I think that feelings are understated

in this age of plastic smiles

and tags and virtual pokes.

I think that you don’t mean

those words that amplify

your false self and unhappy folks.

You are lost in virtual existence

talking to strangers, building networks

feeding unknown false hopes.

You’ve become insensitive

to reality that burns beneath

those undressed eyes.

I still can’t help loving the scent

of the earth when it rained yesterday

bringing memories as our sadness soaks.

The smell of your skin woke me

When I saw that big old tree

and our naked love withers and chokes.

Very nice, J

Thank you so much (((LA & J )))

I wake

From my past

Hold you

In my arms

I tell

Stories and fairytales

You’re lost

Between legs and lace

I breathe

Confessions of tomorrow

You see

Our faith in other grow

I hate

You staring endlessly

At my belittled

Curves and beauty

I want

Little talks and wordplay

You want

To keep lying this way

I go

Aimlessly, naked

You watch

I strut instead

You know

I won’t go far this way

I fall

Cry your name all day

You sing

A sweet lullaby

I sleep

Like a sweet child of yours

You wake

I from my past

You hold

Me in your arms

You tell

Stories and fairytales

I’m lost

Between legs and lace

You breathe

Confessions of tomorrow

I see

Our faith in each other grow

You hate

Me staring endlessly

At your belittled

Curves and beauty

You want

Little talks and wordplay

I want

To keep lying this way

You go

Aimlessly, naked

I watch

You strut instead

I know

You won’t go far this way

You fall

Cry my name all day

I sing

A sweet lullaby

You sleep

Like a sweet child of mine.

If you’re me

and I am you

then why are we

living lonely?

eating compulsively?

sleeping unfaithfully?

dying agelessly?

Thank you (((beauty, mt, Master & s1ow)))

Much solitude and serenity
Reigns in my self-built paradise
With fragile innocence to own,
Cloaks of gaiety and freedom.

I was my own knight and warrior
Strength and fearless, my shadows
Woven within the sense of being
That my soul nurtures and built.

Peace has been my own sky
Beneath sunrise and sunset;
In the endless cycle of bliss I’ve set
My world was charmed.

And then our worlds collide.
Out of nowhere, you came
With spell stronger than mine
The wind whispered.

You’ve known that I hide
In the middle of the crowd
I grieve in the midst of laughter
Lonesome in the height of victory.

In the silence of your voice, I heard
Songs of hidden truth unsaid
You are the mirror to show
The way beyond the world I made.

I fear the force you bring
So strong, unknown, untamed
For mine is but a tiny speck
From your overwhelming sky.

Should I then take a safe retreat
For sanity to hold me high?
Or, should I run away again
Like I always did.

Here I am thinking aloud
As fate leads me again
Toward the pathway of hearts
That others mostly seek.

Wonderful

Send me
glances.

Through the wire
on spaces,
unseen-
but felt.

Quench the yearning,
lingering-
like a gaze of
eternity.

Thread on along
rhythms that never
falter- bound
to a new dawn.

Then half the world away
would be-

No longer
Home -
no more.

Come.
Closer.

Thank you (((s1ow & 1000 )))

They are, in fact, quite something.
Thank you for your comment, as always Master

also, thank you (((writer and 30)))

Misanthropes and masochists, life beckons,
listless but enthusiastic, she makes her move,
the emptiness overwhelms her lust.

Enchanted eyes which glow under the moonlight,
passionate empathy, long suffering sympathy,
she loses faith but keeps hope near.

Utterly hopeless in this game of romance,
like a ballet who refuses to dance,
a wizard with no wisdom to speak of.

Tainted daggers and unstrung harps,
this torrential downpour falls on,
her Eternal passion backs down.

Impeccable love portrayed,
Brutal affection delayed,
Waited, and she waited for his subtle escape.

Ambivalent lust, fleeting love,
Her vulnerability tells tales, her perfection sparks miracles,
a silent whimper, a careless whisper,
beneath her impeccable exterior, an accidental love dwells.

Thank you (((trying, Master, Jason)))

It’s killing him, tearing him up inside,
He runs, she gives chase, they fall.
It hurts so much, but he says ” more.”

A place where the flowers have no petals,
Where the sun never sets and the stars don’t shine,
where little miracles happen when they don’t matter.

Water, wine, blood and thicker,
He stays in his living room, all but liquor ,
This is not the way she says, calling him fickle.

Orchids on trees, fishes in the pond,
the swan appears for her last and final song,
“Where am I?” he cowers under the bed,
“I don’t know” , thats all she said.

His tears don’t flow, her feelings won’t fade,
They play their little games, taunting and cheering,
until we forget the promises they made.

They play their little game, sin and shame,
mocking and scoffing, shouting and jeering,
Her sweet embrace, his loving touch,
They cry and comfort, forgiven but forlorn.

“You are my girl, my one and only in this world”,
” I love you too, if it makes me look the fool”

Compassion, love and never fading,
Forgiveness and damnation, never ending,
Crystal hearts, hidden desires,
Love shed some light, hope calms the fight.

They don’t stop, they never do,
They take a break and they’re back on track,
Chasing and loving, cursing and tussling.

An antagonist, are you?
Belligerent on purpose, i say you be.
Masochists, undoubtedly we both are,
The little game has gone too far.

Forget me but not my name, for i will remember this little game,
never ending, forever going, they trip but never tire.

Like Love and hope on bicycles.

We crossed these sacred grounds
Only to forsake them
Then we buried ourselves in rules
Just so we could break them
You exit like the sunset
Blanket me with regret
And return to rise
Before I’ve had the chance to open my eyes
Just like you always do
Come back when I don’t need you
Stir up another storm
For me to weather through
Well, I don’t care about how well you’re doing these days
(Who are you doing these days?)
I don’t care about what all the magazines say
(Who cares what they say?)
And I don’t care about everyone who said you were great last night
(Cause I’m sure you were great)
But you know something is not right
You know someone is gonna figure you out
Someone is gonna figure you out
You’re scared, so scared
Maybe I won’t be the one to lie to your face
Or invite myself back to your place
But I can’t bear the thought of being another voice
Turning you into something that you hate
I’ve been here all along
Watching you from afar
You change every day these days
You change every day these days
But someone is gonna figure you out
Someone is gonna figure you out
You’re scared
But you can tell yourself it’s okay
When you stop tonight
Stare your face down in mirror
Study the wrinkles forming under your eyes
Smile when you think of me
I’ve waited so patiently
For someone to figure you out
Besides me
Someone besides me
Is gonna open you up
See what you’re really made of
It’s a hop, skip, a jump
Back to where I was
And I’m heading back there
Solely because
You’re too scared to look me in the face
And I’d never want to be in your way

Thank you for your thoughts (((isaac , master , Txs , Harold )))

I'll still be around...just not posting.

I am torturing myself on purpose
Skinning myself alive
Reaching into my bloody guts
Killing myself just to find
A bone that does not ache
A muscle that still believes
That I could ever be allowed to take
A restful moment to breathe
Without getting caught in the web
Spinning itself around me
Without watching the words I’ve said
Pile up and drown me
In the pool of my past
I’ll be whatever you need
Just don’t ever ask
Me to sit and watch you bleed
Cause my heart is on my sleeve
And I wanna take my shirt off
And I want to be
The fire that burns the bridges you cross
I want your friends to hate me
And force you to say
“You know, really, you disgust me
But I can’t wash you away.”
Love is just so close to hate
So play your cards right
And then you just may
Make yourself an enemy tonight
I’m laying here at your mercy
Soaked in your infidelities
You say you never meant to hurt me
And you sell me, oh, you sell me


***And on that note, I'm not going to be posting here anymore (or at least for a while). Something has happened that has made me very uncomfortable with being here, let alone sharing myself and my thoughts.***

Back there I was this kid
And here I am still not a woman
Don’t you dare look in my eyes
Cause you just might understand
I know you’re there behind me
I can feel you breathe my air
But you know that I would die for you
So you know that I won’t care
Come run with me; Come fly with me
Let your shadow cover mine
And while we’re here together
Maybe we’ll figure out how to stop this time
From goin’, goin’, goin’
From goin’ so damn fast
Touch me in the twilight
Then I’ll whisper so you’ll last
Those nights I did the right thing
Wore a halo ’round my head
But that halo, well it vanished
When the devil crawled in my bed
I let the feeling wash me guilty
We let our feelings cleanse us sinned
But if the lights are off, the door is locked
They won’t know where we’ve been
Say Glory Hallelujah!
We’ve made it through the night
But just because we made it
That doesn’t make it right
Say, oh, how much you love me
How good I make you feel
But just because we felt it
That doesn’t make it real
Come walk with me; come dance with me
Come make me go insane
I’ll hold you too tight, make you shine too bright
Just run away from pain
Hey, we’re young and we’re here
Man, that’s all I really know
But I like it when you sing for me
I like it when you dance real slow
The moon, let’s watch it rising
Rising high above this town
Let’s get high… no… we better not
We might not make it down
So just take a shot of this, my friend
Let’s make a toast to God knows what
Don’t fall in love with angels
When they leave you might get cut
Don’t you play with fire, baby
‘Less you know how to keep it hot
‘Cause when it goes out and you’re cold and alone
You’ll learn that heartache’s not
Just for fools and Romeos
For the weak who always bend
It can grab you outta nowhere
It can slowly reel you in
Feel it burn while it goes down
Feel it knock your judgment blurred
Intoxication tells the truth
At least that’s what I heard
Well, I guess we’ve all got stories
And I know we’ve all told lies
But there’s something ’bout the way you kiss
The way you say all your goodbyes
Makes me wonder who you are
When I’m not the one around
Better watch out, better look out
‘Cause they might just bring you down
So goodnight, baby, dream of me
Then scream for me some more
Let me be your ocean roaring
Let me stand upon your shore
Let me leave you with the rumor
That you’re the one I love
Let me stand right on the edge
And pray you’ll be the one who shoves… me
As I’m fallin’, fallin’, fallin’
Your life will flash before my eyes
Right before I hit rock bottom
I’ll be lifted by your cries
Your eyes, your eyes, your eyes
I’ll be lifted by your eyes
God, you know I hate goodbyes
I won’t look you in the eyes…
Then I won’t have to look away
I know we both can’t stay.
You’ll forget me anyway.

But I know that you’ll remember
I won’t forget, I know.
A summer fling; another dream
Now it’s time for me to grow…
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Ok...double post...sorry!
And hello embarrassing typo! But it's fixed now!

Thanks (((H)))