WHAT THE HELL????? it was just a lil story... why do some people have to
look into it so far... even to the point of "testing" it? talk about
ignorance... it was a cute story, get over it.

i do work tomorrow, but at 8 pm, im watching a movie and have had way
too much coffee

sheena, it will, it might take more than 4 months, my first love took 3
years to get over, and if you ever need anyone to talk to just send me a
message

there are plenty of us "real women" out there, most of you guys are just
too shallow to see us, like the apples in the tree, most guys want the
easy ones from the bottom, so look at yourself before you ask if there
are any real women out there

to be honest, thisis about friendship, or the the people who pretend to
be your friend... better yet. i wrote this in college, when all i had
was the people who dragged me down, i had no less than 2 cases of beer
in my fridge a night, and i was heavy into weed, i never did crack...
but partying was my drug, and all i wanted was a real friend, and it is
about change, the theft of innocence. but if yall wanna know how i ended
up... send me a message, ill tell you... its really interesting

thank you all, i appreciate it... its tuesday... and ill tell yall how
it goes

when i was in college, i had a problem with partying, and i got into a
lot of trouble. i am probably one of the only ones you will ever hear
honestly say that getting kicked out of school was one of the best
things that could ever happen to me... cause i had to move back home...
i stopped partying so much (now its only like one every couple months) i
have to say that my mother... single parent of 3 has gone above and
beyond, and should have never done that, cause i put her into debt back
then, right now, i am getting back on my feet, and i am helping her with
the debt i put her in... i am 22 years old. i owe her everything, this
is one of the reasons living with your parents is a good thing.

that was really good, and your saying i have talent????? lol

why do i do this to myself
i lay here in self pity
hoping someone will understand
what i am going through
praying that you will come to me
and tell me ill befine
but it has to be you
no one makes me feel safe
like you do
they cant help me
my so called friends
your not here
so i will stay
and be alone
i will cry myself to sleep
hoping the drugs will
take your place
when im gone
i hope you change
so no one has to go through
what i did, with you
to take away the pain
i will do anything
my brain is hurting
and so is my heart
my eyes want to let it all go
but i wont let that happen
i know they are all care
but im doin nothin wrong
my only drug is my pain
and this i cant stop
it has me consumed
i cant see myself anymore
dont blame me for my actions
i cant stop this hunger
to hurt you and me
i am now different
i am reckless and care-free
i used to love everything
and now its turned to hate
please help me i cant ask
but if you pay attention
you will see it in my eyes
i need your love and friendship
i need you here with me
i cant go back to the way i was
because ive gone too far
my world has now changed
its now dark and scary
save me from myself
save me from my pain
Samantha Marie Rice
2-9-04

why do i do this to myself
i lay here in self pity
hoping someone will understand
what i am going through
praying that you will come to me
and tell me ill befine
but it has to be you
no one makes me feel safe
like you do
they cant help me
my so called friends
your not here
so i will stay
and be alone
i will cry myself to sleep
hoping the drugs will
take your place
when im gone
i hope you change
so no one has to go through
what i did, with you
to take away the pain
i will do anything
my brain is hurting
and so is my heart
my eyes want to let it all go
but i wont let that happen
i know they are all care
but im doin nothin wrong
my only drug is my pain
and this i cant stop
it has me consumed
i cant see myself anymore
dont blame me for my actions
i cant stop this hunger
to hurt you and me
i am now different
i am reckless and care-free
i used to love everything
and now its turned to hate
please help me i cant ask
but if you pay attention
you will see it in my eyes
i need your love and friendship
i need you here with me
i cant go back to the way i was
because ive gone too far
my world has now changed
its now dark and scary
save me from myself
save me from my pain
Samantha Marie Rice
2-9-04

how do you know your boyfriend has a high sperm count?


} you have to chew before you swallow {

thank you. good luck with your pregnancy, and i wish you all the best.
p.s., my father hasnt even seen it yet

thank you, i usually dont have this problem, but this is the first time
im actually meeting someone i met on the internet... and i hope i dont
make myself look stupid, one more question, if i get there first, do i
satnd up and shake his hand, or just stay sitting and say hi?

you used to be my father
i used to trust in you
i used to believe in you
you were my daddy
but wouldnt you think
that eventually i would figure out
all your lies
i used to have faith
that you would come around
id tell everyone you would
you made a liar out of me
i figured i was the one
without the life
without the career
without love
but all along it was you
i actually felt sorrry for you
now i see i dont need you
i have my life
i have my aspirations
i have the love of everyone around me
you are not my burden
i have enough
it may be difficult at times
but i can handle it all on my own


Samantha Marie Rice

i have two things to say, this as very good, and also you are a very
beautiful woman, good luck, and keep writing

ok, i am at a total loss for words on this subject... depending on my
schedule, i might have a date on tuesday for coffee, but i met this guy
on a dating site, i dont know how i should look, (i was thinking jeans
and a t shirt), and i sure as hell dont know what to talk about, and
when i get nervous i start babbling on about stupid shit... please help
on topics... and if you have any advice.... please...

budweiser... and ya gotta add the bonfire... campin out... man... that
makes for a great night

be honest,and if he doesnt listen, be harsh... tell him to go away you
dont want anything to do with him... it works for me...lol...{:)

ok, the dting sites are usually just to see what is out there... for
most women, there are a select few that only want the attention, that is
what gives women like me a bad image, some of us really want to be with
men who can be there for them and love them, but there arnt that many
that ive met

i feel safe no matter what, i have my family, i dont want my privacy to
be public, my little brother is in the army, and i am proud of him, i am
tired of people trying to make stuff about us and only us, there are
other countries, and we are all the same, we all have fears, we all have
families, and most of us have jobs, so lets lets just be with our
families