I had a conversation last night with The One Great Love....we met, or rather collided 7 years ago... had a wild and crazy time for four great years together, never lived together, just always close.


He moved, to follow his passion, well one of the other ones, his music...and it was time to change the status of what our relationship was called.

For three years we have debriefed, what it was for us, as a couple, what we learnt about ourselves, and each other, and a remarkable clean honest friendship bloomed.

On New Year's we had a fake wedding by phone, Hilarious, and since then we have had wisecracks to each other about how poor we do in the wife and husband roles.

Well last night, he had decided all by himself, without me having any indication, that he has decided to come HOME. Meaning me, us, we, and all the other cute descriptions.

After intense CPR, and climbing back off the floor, I could only stutter o..o..o...o...h..h..h.


Now I am in a state of sheer panic, I am sooo excited to see him, to be near him, to blend the intense passion we share about everything.... but to have him here 24/7?????


Holy crap!


Fight or flight?

Hide under the bed?

Enter the witless protection agency?

HHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!

It's been a roller coaster ride from hell this past week... too much sadness... and now this??? geeeez!

I think I need a time out.

Sugar.........breathe into this paper bag......slow and even......

I think you should give it a shot....very slowly, when he gets back into town. Feelings might still be there, or they might be the warm afterglow.

Take your time and see if the embers start to flare again.

run girl -run !
jess, that is some thing you are going to have to finger out by yourself hun !

Wow Lee...

Uuuum Congratulations!?!

I'm trying to think of what you'd tell me (shoes switched).

Prolly something like "you know your passion AND your boundaries"
and prolly (just like eileena says) "breathe"


I KNOW..BF Help..huh?

VERY COOL "problem" to have though...no?

Wow, Jesse.

Maybe start with dating and see how it goes. Make a new foundation for the relationship.

Just food for thought.

Finger out?????? Isn't she doing that now??????










***Goes to my time out corner........***

atempts to lure you out from under the bed with promices of tuna.

it sounds a bit sudden however I think your reactions are normal. for my own part I would compermise and not move in together right away. I would want you to be not just excited but overjoyed at the thought of me coming "home" that there would be no other thing overshadowing it.

can he take up residence near you? then move in toghther later?

Go with it. I mean do you really want to be a part time girlfriend forever just because you're to scared to commit to something stronger???

Eileena, they never died, nor dulled.... he's always owned a piece of my heart, I just thought we were done, as partners... there was no angst, anger, challenge, when we parted, just different requirements in life, I am content here, where my life is small and comfortable, he needed bright lights excitement, lots of gigs, and musical people around him.

I got the deer in the headlights thing going on!

No Joel, it's terrible!

Imagine having 'you' in a female form as your partner! The intensity, the combustible opinions, the whole passionate bloody heat of it!

We survived four years because we didnt live together... we both had 'time out' space where we could retreat, reflect, and evaluate....he's gonna end up with a bit of 4 x 2 embedded in his head after a month, if we cannot gewt away from each other.

Maybe I could hide at your house.

Right now? Yes, part time sounds perfect!

Take is slowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww........

And congrats.....Im so happy for you!!!

Yeah take it very slow....Is he going to commit this time? Do you want to get back with him only to discover he has to chase another dream?
On the other hand, I sure as hell miss those butterflies!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GwqorRnsfMo

Now hold up and get your bearings!

You have fought camel's, ostriches and rogue wallabys ... faced snakes and sharks and downright crazy people ... loved and lost ... flew high ... and crashed and burned ...

AND YOU ARE STILL HERE!!!!



What was the question again?

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."

- Bene Gesserit Litany Against Fear

or as my friend likes to remind me when I am swimming in fear ...


F*CK FEAR!!!

Thanks Sherrie...


It's Dan......and well... all sense and sensibilities still go out the window....**gulp!**


What do they say?

Be careful what you wish for????

What did i do!?