how she treated me.....?? Well it didn't matter her smile alone made me happy. Her touch ,her kiss on my cheek every morning. The way she hugged me and things she told me was enough for me.

well i understand that point and I said i was sorry over and over. i really wasn't thinking when i did that.

Hello evryone,
My name is Brandyn and I had been shut down emotionally for a few years.I met someone in the beginning of Dec. Evrything was clicking together. Here I was again falling in love when I never thought I could again. everything was perfect. We laughed and played and had a great sex life. We truely enjoyed our time together. I was trying not to make any mistake i made before in a relationship. I really wanted this to work. I was sending her flowers to work, telling her how gorgeous she was. I opened the truck door for her everytime .I lit her cigarettes and went out of my way for her. I even watched her kids when they were sick so she could go to work. Which meant I didn't go to work. just to help her out. I went out of my way for her. Why , because I thought she was special.

From the time we met we had stayed with eachother. Since Dec 5 I had stayed at my house like 4 times.The night before valentine I snuk a dozen roses in and put them on table for her to see when she woke up.Along with a heartfelt card telling her what she mnt to me. On valentine day the kids were there. After they went to bed I started setting up the house while she was showering. I had candles in the bedroom with rose peddles all over the place . I got her chocolate covered strawberries and bought her a diamond heart shaped pendant. This was a very romantic evening. She says I never stop surprising her. All this time she was telling me I was everything she was looking for! that she was in love with me!!That she didn't feel like she deserved the way I treated her.Keep in mind she told me that alot.And told her friends the same.

Well, then friday Feb 18ish we went out. We didn't get back till like 4;30 am. I HAD TO WORK AT 8am . She knew that but I wanted her to have fun. I went to work on sat and she was going out sat night. I had to work sun to. So I wasn't going to see her all weekend. She was shopping and I said I needed to see her. I had recntly learned info about my finances that had me stressed. I wanted to see her just for a moment if any. Just to see her smile and hug her! I needed her and she thought that i just wanted to ruin her night. She really thought I wanted her to stay with me and not go with her friends. Trust me that wasn't the case. I just wanted to see her. Well anyway about 12 am or so i called and she asked what my prob was. She said that she was out with her friends and "no guy was going to interupt her evening with her friend. Basically she compared me to a normal guy I felt. I was no whr near a normal guy. I was the first to ever send her flowers at work. Or take her and kids skating .Alot of stuff in general she had never had done for her before. No candle lit bedroom no gifts or anything like that. I loved spending time with her. And couldn't wait to see her. Anyway i am not a normal guy to her and it made me mad.

So i went to her house and got all my stuff out of it. i was thinking she would freak out and say " oh **** i am going to lose this guy, he treats me so good i don't want that to happen". well it didn't work that way. She freaked out pretty much called it quits. She said she wasn't ready for all this. I don't understand, if i was everything she was looking for ,and she had told me she loved me. why would she call it quits.I don't understand even after she knew how my past had been. She knew how hard it was to give my heart away again ,and she got it and crushed it.What should I do ??? Should i fight for her or should I just leave her alone saying well it is your lose.I just don't understand how she could change her mind so quik???? I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and i don't know what to do anymore. I am lost in love and I can't do anything about it.

\that is a good one too

and make me feel like I am the only man in the world.Because I would always treat her that way. To be turned on by her apearance would be important also.

If it is fate and who your spose to contact, Your finger will automatically start typing. Let your senses take control. Don't be scared and step up .It shouldn't matter who says what as long as someone says something