostly 7 hours or so a day, still really tired and my incision is still tender, etc. Wish my energy would come back, this is getting old. It will be worth it in the long run though, keep telling myself that.

JR - welcome to the thread. Good show on the college degree, can always use another good counselor.

Roy - thanks for your good wishes. My dad and another lady are being made "king and queen" of the nursing home tomorrow for the parade. Having a festival here. They were going to ride their electric wheelchairs through the parade and hand out candy (my dad did that last year) but this year they are putting them in a horse drawn carriage, so that will be cool. My dad is disabled physically, getting somewhat senile, but mostly still pretty good mentally, most of the other residents are worse off. I think he is disappointed, wanted to give out candy to the kids. They have a law here now where they can't throw the candy, have to hand it to the kids, so the kids don't run out and get hit by somebody, etc.

Amber - sounds like you are moving in the right direction.

Karen - hope things are going well for you. I know you will miss school but keep yourself busy with your art work and your new baby (puppy). And new "heart throb" possibly?? How cool for you girl. Don't know if I told you but I was getting played by the jerk on here, all that time, 10 freakin months he lied to me and strung me along wtih his BS and stupid me swallowed it hook, line and sinker. I need to get that damn "kick me" sign off my back, hurts too much to be kicked in the teeth, but I think the damn thing is tattooed on. Need to do some real soul searching and thinking before I ever consider letting someone hurt me again like that. My trust level was always low, now is definitely in the toilet.

Hope you all have a great weekend. Take care.

i understand how you feel marie..........i've always had trust issues and maybe always will....

Marie, that is great. We have that here at our nursing home. The two have a crown and we have their picture in the nurse's station. We also have the picture of the two down by the activities room. One of the residents that we have is having trouble with being restless. It is affecting her sleep and she keeps looking for something to do. It is easy to tell that in a former job she had a supervisory position and she is a smart lady. It is a shame that those who have worked hard all their lives have trouble adapting to retirement. Some of them simply don't know what to do with themselves. It is like they need to be doing something. You just can't drug them into oblivion or try to correct them from their former work ethic. I am glad we have our activities section. I know a lot of the residents look forward to bingo and the community involvement by those who care by donating to the home by musicians and other types of social entertainment.

I am having a good day that is following having a good night. Last night my male friend who is an aide I having been trying to orientate was cured from what one of my female aide friend called being too happy. Him and his girlfriend were working 12 hour shifts. He worked the wing I did and she worked another wing. When I came in last he was well into learning how to vent good. I have had to watch my dry sense of humor. The aide he was having trouble with is a Spanish lady. She said she had trouble with rushing the whole evening. I told her I thought she was hispanic. I was in luck she caught the joke and laughed. She said she wasn't Russian. The night went by fast because the male aide and I were cracking jokes all night long. By this morning though he was dead on his feet. I told his girlfriend that she needed to take him home and make sure he gets some sleep because one can burn out fast in the caring profession. This morning while going to ask my mechanic friend down the road about mechanic know-how on my van his daughter spied me outside while he was asleep. He came by a little bit ago and said he would help me do the power steering pump rebuild. He also said he would help me change out the oil sending unit so my oil pressure guage will work. He told me it would cost me about 250 bucks to change out the electric fuel pump and float valve inside the gas tank. But on the bright side he said I might not have to change out the wheel bearings on the front because he showed me where the bolts holding rack and pinion steering were loose. It is turning out to be a good day.

Well, everyone, my mom was able to leave her husband yesterday!!! YAY!!!

I can relate with that, Amber. It might be in a different way but similiar. If I open myself up to you and share something just with you then I would want that to be just between us. I guess that would be classified as keeping secrets. If I share something that is hard to share then if you make fun of me for that then it would infuriate me. This is something that I have shared in vent sessions. A betrayed trust can be hard to forgive. It can be like the Miranda of anything that you say can be used against you. I mean if anything that you say can be used against you then why say anything. Which is why the 5th amendment makes sense of I decline to answer on the grounds that it might incriminate me. I like Huckleberry Finn's answer to this; "Ask me no questions and I will tell you no lies". I really don't like evading the truth, though. But then there is that old junkie paranoid attitude that I have to overcome of why should I be honest with you if I don't feel that you are honest with me. I was able to come to an agreement with this one nurse that we both are naturally defensive. I mean if one feels threatened then one is going to be defensive. It helped me to understand that she was looking out for my best interest even though the information she was giving me was incriminating of me. What helped me to be honest with her was when she told me that she screws up, too from time to time. We were able to agree on the humanity of that. We then agreed that we would watch each other's back after that. I found out that she always wanted me to be honest with her because she was trying to be honest with me. Still we are both leary to be honest with each other at times. I think it is the survival instinct that automatically kicks in.