Based on physical appearance, I'd give myself an 8. As far as what's on
the inside like personality and all that good stuff, I'd give myself a
9...........always room for improvement.

I don't care to reply to these type of posts because truthfully I think
they're stupid and a total waste of time.....my time. I think posts like
this is to just stir up shit, to start drama and those are 2 things that
I can't stand.

I don't need to prove who I am to anyone but God. But then again I am
always myself. Don't care to be anyone I'm not, never have and never
will. I am perfectly happy with myself and if you don't like it, tough
shit. Yes there are a lot of fake people out there and well to hell with
them.

I'm not gonna go out of my way to find a webcam just to please you or
anyone for that matter. I am who you see in my picture and if you don't
like it, move on.

I agree with what iceprincess said in her first post. Maybe she isn't
comfortable with you yet. I know I ain't gonna do what you want her to
do if I just met ya. And quite honestly it sounds to me that that's all
you're interested in. Excuse me if I'm wrong but I ain't gonna give if I
don't recieve. Know what I mean?

Hey guys. One more thing to add. I didn't mean, although I don't think
it does, for it all to sound like I just wanted one more night with him
soley for the sex. I really didn't think that would even happen although
I had hoped it would. And yes I know and understand that there's gotta
be more to a relationship than sex. That's one of the reasons why I
broke it off. I don't know how many times we've gone out to dinner and
the conversation just sucked. And when we did have it, it was
uninteresting to me. It seemed like the only fun time we had was in the
bedroom or just cuddling in front of the tv. But no matter what, I felt
it was love. I ached when he was away. Lust doesn't do that I don't
think.

Anyway, different strokes for different folks right? Being with him Fri
night was what I needed, I feel, to move on. And even if we didn't make
love that nite, I think it's what I needed anyway............to be with
him just more time.

Anyways, thanks for letting me open up.

Thanks for the input guys and to answer your ? txgal, no I didn't do the
money thing because he never showed. He broke it off with his gfriend a
couple of nites before the party and didn't go.

I'm gonna be real open here. Again I've been debating on whether or not
I want to open myself up to y'all but here it goes. I'm asking a
question down at the very bottom. One that will or should make you think
for a minute. I spent the weekend with my ex. It was totally my idea. He
accepted and here's a lil bit of it.

I kept asking myself this ? time and time again after my last ex and I
broke up 3 months ago............up until Sat morning. I kept telling
myself, well because it's what I was feeling, that I am still very much
in love with him and wanted to be with him. I wanted him back in my arms
and me in his.

Well his birthday was this past weekend and I thought I'd do something
for the two of us. So I reserved a motel room Fri nite. Decked it all
out with balloons, confetti and candles. Really romantic and fun
looking. We hung out talking, catching up. But I tell you the
conversation bored me half to death. I listened to him talk for over an
hour about just stupid stuff. Immatuer stuff. So I went to the bathroom
to put on a nightie that I specifically bought for the occasion. Walked
out, layed on the bed, and well you know the rest. Everything felt
right, perfect just like it always had. Nothing changed. 3-4 months
after our break up and nothing had changed. Despite all the shit talking
he did, despite what he's done giving me every possible reason to hate
him, I don't and couldn't. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't. I was
still in love with him and that never stopped.

So we were together one last time. We both agreed that nothing would
come from this night. That was also my idea. I asked him if he wanted to
share one last night, he said yes. I told him no strings attached and we
both go our seperate ways after. He agreed...........until Sun nite. I
should've known better but whatever. Now he's messaging me saying he
wants me back, blah blah blah. I've already been called an idiot
so............

Anyhow, here's my point. Sunday I was sitting home alone all day and
night and felt nothing for him. I was ok. I was fine. In fact I felt
better. I didn't think of him or anything about us like I had been for
the past 3 months. And today I am still feeling that same way. I feel
nothing and do not want him back. It was a great weekend but I don't
care to start something serious back up with him. I feel like I'm over
that hump.

Is this what you would call "closure"? Do some of us need closure to
move past someone we love?

Love it!!!
Had a guy that did just about all of those except for maybe 5 of them.
Damn!!!!

I can answer this one. All I have is guy friends. That's all I've ever
had. I just don't get along too well with females. You don't have to
worry about guys being stabbing you in the back or stealing your bf or
whatever that most girls do to other girls. And besides, I feel that
guys are more honest than girls in a friendship.
Yes, my bf's have had a problem with it but I just tell them they're
friends, they were around before them and will be around after them. If
they don't like it, to hell with you. That usually shuts them up.

One lives just an hour from me (YAYYYYYY) and the other in IA.

Well just like you told me one time Ontario...........quit whining!

Naw on a serious note. Have fun. I did at my Halloween party. As it
turns out he (ex) never showed. Him and his new girlfriend supposedly
broke up and so he didn't go. Anyway, I was happy that he wasn't there
but even if he were, I would've still enjoyed myself. But a little
selfish part of me wished he was because I looked INCREDIBLY HOT!!!!!!!

Another friend of mine was there tho. That sex buddy that I mentioned
one time or 2 here. He was there. We said hello and moved on. I did
notice him catching a look at me from time to time tho. HaHa....I'm just
sucking it all in.

It's been 3 months now since I broke it off with my ex and I am doing
much much better. Just because I dumped him doesn't mean that I wasn't
broken hearted. I was but 3 months later now and I am ok. Yes I still
think about him from time to time. I miss him in certain ways but would
I want him back? HELL NO.

It just takes time. And listening to songs like Beyonce's
"Irreplaceable" seems to make me a bit stronger. Kinda puts that
devilish smirk on my face.

LOVE LOVE LOVE horror. Here are a few...

Saw
Devil's Rejects
Halloween
TX Chainsaw Massacre
The Grudge
The Ring
Hostel

Love anything that has gore in it.

Time and more time. Stay busy. Getting involved with a new person is not
the answer even tho it may seem like it is.

Well even tho my daughter is only 3 and my oldest boy is 14, I can
honestly tell you that she is the one who's more complicated and that
ain't no lie. My son gives me grief but she gives me more of it.

You know I would really like to you what in the hell does, "....he's
just at that age" means. I am so tired of people telling me this. I mean
I know what it means but I just find it stupid that people say it when
you talk to them about all the trouble your teen is putting you thru. So
I guess I'll just pass the buck around and tell you that your 2
daughters are "just at that age".

I'm sure you all already know....I am going as a mafia gangster and my
date will be the same. My kids are going as Leatherface, Tinkerbell and
a skeleton.

I and my oldest are going to a party. Then on Halloween night, we will
all go trick or treating.

Rock all the way. I don't care if it's metal, hard rock, classic rock,
alternative rock, modern rock, underground rock, etc. It's all rock to
me.

I understand but don't understand why there are so many catergories of
rock music now. I'm sorry but rock is rock in my book and I love it all.

They're all cute pixs but I like the 3rd one best.

I like all of y'all ideas and I am LMAO. I'll keep y'all posted after
the party.

Consider it done Ontario. :)

No I wasn't considering going back with him. I ain't that stupid. I was
merely saying how I felt. Didn't at all mean I wanted him back. I don't
want him back.

I have moved on. Just wondering why in the hell he has to come on to my
turf when he didn't have fun on it last year.