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Tue 06/02/15 04:58 PM
I am Single for being too shy to tell anyone my feelings for them because I fear the embarrassment of them turning me down.

I am Single because I was born with a rare condition that was rectified when I was younger leading to me being Circumcised. When I learned that I was "Different" down stairs than everyone else, I believed I was different and I separated myself from social interactions with people at school, leading to being bullied. Due to being bullied and feeling different this led to a long trail of thoughts and behaviors that blocked me from ever "experimenting" during high school/college. Even after being informed that all down stairs is perfectly normal and is actually safer than "Normal Sex" I have still failed to shake my psychological attachment to my attachment. I literally fear having sex.

I am Single because unlike everyone else around the 18-25 age group I do not like Alcohol and therefore can not invent any confidence to talk to girls/women that I like.

I am Single because the one time I got close to a girl who I would have had sex with that night, informed me that she was on her period and that if I came back on Thursday then we can do it. The following day (Tues) I text her saying that I couldn't do it because I knew that she had a BF and also my best mate at the time fancied her more than I did. So I felt that If I had gone back on the Thursday I would have had quite a few people demanding my head if they ever found out.

I am Single because I have been Single for so long that it is becoming increasingly impossible to break any of the above scars and routines to ever find someone who will actually give me a chance.

I am Single because all I ever do is think about "it" and feel like I somehow have an addiction to sex, which makes me wonder how it is possible to be addicted to something you have never had.

I am Single because all I ever see or hear or think about is related somehow back to "it". Everything constantly gets me down and upsets/depresses me because it seems like everyone is doing "it" except me.

I am Single because I honestly believe that if I could have a 100% accurate answer to the question: Will I Ever Do It? and the answer be No that I would without a shadow of doubt in my mind, Commit Suicide.

I am Single because anyone I've ever asked helped from about my situation has simply turned round to me and said "I can't help you" and they also seem as though they don't know who can.

I am Single because other people, such as today, which has led me onto this huge rant, just can't help but remind you of how bad your situation is with a statement like "I've not had sex in the last two weeks". This really did deal me a big blow since I've been on the Planet for just over 1406 Weeks and haven't had it once and your moaning about 2 weeks ago, its about time I starting moaning in public to other people instead of keeping it mostly to myself.

I am Single because without all the love comments and the talk about finding the right one put to one side for a moment, statistics tell me that there are roughly 3.5 Billion human females in existence and that they slightly outnumber males and I only need 1 of them. Also however all the girls seem to be taken and all the guys seem to be single? And since the average person apparently has sex around 2 times a week, using calculations based on having a first time at 18 then I have approximately missed out on having had sex around 940 times of which if I have one a day starting tomorrow for the next 940 days I would still be 268 shy but getting the first one under my belt is proving harder to achieve than the odds of colonizing Mars is the next 10 years.

I am Single because I feel like nobody cares and that my entire life has been a waste. I reached this point when I was around 16 (11 years ago) that I felt like life has stopped still and that i can not move forward with it until I have done "it". I feel like the day I do "it" assuming it will ever occur, will be the day that a huge mental burden will be lifted from my mind and I would feel like I had evolved into a Human Being.

I am Single

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