It's for real and it's amazing.

Less than 12 hours now. Not just until I see you, but until everything really gets moving for us together. It's exciting...and scary too. I can't wait to sleep with you tomorrow night though. And all of the nights after that. Comfort.

Hey everyone. Just wanted to say hi. Hope everyone had a nice holiday. Life begins again tomorrow.

I thought tonight was great. I just wish the complications were gone already. I'm annoyed now and I really don't want to be. But it is what it is. Whatever. Another day and a half. I can make it. It just better be a day and a half.

Today was wonderful. It was perfect. I'm so excited for us.

I'm so sorry that you have to go through so much drama with me. I know it's overwhelming and intense. I think that if we can get through this next week that things will calm down beautifully. I do believe that we will be happy together. I miss you when you're not with me. I feel a need for you. I want you to be my safe place and I want to be yours. I want us to evolve together. I really want to see you right now. And I will fall. I am falling. And I'm trying not to be afraid of it.

good morning! I'm feeling so positive today! Weight has been lifted. Everything is just dandy. I'm going to head out to take a little nap. I have to go for a stress EKG this afternoon. And then I have to start cleaning for Santamas! My daughter comes home from college tomorrow! We need to get a tree on Sunday. I have no place for a tree yet! But I'm happy. I'm really happy.

Have a great day!

And I told you last night too. I told you everything. I want honesty and trust and communication. So I told you everything. And we're good. That was intense, just the hands. It was intense. And I know you felt it too. You were in it too. And the kiss...I thought about that until I fell asleep. And now I feel good. And now I feel ready. I'm ready for what comes next. This is a good thing...whether I was expecting it or not. It's here and it's now and it's good. I think it will just keep growing. We'll just need to keep nurturing it and moving slowly. I'm so glad it's the weekend. I can't wait to have more time to spend with you.

I don't even know how to process all of this. I feel so many different things. I told you. I'll tell him. And I'll sort. But I cried when I told you. I think that hurt you. I don't think you ever really wanted to hear it, but I think you knew. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't tell you straight out. I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner. I'm sorry I've been avoiding your calls. I just didn't know what to say and I knew that when I did talk to you, I would have to start saying it all. And I still didn't know how to do it tonight, but I knew that I had to talk to you tonight. And so I did. And I'm afraid that you're hurt, that you're sad, that you're disappointed. Because I know you told me not to wait for you, but I know you hoped that I would. I know that you wanted it to be. And now you back away gracefully. You want me to be happy. And I want you to find your truth. We are so unselfish to each other. And I feel guilty writing these words to you. And that's why I have to tell him too. He needs to know as well. I don't want to feel guilt. I must be honest. And I cried when I told you. Why should I cry? I don't need to cry. It is simply what it is. What will be, will be. It's that simple. And yet it's so hard.

Yo, goodnight. I'm sorting.

I wish I was as sure as you, but I'm trusting your judgment. I think the next few weeks...well, everything will become clear.

Oh, I so agree with you, JB! Partnership is the way to go. I've been owned and there is nothing worse than that feeling!

It's officially evening, I think. I'm off to play puzzle with my boy.

I am a diabetic. Type II also. I was diagnosed about three years ago. It sucks. I don't take care of myself the way that I should. I don't eat right. I do take my meds. I would never hope to be diet controlled. I cheat too much. I love to eat and I love to eat what's bad for me. I need to go for my blood work though. And I need to find out when I'm supposed to see my endocrinologist again.

Um, that's a question. I think I'm doing just fine. Yeah, I am. But wow, it's been strange.

How are you? Are we ever going to talk?

good afternoon.

I keep sorting it out in my head. It feels comfortable. It's a good thing. I'm trusting you.

good evening! I haven't been around much, duh. It's been busy. But I successfully finished my class! YAY! Now it's just everything else.

Hope everyone is doing great!

What a bizarre weekend. I'm just trusting that everything will be just fine.

good morning! I'm off to work on my many projects, all of which are due by Friday! Have fun!