thanks

IT'S ABOUT TIME

my mouth is a gaping hole.

each day bigger,

I won't can't be silent,

even by other skirts.

i won't be lady like

cause

that is code for

"Shut - up and look Pretty"

disguised as

"self respect"

now who

who

tell me who

can have that

when they cram all

thought desire needs

and wisdom

in a crossed legged

lady like grin?"

plus no one

asked me to

define

"LADY"

but here goes:

if it has anything to do with

creation

i carried and bore it -

from the beginning

way before

little men in pointy hats with greedy

fist decided me in convenient.

SO

#1

is the ability to

transform pain and burden into life

i will sit with my legs

WIDE OPEN

have you worship

my Yoni

every damn

YONI

see cause we can create

something from seemingly nothing

in loving and nurturing

ways

but because they don't create

power and wealth

we know nothing

OH

so I can birth the Divine

but I can never quite be it

ha ha ha

the father the son and the .....

my color is black

cause i lurk in the heart of

every woman's soul,

caught in our throats .... or whispered in private

so as not to upstage your

WAR GAMES

just steal my words and essence

"It was I who covered the earth like a mist

alone I made a circuit of the sky and transversed

the depth of the abyss."

now does that sound remotely like

something

a man

would do?

can they

"spread my fragrance like choice myrrh."?

Bla -

in my full UN-lady like

glory am

VIXEN or STREGA

nah i can't float if thrown into

water bound

but you knew that -

if there was, is, will be

Messiah

it's me

Un- lady

Women

girls,

if there is

or will be

any hope for your

children

children's children,

now it the time

to throw off those damn shackles

of being

lady like

speak

moan , Wring hands, SHOUT

declare your presence be

not only noted

exalted

sure

you can call me the

"Great Whore"

Lilith, Madame St. Urzulie, Ruach,

Sophia or ant other incarnation

of women that spoke the word

"NO"

with conviction not malice.

"For I am the first, the last.

I am the honored one and the scorned one.

I am the whore and the holy one.

I am the one whom they call Life

and You call DEATH."

300,000 years ago

by some river bed

humanity sprang forth from

MY WOMB.

yet it seems that the further away from me my children

got the more

they despised me.

NO MATTER

I am constant

the screeching owl outside your window

the crone that shakes her head

the young girl who fights back

I stir the mist of mine

ME

with storms no mortal man can quite

Understand -

But

too

I am the moist

darkness of home you crave

dominion over

i try to wash this lust from you

through orgasmic bliss

would you carry that sensation

through your work a day world

What a world

it would

could

should be

I cannot be

The Lady you bottle and sell by the truckload

to

sweet little girls, awkward teenage girl who only

want to be loved - pretty,

or mature young women who

STRUGGLE to at once

Re-create and be INDEPENDENT

i am definitely not the middle-aged woman, who only needs

you for selfish reasons,

as the hag i barely know you exist

UNLESS

you know me

Embrace all of me

listen to the music falling out

of my gaping hole of a heart.

the moon is a crazy

blaze

tonight

all the stars

pretending not

to notice

where is the

devil

when you

need him

he must

be reserved for

horror

what of a

poet

i am ready

to bargin

what need of

a soul

do i have

isn't it my soul

that burdens

my flesh

it is

surely my soul

that cause me

to fall

against my

minds good reason

i'd gladly talk

to a minion

if the big

cheese

is occupied

i'll trade anything

to be rid

or it

not to be pulled

to the other

hoping to complete

self

that is

hell

why worry

of the physical

tortures

at least the source

of which

is form the outside

you see

the devil

is just as

elusive

as god

i fear they're in

a meeting

dealing us cards

double dealing

drawing from the bottom

with marked souls

whoever is in

control

of mine

keep it

perhaps then

i would

could

have some hope

for my

heart

So hard to be the one
Left out
Passed over
Messed over –
How you chose
HER
Over me?
I saw you together
Happy and
Plain!
Where did I fit in?
Was it,
You had no
Imagination
I knew my worth
How you picked at
My flaws, I laughed
So you compared
Her changing for you
To hurt when I
Demanded a place
Not just lying
Taking you in
Again and again and again
No – not plain
Not I
Not never
So sorry!
Aw lover
WHY?
Perhaps
I was to conquer, an object only?
Once taken my love was absurd.
Now
I believe you have no vision!
Why should I could I love
The ordinary you?
Cause a woman like me only love
The type of men
You dream to be.
Yet when you arrive,
Where will I be?
Mistaken
I did
I do
Love
But fading out
Alone
So hard to be the one
Solo

You make my brain hurt

In the most delightful way

You make my brain hurt my heart thump

In a strange complicated way

You make my heart thump my skin ignite

In a longing longed for way

You make my skin ignite my soul quiver

In a so forgotten now remembered way

You make my soul quiver my spirit pirouette

In the most precise delicious way

You make my spirit pirouette and

I WILL hover

there in mid-air on the tip of

my being with

anticipation of your next words

thoughts that keep me

entranced eager oh

so Damn eager without

my good reason

I know you are laughing at me

In a far overdue

let's work it out in trade

kind of

way

God Bless you, this is the first time I have had so much venom.
I attribute it to starting the long decent into becoming a dreaded crone!!!

here comes the night and this is when i feel most likey to cause harm

man why can't I ever post links??

http://buffalobeast.com/133/bigthree.jpg.

I honestly don't know cause I don't know what TIA's is.

Works for me!!!

i like to think he did it for his grand kids!!

yeah I really like the sexology of the Taoist. I apply the thumb thing with all my perspective ummmm dates.

I am listening to George Carlin Narrate "thomas the tank engine"

damn straight, what's enough three or four times around the karmic wheel???

i think i can be happy while he suffers

yeah I plan to go NINJA lol

ooooooooo yeah