Every fiber of her being Was bruised tattered and bloodied
By the shards of glass that is death
Red swollen eyes saw nothing but bleak emptiness stretching through forever
A heart strained to beat beneath its cloak of stone
Gone forever is the innocent sweet twinkle in her eyes
Or is it?
A friendship still very much in its infancy
Has slowly started to heal the gaping wounds
That riddled every inch of her heart and soul
Red swollen eyes return to a bright hazel
One by one the stones begin to corrode
Revealing a tattered but beautiful giving heart
Laughter softly tickles her insides
Taking little tiny baby steps
Each and every day she tries harder
Remembering what it’s like
To be alive
Not just sitting amoung the living

you know your in love when u find yourself thinking about them constantly and you smile from ear to ear knowing you'll see them in a few hours and when u realize your friends are looking at you weird because u were humming a cheesy love tune you really dont care much because your stuck on cloud 9

I cried out over and over
Screaming in unbearable agony
Tears flooded the pillow
In the silence of the air conditioned room
I called God every name in the book
Damming him for what he had done
So he put me on ignore
Such an icy heart doesn’t care though
Who needs him anyway
All he does is cause me pain
My belief has died
Even when I wanted him
God put me on ignore
That will change
Whenever he decides its time to steal a loved one

awww i thought it was the first :( i love birthdays it doesnt even have to be mine LOL

so i've got this awesome friend only at first i didnt really think so LOL shes been there for me A LOT especially lately seriously yall i couldnt ask for a better friend i'm sooo grateful for all shes done and today happens to be her birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUZ

no u had it right its chris

August !!th 2007
Oh how I wish I could just obliterate that day
Erase the memory
My every thought spinning as each word floats before my eyes
I’m sorry but he passed away
Passed away….
Passed away….
Huge spots cover the words now jumbled into nonsense
The man I so deeply loved
Will forever rest with the angels
Upon a cloud far beyond heavens gates
No longer will his voice float to my ears
Our dreams of forever were shattered
Never again to be re-constructed
IT MUST BE A MISTAKE
The words boomed like thunder
Tied together with sheer hysteria
Shakey fingers dial his cell phone
No answer…
A single word barely escaped dry lips
Then…
Darkness
That only brought more tourment
For every dream was him

it just seems to be getting worse

its a bit passed hard right now suz

i apologize if im bringin yall down im just hurtin pretty bad

he died for his country but still its not any easier

chris was my bf he passed away in august of last year

thanks

dont mean to bring anybody down with me or anything im just really missin chris tonight could use a few friends

to wake up and find that my boyfriends death was really only a hellish nightmare

im thinking about how to pull my foot out of my mouth long enough for a decent apology

i think he might have but ive never seen him that way

i dont even remember all of it thats wut im sayin though i mean i didnt mean it the way it sounded but i dunno how he took it exactly he just got ****ty

okay yall i really need your help on this one here's the story awhile ago
i had this really awesome friend lets call him...Dylan but anyway dylan
asked me somethin and i answered him but in doing so i somehow stuck my
foot in my mouth i tried to fix it but the more i tried the worse it got at
first i was really angry and didnt miss him so i thought whatever but when
i thought about how much he was there for me and how much he made me smile
i REALLY miss him but see im not sure what i said wrong so i don't know how
to fix it all i know is its killin me because i want him to know i didnt
mean to but he wont even talk to me i was just gonna let it go but i cant i
miss him sooo bad

When you swore you loved only me
Did you think of her?
You promised not to be like the others
I guess you were right
None of them had wives awaiting their return
All I once felt for you has finally died
What was a beautiful glowing fire
Is nothing more than cold embers
Bitter anger ceases the pain
Why did you feel the need to hide her from me?
Were you afraid there still might be some feelings lying dormant?
She must have been the one in your dreams
I certianly have meant nothing to you
Yet I wanted so badly to mean everything
There is no use in shedding tears
So I’ll just say goodbye
Soon enough you will be lying on the other side of her bed
And I’ll be nothing more than a distant memory
Fading
Fading
Gone…