It's all just a moment
A second of time
This life that we're living
No reason or rhyme

So I'm walking in faith
Knowing love can be found
If you look really hard
Love is all around

Reaching out
Heart to heart
Sharing time
Though we're all far apart

Reaching high
For our dreams
Sharing laughs
Or those inbetweens

Tapping on computers
Exposing what's inside
Laughing out loud
With eyes open wide

Some are just friends
Some find their love
I pray for the best
When push comes to shove

For it takes just one moment
For change to come
I hope to share one day
With my own true love.

SDF 1-6-12

General Hospital

Congratulations! Hope you are both very happy for a very long time!

A man of power
Now thin and frail
Sits in his room
Tear smeared trail

He misses his wife
Who is sick and alone
Yet he has dementia
Is wondering why he isn't at home

He once was a prison guard
A man full of power
It's hard watching his life now
In this final hour

He only wants his wife to be
Happy and fine
So he asks me to buy a card
With an "I love you" line.

I don't need to watch tv
To see true love
By watching my stepfather and Mom
I'm blessed from above

I hate knowing they won't go home
At least not here on earth
A nursing home is next for them
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My mom went into a nursing home tonight, and my stepdad is crying in another hospital missing her. This is so sad. I am hoping they will be united in the same nursing home soon. They have been apart since my mom went to emergancy room on New Years Eve.

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My mom went into a nursing home today, and she is still quite weak. My stepdad was admitted to a hospital for pneumonia, but this was a blessing in a way since he would have care and we hope he will be united with his wife soon. I went to see him today and he told me to please go shopping for a card for my mom so she knows he loves her. I will take the card to him for him to sign it. It brings tears to my eyes knowing they found each other a long time ago, and they worked to keep their marriage through the good and bad. Bottom line is when it's all said and done their love was the biggest asset they had.

My mom told her sister she felt this time she wouldn't make it. I can see she is tired and worn out. Going into a nursing home isn't going to be easy for either of them, but I believe if they have each other then there is a better chance for them both.

Today I went to see my mom in the hospital. She is the kind of woman who never wants her family to worry. What I didn't know is she had fallen, and here I called her every day to check on her and my stepdad. Her answer is "Why should I worry my daugthers?" My sister did get papers off line for power of attorney, but we didn't have anyone to notorize the papers.... and I guess my sister had it so she would be the first one and I would be second.

The doctor I spoke to today said her COPD has progressed, and he wasn't so sure she had pneumonia, but it is possible. She has been complaining of back pain.

All I know is I'm not in a very good position as a single mom with a little boy with Down syndrome. I've always believed if God brings you to it, he will bring you through it. My mom is a strong believer in prayer as well.

My sister got so upset today she called me while I was at the hospital and she screamed "I can't take this anymore. I've had it and I'm leaving." I thought she was abandoning her father, my stepfather. It was a horrible event considering there I was in the hospital with my mom and I told my mom it wasn't good and I had to leave immediately. My sister didn't pick up the phone, and then she finally did tell me she almost left him. We are both not exactly living very close to my parents... and neither one of us has the extra money for gas. They put my mom in a hospital a whole other direction. She is angry that everything is such a mess right now and I can understand her anger. She feels my parents should have planned, but I told her it's hard to plan getting old and I know my mom just wanted to take care of everything for as long as she could. She loves her husband and believes she should take care of him. It's always been hard knowing they smoke, and knowing that is what is killing them both.

Anyway... my parents need care, but my little boy also has a stuffed up nose here and a cold is lethal to my parents. I was just sick through my vacation away from school. I could not even go visit my mom during that time because I knew her rule is 'do not come if you have a cold or are sick'.... I totally understand this and how a simple cold could put them in the hospital.

Thank you for all of your help and advice. I greatly appreciate it. My sister is the one staying with my stepdad right now. She said she has off until Tuesday. I have to go to work tomorrow.

Tonight my mom went by ambulance to hospital. They transferred her to a much bigger hospital and she has touch of pneumonia and COPD and is complaining of back pain. My stepdad has dementia and she was taking care of him. He has a catheter, and is on oxygen and needs 24/7 care. Here I am raising my son with Down syndrome who has a cold, and I am feeling overwhelmed not knowing how I will care for my parents when I was just out of work for a week with no pay cus I work for a school district working with a severe case of autism as an aide.

I really need the Lord's blessing, and some answers. Thank you in advance!

Thank you Terry and Jazz! Wishing you the very best!

Strike up a match
Now watch it burn
A twinkle... flash
My heart just yearns

A log burning
My fireplace
I sit alone
This time and space

Light dancing flames
Burnt hues of joy
Cascading ash
I wait... oh boy

I wait and wish
I hope and dream
Of a warm hand
A loving scene

Burnt embers cool
Crackling declines
I wait with warmth
Hearth to unwind

Within my soul
The wood just sits
Wait for my match
He comes- its lit

SDF 12/29/11




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My biggest mistake seems to be not exploring education earlier and believing I could be a stay at home mom. I have always felt the biggest gift I ever gave to my kids was my time, but now that I struggle financially to take care of my son I wish I had pursued my education a long time ago.

teadipper.... yes my son can be very silly and cute, cuddily and lately he's been wanting to give eskimo kisses with his runny nose... which I have to laugh about now cus I had the runny nose first. Anyway... we have our good days, and our challenging moments and I would not change a thing about him. Everything about him has made me a much better and stronger person. We are blessed to have each other. So thank you!

nj... I love it! I now have a job working with a child with autism and this child is severe with her behaviors.... each day I worry about getting my hair pulled out or being attacked or bitten and I am working in a public school, not a hospital. I've thanked God each day that I have the job, but I can't imagine what it is like for the parents who stay awake all night long since there are days she doesn't sleep. People have NO CLUE what it's like.

I come home and raise my son with Down syndrome... the child who often won't keep his socks and shoes on in the store. I know all too well what it's like to fight with a child to keep on clothing and to stay in the car seat since he is now smart enough to get himself out.

Sending a big ol hug to every parent who needs one today!

Fantastic write Terry!

I love the skywriting idea.... made me laugh today. Honesty is the best policy!

hot drinks for me today... cough cough

Thank you... so sweet of you Jazz!

Howdy doody to all you cuties! Hope you are having a fantastic day!

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