It is easy to get disheartened when you're feeling low. Don't give up!

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Welcome to Mingle. Join the forums and let people get to know you and what you are about. What do you do for the Red Cross?

Haha, thank you. Simply the fact that I will not allow myself to be physically abused anymore is certainly a step in the correct direction.

As of late most of my "close" friends have been drinking. I use the term 'close' loosely, obviously. (Ahahaha pun). I've been asked many a time, "Why don't you drink?" And it's simply a matter of personal preference. That and as well as the fact that I have not done recreational drugs in a very long time (nothing against them) is also showing that I am unwilling to bend my own desires in order to please others.

The thing is, is that in my town where I grew up, there's this thing, basically a lot of younger girls getting pregnant. Usually because of the lack of use of birth control. The thing I'm getting at in this situation, is that usually it was because of peer pressure. The younger guys telling them it doesn't feel as great. One of the first steps in building myself up was actually starting birth control, because many had told me, "Oh it won't happen to you." I didn't listen and took my own path, as I do want children in the future, but as of right now, no.

Another few things which have built me up higher then before are simple things, I bake, and I cook. I don't alter my physical appearance, as usually some have the thought then they only look good with make up... Blah blah. ANYWAYS. It's such a shame that so little know how to make a decent meal, because it's really a great confidence builder! Just knowing you could make a nice meal.

That and jewelry making for me, I love it and people seem to like my work.

The root of my lack of confidence is usually the abuse I'd had when I was a child. I basically was told I'd do nothing with my life, and people seem to go, "See? You aren't." After you've heard nothing aside from that, you start to believe it. I mean, yeah, it's lame, and it sucks, but I'm working on building my self confidence in other ways besides the usual ways.

I'm alright with people who aren't super confident, no idea why but people who are, really rub me the wrong way, not entirely sure why. But I'm one of those people who isn't going to sugar coat the truth, and people don't like that and say that I'm hurting their self confidence, though for the most part it has little to nothing to do with the situation, it honestly depends.

As I've matured over the years, I've stopped putting up with a lot I used to, which I suppose, shows more confidence then I had before. I refuse to put up with it, I don't need it in my life. That and I have much more important things to do with my time then worry about some idiot dissing me or whatever. :P