OK. A rant is supposed to be a complaint about a bothersome person or situation. So, I will rant about . . .

. . . myself.

I keep messing up whenever I engage in private conversations with other Minglers, and it leaves me feeling depressed.

Background: I haven't said so in public before, but I am currently going through a very difficult time with my physical health. The physical pain that I experience on a daily basis is crippling, so much that I haven't worked since the week before last Christmas. I am officially on leave-of-absence from my job, but I anticipate having to resign soon, because the pain is too much for me to bear outside of my home. If I were not receiving financial assistance from relatives, then I would be destitute.

Although I experience pain while using a computer (just as I am while typing this), I keep posting things at Mingle2 because it helps me to emotionally cope with my struggle. All too often Mingle2 is my lifeline to the outside world.

Anyway, while here I have tried to befriend people who are going through their own struggles, and I converse with them through private messaging. That is when I goof up. I say too much or the wrong thing. I want nothing more than friendship, and yet I give people the wrong impression. I know that I do by the way that people respond.

For example, imagine a couple of your friends telling you that they are too tired to do anything, and then later you see them at a party. Were they really tired, or were they simply trying to get rid of you?

If I am so bad a person that another would avoid me, then what is wrong with me?

So, I am ranting about myself, because I am my own worse enemy. Sometimes I feel like giving up on socializing. Is it worth the pain?
I wish that I had a real friend who could understand my physical and emotional struggles, but I can't have such a friend if I drive people away.

Thus, in this rant I am the bothersome party, and I apologize to anyone I have alarmed or offended by my words. I try to be the cowboy who wears the white hat, but I keep dropping my hat in the mud. Who wants someone with a muddy hat?

OK. A rant is supposed to be a complaint about a bothersome person or situation. So, I will rant about . . .

. . . myself.

I keep messing up whenever I engage in private conversations with other Minglers, and it leaves me feeling depressed.

Background: I haven't said so in public before, but I am currently going through a very difficult time with my physical health. The physical pain that I experience on a daily basis is crippling, so much that I haven't worked since the week before last Christmas. I am officially on leave-of-absence from my job, but I anticipate having to resign soon, because the pain is too much for me to bear outside of my home. If I were not receiving financial assistance from relatives, then I would be destitute.

Although I experience pain while using a computer (just as I am while typing this), I keep posting things at Mingle2 because it helps me to emotionally cope with my struggle. All too often Mingle2 is my lifeline to the outside world.

Anyway, while here I have tried to befriend people who are going through their own struggles, and I converse with them through private messaging. That is when I goof up. I say too much or the wrong thing. I want nothing more than friendship, and yet I give people the wrong impression. I know that I do by the way that people respond.

For example, imagine a couple of your friends telling you that they are too tired to do anything, and then later you see them at a party. Were they really tired, or were they simply trying to get rid of you?

If I am so bad a person that another would avoid me, then what is wrong with me?

So, I am ranting about myself, because I am my own worse enemy. Sometimes I feel like giving up on socializing. Is it worth the pain?
I wish that I had a real friend who could understand my physical and emotional struggles, but I can't have such a friend if I drive people away.

Thus, in this rant I am the bothersome party, and I apologize to anyone I have alarmed or offended by my words. I try to be the cowboy who wears the white hat, but I keep dropping my hat in the mud. Who wants someone with a muddy hat?

From moi? Never lol

Only time I try to change someone is from clothed to unclothed lol

I've never been married myself. I am very picky. If someone tries to change who I am it won't work. Don't like tattoos it wont work especially since I'm getting another.

BTW vintagenerdy the big misconception about vintage is old when its really classic and classy and sexy. You don't get it any better than that and even outside vintage you rarely find classic and classy women anymore no offense to anyone here. Happy Valentine's to all and to all a goodnight! Oops got Valentine's and Christmas mixed up LOL.

Thank YOU SISTER,,,I believe I shall..

I'm tired of word bully's spreading their filthy letters joined together thinking they don't want to get ANY better.

Tired of the ones who no one knows who follow others around this net,,
and cause them HAVOC...all the time with their lies and tries,
to destroy and ruin an innorcent heart,as they tare their worlds apart.

Anger and hate can't possibly radiate, and think ANYONE would want to ask them to date.

we are a family of people and friends, and strangers are always welcomed to begin, but bad is bad, and for that i'm sad.

Thats my rant and my chant, NOW someone can come in and say I CAN'T.

Thank you for giving me a space, to speak what others keep behind their face, I feel beeter,,please send me my Bill,,
Thanks Doc...