1. without rain, there wouldn't be rainbows.
2. the darker the sky, the clearer the stars.

I hope things are better for you as time goes by

Hoping things get bettrr for you

Things were getting really better for me, campaign season is coming up and been working on a couple campaigns, something I enjoy that takes my minds of things, then something else happens, my mom was just taken to the hospital by Ambulance this afternoon, her heart rate was over 200.

You'll be in my prayers tonight. Keep faithful and remember that the darkest moment is just before the dawn....your sun will soon shine through.
Keep active and social this may help to get through it better.

Please pray for me too...my husband had an affair and got the woman pregnant. I was so devastated because we dont have a child yet and i was wishing that we would share the joy of having our first born. He left me but he returned a few weeks after. He said he loves me and im his wife. But he can't resist his emotions towards his woman because they are having a child. It hurts me so much that he keeps seeing her and still sleeps with her. I dont know what to do. Should i leave him or not? Please advise me.

in my opinion what he feels for you is not love but ownership. I think you should let him go....you gave him the chance to redeem himself and he thinks its the green light to live a double life.

I would leave him. The longer you wait the worse it's going to hurt. This is nor fair to you, and it will hurt A LOT but your already hurting so for you the process has already started.

I will tell you this. It's been almost 6 months and I thought I was great until recently and now the dreams are coming back, I cant get her smile out of my face and while I'm asleep I finally have that happiness I once had and when I wake up I'm destroyed and I don't know how to process it. I am going nuts honestly.

Well I am looking at two jobs. One is the AP Management position at Wal-mart and the other is a Public Safety Supervisor for a resort by Yellowstone Park. Wal-mart is a permanent job as the resort deal is seasonal but they give you food, lodging, free boat rentals, kayaking, canoeing, horseback riding, employee parties, dances, BBQ's, bon fires, 4th of July party and many others. The catch is I would have to go from Nevada to Wyoming to Yellowstone Park. It also could lead to other positions because they own resorts in Vail Colorado, Lake Tahoe, Jamaica and other places so when the season is up and you do a good job there is a good chance they will send you to another location.

I was thinking this might be a good deal because it gets me away from here, and everything here reminds me of her I cant even go into a store without thinking about us going to that store together. This job also reminds me of Boy Scout Camp, which was my most favorite place in the world. I am an Eagle Scout and former Camp Counselor and Waterfront Director for years.

On the other hand Wal-Mart is a good company to work for and stability and I wouldn't have to move.

I just cant decide.

I would sleep on it. That is how I make decisions. I wake up in the morning with a better perspective for some reason.


Honestly glad to hear that you are doing better and moving on.

Sorry to hear that your mom's heart rate is so high.

I will keep you in my prayers.

I pray that you can get some restful sleep. Sassafras root made into tea sure helps me sleep. Sometimes too many choices can be as bad as not enough.

Ya know, life is short.
I myself would go with the Park, it sounds like just plain fun.
Which it seems you could use.
A wee daring, also :-)

Yea, but it might only be a 6 month thing where Wal-Mart isn't just seasonal and they are a growing company. Granted at the resort I could transfer in the company at the park at the end of the season if I am a good employee(which I am).

I have slept on it for a week and cant decide. Every night I dream about my ex-wife. I am at the point where I don't want to go to sleep.

Ask Allah by this Quranic dua:��Our Lord, forgive us and our brothers who preceded us in faith and put not in our hearts [any] resentment toward those who have believed. Our Lord, indeed You are Kind and Merciful.[Quran, 59:12]

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through so much emotional pain.
Please hang on in there, you will feel better soon, time is the best healer as the old saying goes and it's so true!
Take care and God bless you.

I sincerely know what you mean like omg, what is going on and why me OK great doctors looking out for you and you're right no amount of meds will ease the pain, only time and you must try now to move on what's done is done,while she its enjoying life yours is at a standstill every day someone is going through something and it's really hard to smile when the eyes are not smiling and the heart is broken
,try to join a support group or get a pet one thing I've learned is a pet will always give unconditional love and let that be your therapy or just rediscover you and try to once again enjoy life i wish there was a book about the trials and tripulations of life and that thing called love i hope that you can one day get back on your feet good luck