Yeah, I actually wash my trash cans twice a month.
I'm not even kidding, I really do that.

I'm not whining....Just thinking the government needs to pull their heads out of their arses and help us citizens out....

I shot up and started looking out my window trying to see something on fire. It couldn't have been more than a block or two away.

It sucks when you're expected to pay bills but then when it's time for fun you're out of money. And everything costs money, so that leaves nothing to do. It's a lose/lose scenerio here.....

I keep floating between this and walking around my apartment. I just got the hell scared out of me....it's been storming here for about half an hour and all of a sudden I saw this huge white flash from my window and thunder that actually knocked pictures off my walls.....that really couldn't have struck too far from my place.

I'm just not feeling it today.....Can't come up with anything, can't play worth a crap... My mind knows what to do but my finger's just can't get it today.

Yeah, but I don't think that would be a good idea considering I've been drinking.

I can't stand being at home, but I have nowhere to go. I tried leaving already to find something to do away from home and found nothing. So now I'm sitting back at home and nothing entertains me...guitar, reading, tv, internet. Just not sure where to go from here. I'm frustrated.

That's what gets me......People actually will judge you over something as stupid as that.

I think there should be some sort of support group for people with life crippling mental illnesses. I personally haven't found much help anywhere.

Yeah, I think those should definately be requirements.

Might be mild post traumatic stress disorder. I'm not saying that's what it is. But it's not an unreasonable guess.

Talk about high standards. I mean, I understand no STD's and things like that. But deciding whether or not to talk to somebody just because of an education? Or because of the type of car they drive? That's just shallow. Nobody is perfect, we all have flaws in one way or another.

Do I have a college education? No. It wasn't available to me. My family didn't own a vacation home and a yaht, my parents both work in factories, and worked 60 hours a week to provide everything they could for their children because they're parents couldn't afford college either.

Now I work in the same factory my Dad works in. Am I doing something about it? Yes. I'm going to school in January for Criminal Justice. Because now there are plenty of opportunities for loans and grants that my parents didn't have.

As for the type of car someone drives? Idiotic. I drive a Dodge Neon. Why? Because that's what I can afford. Standards are fine, but there are plenty of people who go beyond having standards, and become insensitive to people who are less fortunate than them.

Do any of you suffer from mental illnesses that cause relationships to be more difficult than they need to be? Or maybe even make it close to impossible to start one?

Yeah. I did.

You have a point there.

I never really thought about it before. It just started bothering me when I started worrying about whether or not I'm dwelling on things or obsessing or whatever you want you call it....I guess I'm trying to show myself it's ok to be happy.

Alright....I think that'll do it. And I have no way of getting a new pic, and technically I'm still married so I feel like changing my screen name and denying marriage would be decieving.

ok, I mentioned I am separated, and listed a bunch of stuff I do in my spare time.