pain hurts its a bit*h
pain is love
pain is hate
pain tells you your alive
but what if your numb to it all
never feel a thing
laugh at danger
and cry to laughter
lost the understanding
and forgot about love
thought you found it
but you only lost it
but still feel no pain for it
confused and abused
shaken and damged
but can only feel used when a single thought come to mind
only to hear the birds sing when you think about theyre name
shivers down your back when you hear their voice
and the sweat bead when that one touches your skin
all gone with drunkin words
but still after the sharpness of the pain
all is numb
what to do
what to say
am I numb
does it hurt that bad
o well **** it lifes a ***** and then you die
but then agian
ive spoke to much and said to little
is that how i change it say whats on my mind let the bluntness of the truth over take the sweet words i could whisper in to her ear
or roll over and let the ugly words of a drunk little boy
while twisted and shaped from the words of sober people

I sit here and stare into my self
As a mourning man would
Lookin for the answers to appease my pain
That I hold so deep within Letting go of all I hold so dear

Watching from afar I see the answer
With the pain from my examination
The hatred that I hold within
Keeps me from being one with them

I am so cold with my divining cancer
So sick with my own regrets
I can only watch you as the fighting dancer
I can’t help but feel like a marionette

These strings are my chains
That wrap around my mind
Every thing I have tried only leaves me blind
So I keep wandering through my self inflicted pain

My only answers are held by a fighting dancer
Who holds the chains that run through my veins
And leaves me cold within as she only laughs and cries