sorry i have to say if it wasnt for weed id be gone today when i had my last hernia surgery i think they messed me up bad gained 115 pounds in less than a month both legs swelled up like balloons an when i walked for the next 6 months or so i thought i was going to die felt like needles in my feet all the way across the bottom of the feet an i couldnt get any excercise i got up to 415 pounds finally decided to go back to smoking erb what a life difference i was able to go walk somewhere without the excruciating needle pain hurting as bad.i smoke most nights after work an do not before work or going to alot of places .usually when im done . i now weigh 265 an feel pretty good most of the time i hate sitting still at work the arthritis kills me but if i stay moving i feel good. i dont drink very much at all an dont do any other drugs an really hate antidepressants for what it does to people in the long run .people should go read the stampact of 1937 an research why it is now illegal. hard working people like myself that have worked for 11 yrs always have to fear getting fired while other people are so doped up on pills its not even funny what desicions they make that effect the rest of the employees jobs in there work day.

hang in there i can simphasize with ya im not sure what the right anwser should be im sure it would be go have some fun somewhere he isnt.
i had a bad breakup in 98 with a woman an was shall we call it scarred emotionally an physically my health went to shaving cream for about the next 3 yrs before i finally decided to go on with life i have never been able to have a steady relation ship since then due to major trust issues . im loyal an a faithfull person once i commit but like talking for a bit first . i hope your search an heartache dissappeer way faster than mine .good luck

have to say ive had women do the same thing to me on the first chat online kinda loose interest quick then for me.

also heights if im close to a big bluff i dont want to be right next to the edge.

clowns i dont like em. an crowded places over 4 is a crowd lol hermit kinda thing going .

usually it goes in spells il meet 2 or 3 girls at one time darn the luck if all 3 wont be out of country or the state an want me to send money so once a month or so i meet a few some times just dont think will ever meet the right one lol.

sheer boredom i think.

usually no doesnt work out well.

id just do it as i always did an live it up a little just for fun of it.

welcome

when boredom strikes me lol.

not sure id know if it hit me upside the head lol.

good perfume but not to much of it.

hmm ok lol.

id have to ask lol

dont know about erasing all but definately the last one for sure.just cant seem to get rid of that evil lol.

ahoy mates lol

usually when i hear i love you the first chat is a good run sign for me lol but usually i wait to see an it usually is the same ending if they say love or long term first chat. lol dont know if that is what you are doing or not just my experiance. with women online.

sorry if you dont like having to show your id at a checkpoint an registration id say dont drive.

to justans comment

I just had to agree with what you are saying i know there are nice ones somewhere but its like sticking your head under a gillateen these days to find a good woman.
but living alone can make you a different person after so many years an it gets harder an harder to trust anyone the longer you live alone been living alone since 99 better an easier to deal with the financial part but hard to be around large crowds of people .just my life as it is. so if you can be with someone do it .i think you might come out better in the longrun,