i don't anymore either, been clean and sober six months now (which is how long ago i broke up with my abusive ex, coincidence? I THINK NOT!)

congrats amber.your hitting a lot of milestones my friend.

yep......i was talking to a friend of mine from nc the other night jax, and she knew my dad doesn't want me talking about elton (my ex) so she asked me if i wanted an update and i said yeah......well needless to say he keeps going down the road he's on he is going to end up in jail, with a std or worse, DEAD......but i didn't feel nervous like i used to, i didn't feel anything, no compassion, no longing for the few good times we did have, absolutely nothing, i'm finally over him and now can concentrate more on my new boyfriend....

good for you and good luck!!

Wow. Isn't that the truth? I get home so exhausted some days but caring about others sure kicks the void's ass. Take a day off work and you are missed by so many. You get to know so many by their first name and they get to know you by your first name. I was getting off work this morning and the day nurse was coming on. She said good morning beautiful. I am there so much even when I visit the aides will say stay around much longer and we will put you to work. The place just fills that void of feeling being needed. It is amazing, the contradiction of void and love being at the same place. I feel love from the time I enter the building till I leave. I get a high that alcohol or drugs could never fill. I got the drug that Huey Lewis was singing of in his song.

It does feel great to know when one is loved, I found that out the day I left my ex.....I told my dad what was going on, he asked me if they needed to drive up to get me (I lived in north eastern north carolina and he lives in central south carolina, an eight hour drive). I told him I was going to ask my brother to wire me money to get a one way ticket down here......Dad told me to stay put.....Thirty minutes later they were on the way to come get me and what few possessions I had left.....and my mom, she lives in a nursing home and almost got kicked out because that's where I was while waiting for my dad to come get me.....

Hope you all have a good day today.

I have been laying low getting over my surgery. Staples came out yesterday and am feeling a little better already, think they were beginning to bug me.

Sounds like you all have been busy.
Karen - sorry that jerk gave you problems.

(gentle hugs) welcome back Marie

It does feel great to know when one is loved, I found that out the day I left my ex.....I told my dad what was going on, he asked me if they needed to drive up to get me (I lived in north eastern north carolina and he lives in central south carolina, an eight hour drive). I told him I was going to ask my brother to wire me money to get a one way ticket down here......Dad told me to stay put.....Thirty minutes later they were on the way to come get me and what few possessions I had left.....and my mom, she lives in a nursing home and almost got kicked out because that's where I was while waiting for my dad to come get me.....

I get that feelings with some of the nurses I work for. One nurse is always asking me if I brought something to eat and didn't always brings extra. Another nurse who I have worked for has covered my ass on several occasions. I used to think the worse of her but through all the venting sessions actually found out that she does care. She has been there for me and vise-versa. She said she was always talking about me to her husband. I said it was good, I hope. Last winter when my car was in the ditch for four days she came out and got me. She has helped me to be more assertive and helped me to believe in myself. I guess the only problem I had with her husband was when he told her to start wearing tee shirts under her scrub tops. But really couldn't blame him I guess. Lost another good aide just because she doesn't show up for work. I am going to see if I can get paid for training new aides. This is getting rediculous. Dayshift is actually starting to pity me. I tell the residents when they ask me who is working with me that their guess is just good as mine. They will say whatever happened to that one lady that was working with you because they can't remember her name. Have got some to stay but they only work as part timers because they are mothers and can't baby sitters. We sure could use some good day care centers around here. One thing about it is I am getting to get to know a lot of kids who have to sleep in the empty beds because the women who work the jobs have no one to watch them.

Good morning peeps........ (((Roy))) yes they should pay you for all the training you have done

roy, i wish i'd been able to keep my little one with me after my babysitter quit on me, but i worked at wal-mart in the garden so you can imagine

Can you believe this? The asshole who called the cops on me actually tried to IM me on yahoo I didn't say one word, I just iggied him and reported him as spam, hahahaha. I thought about saying something really pissy, but the fukctard is probably more annoyed that I didnt say anything at all. Sheesh, some people just can't take a hint, or a rock dropped on thier head!

Yes, I can imagine. Imagine this. While working the other night a nurse had to bring her little girl to work because she didn't have a babysitter. The girl is small physically and the little girl is about 5 goes to a recliner and goes to sleep. The nurse is doing her charting and is watching the child through the glass window. A resident who is 48 biologically and 5 years old mentally is in her wheelchair. She sees the child in what she thinks is her recliner. I am thinking well this ought to be interesting. How does a physical child 5 years old relate with an adult 5 years old child? The resident who would have tried to get the chair from another resident just sit there and watch the child sleep. I thought it was interesting.

That is interesting...........so what did the older person do? I hope there wasn't a problem for them.

sadness sucks boners especially if you dont know why

yeah it does.....i can't believe that idiot tried to im you.....i know one thing, i didn't know that my hillbilly dad likes lynyrd skynyrd and iron butterfly

I can't even remember all the medication I used to take. They all just blur together.

Hi rush. Welcome to the thread. Know what you mean. when I go to the pharmancy, and thy ask me what I need I cant remember which one I went in for; I have so many

i remember those days karen, i'd call in my and the baby's refills and since i went to that particular pharmacy, by the time i walked up to the counter they had my meds ready to go, didn't even have to ask my name


welcome rush

wtf.what an idiot..