why do i do this to myself
i lay here in self pity
hoping someone will understand
what i am going through
praying that you will come to me
and tell me ill befine
but it has to be you
no one makes me feel safe
like you do
they cant help me
my so called friends
your not here
so i will stay
and be alone
i will cry myself to sleep
hoping the drugs will
take your place
when im gone
i hope you change
so no one has to go through
what i did, with you
to take away the pain
i will do anything
my brain is hurting
and so is my heart
my eyes want to let it all go
but i wont let that happen
i know they are all care
but im doin nothin wrong
my only drug is my pain
and this i cant stop
it has me consumed
i cant see myself anymore
dont blame me for my actions
i cant stop this hunger
to hurt you and me
i am now different
i am reckless and care-free
i used to love everything
and now its turned to hate
please help me i cant ask
but if you pay attention
you will see it in my eyes
i need your love and friendship
i need you here with me
i cant go back to the way i was
because ive gone too far
my world has now changed
its now dark and scary
save me from myself
save me from my pain
Samantha Marie Rice
2-9-04

time heals all wounds. don't look back....and get some rest and a good
protein shake and open the window if you can't get outside. Call 1 800
HIT HOME.

It sound like a crack head! oooops

to be honest, thisis about friendship, or the the people who pretend to
be your friend... better yet. i wrote this in college, when all i had
was the people who dragged me down, i had no less than 2 cases of beer
in my fridge a night, and i was heavy into weed, i never did crack...
but partying was my drug, and all i wanted was a real friend, and it is
about change, the theft of innocence. but if yall wanna know how i ended
up... send me a message, ill tell you... its really interesting

girl thats deep and i know exactly what your going through. i'm doin the
same on its cuz my ex. i also hope time does heal the wound cuz its
been almost 4 months now and i still have trouble sleeping cuz he isn't
there to hold me.

sheena, it will, it might take more than 4 months, my first love took 3
years to get over, and if you ever need anyone to talk to just send me a
message

Samantha,
I know of the despair that went thru your mind
when you wrote this. Tonight pain is MY drug.
I am just in so much fucking pain!
Your poem hit home with me.
Keep on writing and posting.
You are among the best talented
on this forum, you and King.
I read writings from both of you
tonight and I feel every word.
Jim