You're right... but i don't know if my self-esteem will survive small talk and an appetizer. I hate when people try to make conversation, and you can tell they are trying really hard to be polite. "So.. what have you been up to these days?" (er... walking a very long way in the cold to find a new job. actually.. i was just hired at chuck e cheese down the street. i start monday) "oh... that could be... fun...." (yep. i like kids. it'll be a blast) "I dont remember... do you go to school?" (not anymore. i went to college for a year, loan free... and SURPRISE! I ran out of money. now im just trying to save... but that isnt going so well obviously...)

I just feel like im being set up.. like this is a horrible trap...

So my bf called me last night and asked if i wanted to go to "X and Y's" (for privacy..) I was about to get in the shower, i didnt want to go and i didnt want him to wait for me when i didnt even want to go. So i politely declined and he went by himself for a few hours then came home.


When he got home, he said X and Y invited us both to dinner tomorrow night (now tonight, Saturday night) and i said i would think about it.

*Reasoning for not wanting to go: I am 19, turning 20 in a week or so... my bf is 25. Most of his friends are between our age range, and it isnt a problem. It has become a problem with X and Y... because X and Y are a married couple in their late 30's. They have two little girls (4& 6) The age difference makes me extremely uncomfortable, especially because they are at the point in their lives where they are responsible and mature and know what they are doing. I happen to not be. I have more problems with X than i do Y. They are like the older version of my bf and i.. which is scary... X is the father... he is an engineer, extreeeemely intelligent and wealthy, and he has shown an obvious distaste for me from the moment my bf introduced me. Y i dont mind so much, shes the (much) older, more responsible, mature version of me.

To make things worse: my bf tells them WAY too much! I asked him how much he told them while they were hanging out... and he was like "i might have mentioned a few things.." which means he told them everything. He never says anything positive about me. I thought the rule is to make your significant other look good in front of your friends? Not to share all my dirty laundry with them! (such as... i lost my job in january-my store closed and went bankrupt... i havent been able to find a job since. how i had my license temporarily suspended, so it makes it a little harder to find a job, and probably about my crazy episode on v-day night.)

He wants me to go. I know i should try to get along with his friends... but he doesnt make any effort to help me out.

So.... should i bite the bullet and go? (risking breaking down in front of company? no thank you...)

or do i put my foot down, and just order a pizza tonight?
(knowing that if i make him go alone, they will surely ask why didnt join them...)

lol i can relate. im a cosmetologist... and i cut my hair a lot too. I havent had anyone by myself cut my hair for the past 3 years.

It was down my back during the summer. then shoulders, then i let it grow out again, then i made choppy edge-y layers, and then short again, then layers again, now its growing back out

its like productive self-mutilation... doesnt hurt and it grows right back.


I was really upset on valentines day because my bf told me i couldnt have chocolate because its not good for me and i need to watch my weight. I contained myself, i didnt kill him (as i assume others would...) but that night i just had this intense self-loathing... like i felt the urge to punish myself for not exercising or eating right. I tried talking to him about it last night... and he doesnt understand what he did wrong. We dont celebrate holidays much.. i told him he didnt have to get me flowers or anything, that i just wanted to spend time with him and have him wish me happy valentines day. He doesnt understand that its wrong to tell your girlfriend she is fat.... i dont know how to explain.. except every guy knows thats suicide!

YAY! That's great news!! Atta boy!

*whistles*

Scottish

Can you tell?

I know there is a lot I havent experienced. That is perfectly fine with me... I'm a good girl. (Lady on the streets, freak in the sheets?)
I am young. Unlike you, I have my whole life ahead of me.

The number of men whom I have slept with is quite small, and I like it that way. However, I certainly have had my experience, and if I keep it up at this rate... I'll catch up to you in no time!

what? cant a girl like other girls too?

Id love it if you told him that yourself.
lol

3??

if there are going to be other girls, then i DEFINITELY want part of this action!

Do you honestly thing a middle-aged man can compete with the libido of a 20 yr old girl? (I turn 20 on the 26th)

I have a very large collection of toys, and i often pleasure myself in my spare time, and when my boyfriend gets home, i jump him. then he does some work, then takes me from behind while im making dinner. then i end up burning dinner because we are in the bedroom. then we are in the shower. then while hes on the phone ordering pizza, im using one of my many toys...

Know what im doing now?

see ya later

Is that a challenge??? You'll have to do better than that...

Oh really? So THATS how you ended up on a dating/networking website...

Redheads are irresistible... though we are a bit feisty. I dont know if you can handle it.

big hugs from soxfan94! YAY!
though im sorry to say im more of a cardinals fan... i am sorry...


and yes.. im a natural redhead... lol.

its also hug-a-redhead day....
so open up!
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Well today IS national "Thats what SHE said" day!

this post IS labled "19 yr old lazy child"

at 19... he isnt a child. He will always be YOUR child.. but he isnt a little kid. Time to own up and start working towards something. We teach people how to treat us... and also if you treat him like a child and allow him to get away with things, then he is learning what he can get away with.

Treat him like an adult, give him adult options, and also adult consequences.

I just felt like being rude. I am sorry