I'm sure she will miss you too, don't worry, you'll make it

It was 1992, and I had recently broke up with my girlfriend at the time. The few friends I had were away for xmas, and my family lived in another state. I had left the military a few months before, wasn't working, but was able to secure my own place. But this christmas, I was alone, unless you count xmas cards from family.
My day was spent trying not to think about all the other people celebrating with family and friends. I had never spent a christmas alone in my life, and really did not know what to do with myself. I hadn't put up a christmas tree. I hadn't put up any decorations. If a picture could have been taken at that moment in my life, it would have looked like any other winter day.
It was amazing to me the places that are still open on christmas....at the time, I thought the whole world shut down. But I did walk to a 7-11, and I ate at McDonalds. I wondered how the employees felt about working on this special day, but didn't ask. I kept my thoughts away from the holidays.
I had spent unusual christmas's before....a few years before, I spent christmas day in the middle of basic training. No decorations then, either, but I did have 50 other guys I hardly knew to keep me company. It's easier to get through tough times when others are around.
But, as I learned in the christmas of 1992, it's not impossible. It may be a bit sad, (and feel free to throw your own pity party, it is a day of celebration after all) but emotions are simply a state of mind. They do pass, and indeed my sadness did pass to the back of my mind by the time the rest of the world woke up the next day.
I did eventually get another girlfriend, and another, and another. I eventually got a job, and one after that, and another. The point is, my friends, life goes on if you let it. One day of depression is followed by a new day of happiness. You never really know what is waiting around the corner....it may not be what you want, but it will be what you need. And the final quote that I live by....If life is a game, then the only way to loose is to die, and when you pull yourself back up from being knocked down, you've earned yourself one more turn. It is these thoughts that keep me going when I'm down...everything passes with time.
This christmas will not be the best either for me. My parents and siblings live far away. I'm in the middle of a divorce of 8 years. I am pretty much by myself this time around. With the exception of the few hours I will spend with my kids that day. And I am thankful for it.

ok...now I feel tricked

I don't participate in any organized religion...I believe religion is a personal spiritual path. That being said, I do find attraction towards Wicca and other philosophy that Christianity does not provide for me. I don't try to advertise my beliefs, but if anyone asks, I try to explain my feelings as simply as possible. A large majority of americans are of christian beliefs, and I have no anger towards them. I understand them, and I accept them, I even sympathize with them, but I do not follow them. To me, it is not so much what your religion tells you about how to be good at it, it is more that a focus is needed to achieve the desired result....that is the truth in all religions. Sadly, many have died trying to prove whose focus is the right one. That animosity still exists today.

switch to a laser mouse...don't have to worry about cleaning your mouse ball, and most times it's more precise. best of all, it works on most anything except solid color surfaces(like glossy white paper or something like that)

more than a hook...I'm addicted for sure

hey peachie

well if that's the case, I should just vote maybe on everyone...always have this fear that I'm sending someone's pic into oblivion, though

oh, and you know what else? Where do the people that you vote "maybe" go??? real mystery to me...

Mutual match is crazy....maybe it's my fault for the way I feel about it. I first started searching locally, within 100 miles...but when I reached the end, I opened the thing up...18 to 40 and anywhere..and now I have this never ending span of new pics flying by my screen...I feel I'm forced to vote based on looks alone because there is just so many people, and I can't resist seeing who's next and what they look like...it's a real addiction. To my benefit, I always tell myself I'll check out what they've written later, but now I have over 100 MMs. And I still haven't figured out if New Matches are people that voted yes for you or new people or people online recently. One more thing...I have accidentally clicked no, when I meant to click yes, several times...and I always say the same thing to myself..."Yep, that was my soul mate, and I just trashed her"

maybe they are not decieving you, but you are putting too much trust in them...I've met alot of people who I think are one way, and end up being another.

um...chocolate does wonders? But I do have to agree with your current bf...if it were me, I'd think you still had a thing for your ex. Therapy might help, but I hate psychiatrists so I can't suggest that. It sounds as though you still live in the past, and you're ignoring the present. If you still have your ex's things around the house, it's no wonder you're still dealing with his crap. I say get rid of the stuff and concentrate on the here and now, especially the part about your current bf.

that figures

I don't think I am

because they have an agenda, of course. Media has stopped reporting the news and now tries to make up the news, whether or not that news is based in fact or not. It's sad, with so much of America believing everything they are told on the nightly news cast...when it is so obvious there is a bias in reporting. Most of the time they don't even properly research a news story before reporting it....it fits their agenda and they just run with it. But when the statistics you mentioned above are actively used to decieve people, that is beyond reporting the news.

I agree...so many people were down on that show, but i love it. Plus Seven of nine really does something to me...

(this is me being silent on the issue)

ok, first off he already has a reason to change...he has a son! and secondly, I think family often wants their children to be taken care of and mistakenly think that because he is the father he should be the one to do that. You're going to have to make them understand his behavior is not the best for your son. Actions speak louder than words, dear. And finally, you are a beautiful young woman and should have absolutely no trouble finding a man that fits in your life...it will all work out, just keep your head on straight and put your son's intrests first.

oh..forgot about that whole guilty by association thing, she's right, watch your step around him