It was 1992, and I had recently broke up with my girlfriend at the time. The few friends I had were away for xmas, and my family lived in another state. I had left the military a few months before, wasn't working, but was able to secure my own place. But this christmas, I was alone, unless you count xmas cards from family.
My day was spent trying not to think about all the other people celebrating with family and friends. I had never spent a christmas alone in my life, and really did not know what to do with myself. I hadn't put up a christmas tree. I hadn't put up any decorations. If a picture could have been taken at that moment in my life, it would have looked like any other winter day.
It was amazing to me the places that are still open on christmas....at the time, I thought the whole world shut down. But I did walk to a 7-11, and I ate at McDonalds. I wondered how the employees felt about working on this special day, but didn't ask. I kept my thoughts away from the holidays.
I had spent unusual christmas's before....a few years before, I spent christmas day in the middle of basic training. No decorations then, either, but I did have 50 other guys I hardly knew to keep me company. It's easier to get through tough times when others are around.
But, as I learned in the christmas of 1992, it's not impossible. It may be a bit sad, (and feel free to throw your own pity party, it is a day of celebration after all) but emotions are simply a state of mind. They do pass, and indeed my sadness did pass to the back of my mind by the time the rest of the world woke up the next day.
I did eventually get another girlfriend, and another, and another. I eventually got a job, and one after that, and another. The point is, my friends, life goes on if you let it. One day of depression is followed by a new day of happiness. You never really know what is waiting around the corner....it may not be what you want, but it will be what you need. And the final quote that I live by....If life is a game, then the only way to loose is to die, and when you pull yourself back up from being knocked down, you've earned yourself one more turn. It is these thoughts that keep me going when I'm down...everything passes with time.
This christmas will not be the best either for me. My parents and siblings live far away. I'm in the middle of a divorce of 8 years. I am pretty much by myself this time around. With the exception of the few hours I will spend with my kids that day. And I am thankful for it.

I feel the same way. My daughter is with her dad away and I am home alone. Feel very depressed without my midget running around making me watch Christmas cartoons. But she will return in a few days and everything will be back to normal.

I'm sure she will miss you too, don't worry, you'll make it

Thankyou for sharing this...

I take one day at a time...

i'll second this..

Merry christmas all!!

I know understand this Christmas is not a memeral one for me.My father passes away on Dec. 6th. I got a speeding ticket on my way home to lay him to rest. I shelled out $350.00 and now I have no money for gifts. I can't even afford christmas cards to send out. Luckally I have food. I want this Holiday season to be over, the memory of my father's passing, and my lonelyness to disappear quickly. I do feel the say way, a pitty party is needed and maybe the all the feelings will finally go away.

I'm sorry for you loss. I hope the new year opens all the doors of opportunity for you and the Divine grant you the courage to walk through them. Brightest blessings.

thanks

I wouldn't realy say alone.

looks at right hand

yup....im the star in home alone this year

I spend Christmas with my mom (she divorced my dad in 1993) and my dad just spends the day like any other day. Some people like to be alone I guess. I don't like being alone on a holiday.